You'll be pestered with letters.
Partly because I like to look at your name in my messy handwriting but mostly because if I don't - I'd go crazy without saying half the things I'd try to say in person.

Sometimes I'll stare at you and wonder how on earth I ever managed to acquire such a beautiful creature.
And I'll wonder how long you'll take to realise you could do so much better.

I'll write you poetry,so many pieces.
Describing your eyes and your hands.
I'll write sonnets to the freckle on the right side of your neck.

I'll make you listen to songs that remind me of you & believe me there are many.
I'll write the lyrics on my hands hoping you'll be intrigued to search for answers.

I like code names, ridiculous ones.
So you'll get a few of those too.
I watch tons of movies, I'll do it while I lay my head on your chest.
I laugh at the most inappropriate times.

If public displays of affection embarass you - I'll embarass you everywhere we go.

You should know I'm over-emotional & extremely jealous. I get paranoid and I worry a lot too.

You'll be mine & I'll be yours.
You'll mean the world to me because I don't have anyone else.

Maybe I ruined it because I wasn’t able to open up.
Maybe I ruined it because I never found someone I wanted to be with, could be with.
Maybe I don’t know how to express myself, and I’ve never been good at writing.
But honey when I tell you I love you, please don’t look at me like I’m crazy.
When I tell you, I want you forever don’t roll your eyes.
When I told you I needed to let you go, it was the only time you ever believed me.
I didn’t want it to end like this, and it’s not like no one meant anything to me.
It’s just when I close my eyes and picture who it is I want to be with it is him.
I can’t let it go and I’ve been trying to hard but it’s one of those things that is just always there.
Hanging over me like “you want this, you want this” and his smile is like anything I ever loved and his voice reminds me of anything I was ever fond of and when he looks at me my heart skips a beat.
I can’t help falling for sunshine.
I can’t help wanting a flower.
I don’t care about your past; I just want to be in your future.
I need to open up, and I need to stop worrying but oh god do you make me nervous.
I just don’t know if I’ll ever have you and if I do what are you like when you’re alone?
Because you got me thinking about you at 3am when I can’t sleep.
You got me thinking about what you look like when no one is around.
You make me want to know everything about you.
But you’re confident, and I’m shy.
You’re open, and I’m sheltered.
If I could compare you to a summer’s day you’d be the sunshine and I’d be a tree. Taking it all in and ever wanting to be closer to you.
You make me want to know you.
The only thing is; do you want to know me?

But that’s the thing,
Life isn’t a fairy tale.
There’s no happy ending
That’s why I’m so worried
Because I may not have that happy ending
Maybe it’s too early to tell
Maybe I’m just being paranoid.
But my fears are real
And I don’t want them to come true.

It’s an odd feeling
When you try to make yourself stop caring
But then that’s all you end up doing.
I’m not saying I want to make it right
I’m not saying that you deserve another chance
And I’m not saying that we would work
All I’m saying is;
It’s not like you didn’t mean anything to me
It’s not that I hate you
It’s just, I wish things ended different
I’m not sorry
I won’t ever be
I just never stopped caring.

It takes a long time to figure out who is there for you
And who isn’t.
I have people in my life
That even when we fight and curse
We’re always there for each other
Then there are people
Who I wouldn’t waste my time with
Guess which you are.

You said that you don’t feel the need to answer
Yet you still want to talk to me
I wasn’t ever good at English,
But honey you’re contradicting
If this is your way of revenge
Or closer
Fine
Be a trick
I’m done
I’m done worrying
About you
About us
About everything I can’t change.