I remember when everything was simple
I prayed everything seemed possible
I had dreams too they were really huge
I did done things that were really cool
I was amongst a few good examples

Until you came and chained me
Until you came and jailed me
Until you came and took from me
My sight as you blindfolded me, so
You can take my hand, as you leaded me
To your cage and told me it was ok.

You brought shame, you brought fear
You brought pain and you brought tears
You broke my bones and crippled me
You took from me the blessings and
You changed the real me and everything
You took from me my soul and my spirit.

I wish I could go back, but I'm jailed
I wish I could be free, but I'm chained
I tried to escape in one and many ways
I tried not to lose hope, but it just fades
I tried to stay strong as they said
I tried to push and punch but I failed.

Don't you get tied, don't you get bored
Don't you see that I'm harmless
Don't you see that I'm worthless
How could you be so heartless
Why you fighting me, I'm defenseless
You have everything, I have nothing left

Just leave me, just free me
I want to just be me, the old me
I want to pray, I want to play
Good songs of praise and dance
I want to sleep at night
I wat have a big smile without you.


I just want you to stay away from me
I will keep away from you too.

There's everyone else, then there's you
I think of something pretty then I close
My eyes and see you, then talk to myself
As if I'm talking to you

I really hope that you will notice
The way I look at you, 'cause it has a message that says I love you but I'm scared of telling you

It kills me softly but sadly I can't tell you
Not 'cause I don't want to, but I don't trust that you do too, but if you don't, then  it ok cause it doesn't change anything not a bit

I still think about you
I still kiss you, in my mind
I still hold you and tell you
That I love you

I'm not crazy, I just have
A crush on you.

I was there sitting up straight like everyone, I was walking around with my head up like everyone, my stomach was tucked in and my chest was out like everyone, I shared jokes and I laughed with everyone

I was with them, I was just with them
But my mind wasn't there, so I stopped
Laughing and frowned on, their jokes were never funny at all, I slowly moved away until I couldn't hear them at all.

Then I remembered all the trauma
I remembered all the bad things I have been through, I then went and challenged myself in a battle of words and I lost
It saddened me, but it was just that.

I wish they'd hear me asking and answer
I wish they'd see me battling and chant
My name to give me strength and support, but they were so deep in their jokes, they laughed as if they celebrated my down fall as my mind punched me down and I felt.

Sadly I was with them but they were never with me, I cried out but they couldn't hear me, there I was lying down the bruise in my head bled till I died,
right in front of them

Yes I was with them, I was knocked down and killed in front of them, the jokes  the music and everything that was trending at the time is all that mattered to them when I tried reaching out to them

Yes I was with them. I died in front of them.


By: Lefa Ndlovu

She opened her warm arms for you Smiling and welcoming you deep into
Her heart, tears of joy filled her eyes, she
Hoped for not so much but just love, she
Trusted you to respect her and never to Break her heart and you promised never In your sober senses to hurt her
And she felt for it

You looked straight into her eyes,
Knowing very well you feeding her lies,
Manipulated  her mind and She only Believed you felt the same, not Knowing You brought her nothing but shame,  
When you came and played her
She thought  that You Were the one but You were planning to hit her behind and run leaving her behind

She treated you with kindness but you Were so heartless you stinged her  with Your bitterness you  came and change
The game took her innocence planing to Leave her in pain although she was with You through the rain you chewed and Threw her in drain, although she gave You all she had  you still took from her more than she gave, then you left

She never complained because she had Faith in you but you took advantage
With your fake love, you won her mind And her heart, she gave you more her soul But all you did was bruise and hurt her Then you left her in pain she could have Sent you to jail or prayed you to burn in Hell but instead she chose to forgive you Because she love and she cares for you

You injected her with lies and false hope She accepted you  with all your flaws but
You rejected her after getting what you wanted, not only you fooled and failed her
To fullfil your own evil shelfish feelings  
You played her.

Sleeplessly I spent my night
Not even a blink my eyes has done
I wandered in the deepest thoughts
A lot was in my mind, yes a lot

I know not so much, but if you
Ask me this is not right
Not for me, not for you
Certainly for neither of us

I ask myself if, had I not met you
Could I have known what I know?
Would my heart be cold as a snow?
Would my mind feel like it will explode?

But it is normal to feel like this, right?
Well maybe it isn't, and  I'm just trying
To convince myself one day it will be alright, but what if doesn't?

I ask myself, if loving you was alright
Then why does it hurt so much
If losing you was part of the plan
Why fall inlove in the first place?

If leaving you will numb all this pain
Then why does it seem so hard?
Why don't I sleep at night?
Why am I not feeling alright?

Another night gone without a blink
Another day gone without a decent sleep
There I was long lost in thoughts so deep
A wandering shepherdless flock of sheep

Does this ever happen to you?
Do you ever wish I was next to you?
Do you ever wish I never met you?
Do you ever doubt the love I have for you?

Well I do that a lot lately.
But do you blame me?
Or you just don't care
You've had enough maybe