The image of your face,
Still keeps me awake
Thinking you may call...
Call me your doll.

The image of you fades
With every passing day
What once was my all,
Now a stone wall.

One
Hello mother, Hello Father
I really hope I'm not a bother

Two
Hello sister, be my bestfriend?
All the cool toys, to me you lend
I'll always love you till the end.

Three
Hello cousin, you're pretty cool.
Even though, boys totally drool
Together we make the coolest three.
Now you can hang, with sister and me!

Four
Hello Brother, How do you do?
I love that face its so brand new!
I cant wait to bring you home!
Through the house I'll help you roam,
You're like my own, little gnome

Five
Hello family, please stop breaking
My little heart, forever aching
I love you mom, please don't leave.
How could I be so naive?
Dad she didn't mean what she said!
All the tears, I did shed

Six
Hello lawyer, I want my dad
Without us, he's forever sad
They have a new child on the way
And with mom, I know she'll stay
I love mom, but she's not fit
Dad's depressed, I'll admit
But for his kids, he'll never quit

Seven
Hello Friend, wanna play?
That's just what we'll do today
But he had a brand new game
Always myself, I did blame
As I lie in bed and cry
He didnt see I wanted to die
Why would he cause so much pain?
Those feelings never left my brain

Eight
Hello teacher, yes I'm fine
It's been too long, the pain declines
This therapy is not a need
My dad's the best, she agreed
Just a few more sessions we have left
Anything you want off your chest?
The secret of him I still do hold.
That night, a story forever untold.
Attempts to stop the heart so cold

Nine
Hello father, will mom be back?
She left a year ago, with a guy name Matt.
Where she is, we don't know.
For our dad, our love does grow
He's the best he could ever be
For my brother, my sister and me
He'll never stop until he's gone
I hope that day won't come for long
He's my dad, my pops, my best friend
I know on him, I can always depend

Ten**
Hello new mom, I love to see
How many kids? You have three!?
Can't wait to start our new *family.

I love the way your mouth curves.
I love the way you speak your words.
As if everything is a rhythm,
just waiting to be heard.

I love the way your fingers drift.
I love the way you touch my hips.
As if they were is a line,
in your favorite script.

I love the way your voice sounds.
I love the way you use you nouns.
As if you must impress,
someone in every town.

But I hate the way your eyes are still.
I hate the way you give me chills.
As if I were just a girl,
falling for your thrill.

Got Attitude, hush now don't be rude.
Mostly because "God I hate that dude"
He got my vision skewed. In a mood.
Used to be a ***** now I'm  just crude. Got *******.
As in the ****, with that dude. Vision Skewed.
Stopped the Feud.
Thoughts intrude.
Vision Skewed.
Interlude:
Nope still skewed.
Thoughts Renewed.
Hate that dude.
**** that dude.
Love that dude.
Thoughts conclude.

Do you think one day she will learn,
Her love is something he must earn?
Better yet, make him yearn.
Still the passion burns.

Do you think one day he will see,
Together, what they could be?
That beautiful girl, so carefree.
Her love keeps him happy.

Do you think one day they will know,
Of the true love they let go?
If they would have just let it grow.
Don't let go, You reap what you sow.

Fight after fight with step monster, Show Stoppers
Cause I'm a no good, low life, pill popper.
These pills keep me sane, that won't stop her.
Screams heard through the walls from father:
She's a good girl, works hard, act proper.
But I'll never be good as her daughter.

Should have known it from the first time you smiled.
You just act Wilde, a child.
Dodged you in the aisle,
Had my heart dropping in style
Now it all feels vile.
As in a vile, of denial.
Made it worth while, that smile.

Remember the day, when you said you'd stay?
Now I feel like I'm just your prey.
Watching me, up in your tree.
But then I'm told "C'est la vie"
As in thats life, you lost your hype.
Other girls, you try to swipe.
You're so sneaky, you'll never get caught.
You're so clever, or so you thought.
Well now I'm done, and she's on the run.
I guess it's good, we had our fun.

Always so stressed.
Im a mess, at best.
Lifes a test.
And I'm barely passing
Its distracting.
My thoughts attacking.
My vision blacking.
Passed out, people shout.
Depression no doubt.
These pills, give me chills.
But the calm is for real, ideal.

Dropped out of college before the Start.
I used to want to be something smart.
Didn't have the money or heart.
I only have passion for art.
Now I'm just pushing a cart.
Just want to pay rent
"Wasting my talent"
Man, stop, take a hint.
All I'm tryin' to do is vent.
This pen is my accent.
The paper my identity.
Im a new entity...
Its not we.
Its just me, don't you see?
Doing me.
These lines make me feel free.
The paint my portkey.
But its not wizardry.
Just muggles.
Struggles.

When the snow drifts my mood shifts.
My spirits forget how to lift.
Through the files of my past
My mind sifts.
It wont last, this mask.
Hiding is a hard task.
Time to face the facts.
Another attack.
As in anxiety, Inside of  me.
Like a growing seed, now a tree.
Just let me be.
Its just seasonal, they say.
This feeling won't stay.
My thoughts are grey.
Just go away.
Maybe someday.

When I was young had a lot of trials, Faked Smiles.
Pretend everything was fine, Denial.
Growing old drive a lot of miles, Have Style, Argyles.
Nah, but I wear a lot of sweaters, act better.
Dreaming bigger dreams, seeing better things.
But still my parents are apart of me, partially.
She loves he and they become we, he and she.
Forever with me plus three. But that's not reality.
I dream of bigger infinites.
The Faults were in their stars, not ours.
I get it, Families split, grow apart.
Keep her close through the arts.
Ma and me, no heart to hearts.
Dont get too close because I'm too smart.
Dont get me wrong, my loves strong.
But the drives long and thats whats wrong.
And shes like Cheech and Chong. So Gone. Now Im Gone.