I fell in love with a disaster
Not with you
The person who I thought you could be
Hope griped me like the warmest embrace
Holding me close giving me comfort on the coldest of nights
Vapours trailed from my mouth filling the air
As you laid their silently with your back turned
Tears warmed my pillow
Silently falling like the rain
I tried to trace my thoughts like a puzzle needing to be solved
Censoring me to be the person who I thought you would love
Your flaws were perfection
your perfection your flaws
To much was to little and to little to much
A endless game of cat and mouse
It wasn’t the love I was caught up in
Like a spiders web
Waiting to devour its pray
I was stuck in the thought of what love could of been like with you
Falling from thin air I found my realise from your spell
A foreign substance for me
A realisation that I
Deserved the world
And that’s exactly what I wasn’t to you

In the darkness I sat
Only form of comfort
was my arms
wrapped around my self
My steady warm breath on my chest
To afraid to reach out
To stubborn
I sat there for awhile
To long for my liking
Time would just pass me by
I could hear out in the light
Out of the darkness
Laughter and happiness
How I craved such a substance
I had grown to my own comfort
Of my self
I forgot what it was like
being in the light
So
Step
By
Step
I removed the bricks from my cave
Brick
By
Brick
As I did
The light streamed in
Like a creature of the night
I crawled out
To venture the light
Never looking back