Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
B M Jan 2015
Please don’t let a cold touch run shivers down your spine. Don’t let the darkness turn you blind. There is a fire somewhere. The sun is shining brightly right now but my soul feels like stone. I wear my heart on my sleeve, stitched in so tightly that every time I move, it bangs against my wrist. There are more dents and cracks in my heart than I can count. It’s broken beyond repair. You inadvertently found the pieces to make it whole again. I’m scared for when those pieces go missing again.
B M Jan 2015
IF I WAS ABLE TO TAKE EVERYTHING BACK, IT WOULD BE LIKE A FAIRY TALE. I WOULD BE ABLE TO RUN OFF INTO THE SUNSET, WITH THE WORDS “HAPPILY EVER AFTER” IN BOLD OVER MY HEAD. INSTEAD, IT’S JUST A BLANK SCREEN. NO HAPPY ENDING. IN THE DARKNESS, I WASN'T ABLE TO PIN POINT THE SOURCE OF MY PAIN. I DON’T KNOW WHAT TRIGGERED IT, BUT THE BULLET PASSING THROUGH ME HURT ENOUGH. WHAT I’M SAYING IS THAT, I DON’T WANT TO BE FIXED IF YOU’RE JUST GOING TO LEAVE. IF YOU’RE ONLY GOING TO **** ME UP MORE, PLEASE SHOW YOURSELF TO THE DOOR.
B M Jan 2015
There’s nothing beautiful about the crippling words that escape my mouth.
There’s no harmony when I feel as if my heart is going to burst.
I don’t feel happy when I write about sad things
And it seems the more peaceful the words the more awful the situation.
Don’t romanticize pain.
Don’t pretend that sadness is a trend.
Falling apart isn’t something you sign up for.
It’s something you get drafted for.
Forced out of your home into foreign land and forced to live day to day,
Going through the motions
You continue to fight for others but never for your own good.
Depression isn’t a party.
You don’t get presents.
No cake.
It feels as if you’re drowning in shallow water and all you hear is people screaming “get up!”
But walking away
There is nothing beautiful about the sadness that consumes me.
B M Jan 2015
I think that when I tell people that art saved me, I’m not sure that they believe me. That I’m a fool and that art is for the eccentric and the lonely. That a form of entertainment can hold so much meaning to one person may baffle them. Maybe it is *******. Maybe art didn’t save me and I somehow did it myself, but again, isn’t that *******? Art is not only limited to the creation aspect, the classes and the kids with purple hair. It is music. It’s the group of people in the hallway singing their hearts out about a home near and dear to them. It’s the girls in the bathroom fixing their make-up, thinking that is all that matters. It’s the boys in the playground, talking about life and busting on each other. It’s the kids who come home crying because they had an anxiety attack in the middle of English class and the teacher told them to leave because they were causing a distraction. The kids walking into class, who have their headphones blaring because music makes more sense than what the teacher has on the board. If home is where the heart is then my home is any place on earth. If you tell someone that art saved you, and they ask how, just tell them that ignorance is bliss and the fact that they don’t understand says more about their life than you explaining it to them ever will.
B M Jan 2015
I WANT TO WRITE FALL OUT BOY SONGS ABOUT YOU. SOMETHING THAT WOULD TAKE YOUR SADNESS AWAY AND AT THE SAME TIME YOU’D HEAR A NICE TUNE. I WANT YOU TO FEEL THE WAY I DO WHEN THE SUN TOUCHES MY SKIN SO YOU WON’T BE SCARED IF STARTS TO BE CLOUDY. THE STORM MIGHT BE SCARY BUT I PROMISE YOU I WON’T LET GO OF YOUR HAND.
B M Dec 2014
People wear black to cover up the emptiness of their soul
We wear rings and necklaces and say “I’m okay”
So nice and so kind, no one sees.
Our own bodies wrecked beyond repair
While we still give parts to others
Trying to save people from sadness,
They don’t have a clue
Actions speak louder than words
So we stay silent
Alone, I’m just surviving
So it doesn't matter if I stop living.
B M Dec 2014
If I end up with you, all of the mangled parts of my heart will mend together like stained glass
Broken and beautiful
I need your soft words to help me be calm,
To keep me from falling into myself
Trapped inside this labyrinth of sadness and confusion
So far, people have just walked by my empty shell of a person
Simply because they thought someone was home
I don’t want to be the person who pretends to be warm, when I’m ice cold
I hate being the person who says it’s okay to tell your story,
Yet I never finish a chapter
I am like the moon
Never completely exposed
it's eh but i need to get my feelings out there
Next page