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Elena Sep 2018
Mirrors scare me
Because whatever person I may see
It's never quite who I want to be

I don't have much fat left, I know this much
But when I pinch my skin between my fingers
I can barely see it as such
And as long as I linger
In front of the dreaded mirror
I can never quite see
Myself as thin as I want to be

Sometimes I struggle to make myself eat
As much as I know I need
Because as soon as I cheat
And let myself eat
My abs are gone and I proceed
To approach the mirror
And see even clearer
Exactly what I don't want to see

"Why won't you let me
pick you up?"
"Don't you want some of this cake?"
Can't you see?
I'm much too heavy,
If only mentally.

I'm mentally heavy
Mirrors don't help me
Mirrors scare me
Elena Sep 2018
The night was dark. Pitch black as ebony. Thick, putrid clouds, swirling yet stagnant, a confused cloud of shadows, chaotic and ugly. The repulsive, murky mist of lies and darkness seemed to smother the filthy ghost of a once-white mansion
The seemingly sinister gas brewed like a storm, disturbing and convoluted as a filthy pond - the waters stirred darkly as pungent, coal-black mud was upset by unseen forces, the clarity and sweetness of prestine water now a distant memory. Echoing cries for restoration long since drowned out by the low, droning roar of the turmoltuos, all consuming cloud of despair.
But then -
But then, through the tarr black haze, where all hope was lost
But then, through the tarr black haze, a clear, pure note.
The sound of a distant trumpet, a battle cry, a chorus of distant, thundering feet pounding against the dusty roads, angry.
Angry, angry people, but angry was not all these people were.
Angry, angry, but these people who would become our saviors were hopeful.
Clear, blue passion, streaked crimson with fury.
They radiated from these people, protests.
These people cared. And with this care the people began to clear the stagnant water of lies and immorality, closer and closer to the crystal, sparkling pool of idealism.
And though the water never sparkled as much as the eyes of these people did when they spoke of their hopes and dreams, these people were satisfied, having made the lives of the people around them just that much better. And how? Oh, just a dash of passionate action.
  Aug 2018 Elena
Suhas Ghoke
Her shoes
Small and pretty ones .
She said u had no clue what my blue shoes are going through .
She had a shoe bite ,
She was uncomfortable .
The shoe soul weak holded just came out .
What the hell !!
She looked down at her feet with black eyes
She was worried .
Her innocence and beautiful face lost the charm
She cursed herself for the shoe she wore .
Brought a day just before from a big  shoe store .
She loved her little tiny ones and the branded trust
A mere 2 days and the pair went bust !!
I had no clue what to do ?
As it was raining outside  
Seeing her misery , i didn't feel cool  and I was worried about her humble feet .
Going barefooted along the road could not be fun .
Cellotape all over shoes was only idea left and looking for cobbler the another one .
Walking down  the street with broken shoe
I felt for her ,but nothing i could do .
With her walked in the shoe shop , she was blessed .
New pair and the smile on her face .
I said just chill and be happy , u got to share this moment with me bcz we haven't talked in a while .
She reminds we have to go home soon .
We rushed for the train .
She was happy though , no crowd , she could seat and  reach home . Waved my hand  and I could only  give her good wish .
All along the way I was thinking about her , had a laugh too but what if I would have gone through !!
She thanked me and was happy with her new shoes .
Indeed me too .
A day to be remembered .
                                                   - Suhas Ghoke
Elena Aug 2018
Color.
A smooth, buttery blur of color.
Light, pastel gray of the scorching pavement, accented by dark, stormy spots where it's wet.
The shocking, ice blue of the cool water
The sunny warmth on my back was a yellow feeling
The grass a pleasant shade of deep green.
Your tanned, cinnamon skin, pressed against mine, your elegant hand slipped into my own.
Your short, boyish hair, wet from the pool, dark, walnut curls capturing my heart.
Colors.
Your amber eyes steaked with chocolate and caramel hues, staring into mine.
The feelings you gave me, happy pink and excited red
You listened to me, you told me I was beautiful that day by the pool.
I can't stop picturing this scene, over and over,
remembering, reremembering, and rereremembering

the colors of you
Elena Aug 2018
I miss you
I miss your style
I miss that compassionate smile
You've only been gone a little while, but...
I miss you

My search history is basically just different iterations of the same set of words
What's the time difference between our worlds?
This whole time zone thing is ******* me up
but I'm trying my best
I love talking to you
I still get nervous when we text
I need to find out what you're doing, where you're going next

I have the picture you drew for me on my desk
My brother tried to touch it but I smacked him;
there's not much else that you left behind
Every time I see it I'm reminded of you
but it's kinda redundant,
because you never leave my mind

I wish you were sitting here beside me
You're always causing that crazy feeling inside me
It's not quite the same, digitally

I miss you
I miss your kind eyes
Your heart of unbelievable size
I miss you

It feels like it's been forever
But I never
Stop thinking
Of you

You're living in the future,
I'm living in the past
Replaying my moments with you
over and over
Trying, hoping, to make them last

Miles and miles in between me and you
Maybe you miss me too
I miss you

I'm blushing just picturing
our memories made this spring
Something about you
If only you knew
how amazing you are
and that you shine much brighter
than any other star

Your amber irises melt me
I don't know, maybe you've felt me
Trying to reach you mentally
Trying to tell you
I miss you

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