Like Medusa she has me hypmanatised
Threw the crowd
Those green eyes catch my soul
I can’t blink
I can’t speak
My feet one after the other following her scent like someone possessed
Possessed by her
Like a magnet she pulls me closer
I feel danger and excitement
I know not to follow
But I do
My heart beats out of my chest
Sweat drips from every pour
Shes beckoning me like a siren
I am her fisherman
She turns away from the crowd
Someplace quiet
I can’t see but I can hear her foot steps
From the darkness she pulls me near
So cold to the touch but I cannot resist
I await my fait
Like a animal startled and mesmerised
by the light
She indulges her next victim
I let her feast

In the darkness I sat
Only form of comfort
was my arms
wrapped around my self
My steady warm breath on my chest
To afraid to reach out
To stubborn
I sat there for awhile
To long for my liking
Time would just pass me by
I could hear out in the light
Out of the darkness
Laughter and happiness
How I craved such a substance
I had grown to my own comfort
Of my self
I forgot what it was like
being in the light
So
Step
By
Step
I removed the bricks from my cave
Brick
By
Brick
As I did
The light streamed in
Like a creature of the night
I crawled out
To venture the light
Never looking back

I walk threw the crowd bewitched by their simplicity and there happiness over the simplest of items. I don’t know what I came here to find but I’m drawn to the sound and the laughter. How I miss to smile and to feel compassion, these creatures do it with ease like it’s a act of just breathing the air. Yes I breath air to so why can’t I smile and laugh with the innocent little chuckle like they do, without something sinister behind it

A little girl, pink ballon in one hand fairy floss in the other, blonde curly pigtails trailing down her shoulders, with a fluffy pink dress only a grandpa could love, reassuring the girl she looks beautiful. Without a care in the world she twirls around and around eating her fairy floss, sweet I remember it tastes and I get clarification by this by the look on her face as she licks her lips

I remember those days not a care in the world apart from the present and all the wants you desire become yours to grasp, feeling and sound of all five senses tingling at every tip of your body

The days when I could feel is a great distant memory

So devilishly jealous of these beautiful creatures I am

ll regret this when I’m sober
When tomorrow comes
When the vision un blurs
I’m faded to disalution
I’ll forget when it’s over
Just a sip
No attachments
Doing this was not in my plan
All I know is that I’ll regret this
When it’s over
When the morning rays
Shine threw the window on my face
Highlighting me for the world
Putting me on spot light
I crawl under my covers
To eager to not remember
The vision of you

I am your mannequin
Dress me up from I am yours
Place your finger tips on me
Arrange me the way you wish
Put me on display
For my eyes are only for you
Leave me and I will wait
The dust settling around me
Watching the world go by
I wait for you
For you give me life
Your my puppet master
I am your creation

In tangled thoughts they sit in silence
Both uncertain of what to say
What impression they should make on one another
They both want the same thing
Longing to hold the other
He speaks of promises and reassurance
To heal her past wounds
She speaks of faith and trust
To heal his thoughts and calm the sea
They both agree that this is all they needed to hear
As the silence comes again
Wrapped in each other’s arms
Her wounds seep
And his thoughts are as ruff
As the sea in a storm

I fell in love with a disaster
Not with you
The person who I thought you could be
Hope griped me like the warmest embrace
Holding me close giving me comfort on the coldest of nights
Vapours trailed from my mouth filling the air
As you laid their silently with your back turned
Tears warmed my pillow
Silently falling like the rain
I tried to trace my thoughts like a puzzle needing to be solved
Censoring me to be the person who I thought you would love
Your flaws were perfection
your perfection your flaws
To much was to little and to little to much
A endless game of cat and mouse
It wasn’t the love I was caught up in
Like a spiders web
Waiting to devour its pray
I was stuck in the thought of what love could of been like with you
Falling from thin air I found my realise from your spell
A foreign substance for me
A realisation that I
Deserved the world
And that’s exactly what I wasn’t to you

You won’t forgot about her
She’s stained in your memory
Like red wine on white satin sheets
A beautiful fiery ***** in your thoughts
A reminder of your ways
Of your failings in life
All your imperfections
You doubt your self
In every decision you make in life
For you know you ****** up
You still mourn
That you lost her
Long ago
It seems like yesterday
Yet its a distant memory
Never fading for you
She’s never coming back
You lost her in the once upon a time