January 22, 2025
Life is getting too tiring,
one second am fine and the next I just want to have a peaceful sleep, but I don’t want to die,
I have family hoping for the best for me while I’m thinking about the wrong things,
I know everything is going to get better but how long am going to have to wait
I don’t want to keep thinking about the negative thing, but I can’t help it I just want to have a peaceful place I can call my own.
Maybe to just a storm that is passing by and it done it going to be a beautiful rainbow and everything is going to be better.
It all me fault all I had to is pick the phone and talk but I can’t even do that, and my life keeps going down the hill
One day my rainbow will shine brightly, and that time is within my reach and not some illusion am using to get by
I will be perfectly fine, and I will survive the storm
I will have a better tomorrow
I have the lord with me so it will be like I never through the storm and my life has always been bright and shining

June 14, 2024
What should I write when my life is a blank canvas, I keep holding the paint brush, but it seems like I can’t bring myself to stain the canvas,
If I do not stain it, how can I know if it will end up a stain or become a beautiful masterpiece,
I keep wondering should I take the risk maybe my life will become a beautiful masterpiece or just be a stain that can’t be removed or be changed into a background, What a dilemma to face in life!!!
I keep asking who this person in front of the canvas is, me or the person am forced to become but the person I became isn’t the real me,
Tell me how I should put myself in front of the canvas and paint the old me in other to tell myself I have grow,
The canvas and I keep having a staring contest, but I don’t think I can ever have the courage to paint the canvas, I need someone to hold my hand and tell me okay even if it a stain it will still end in a beautiful canvas.