i'm afraid that
laying on this
floor does nothing
more than feel
cold on my heart

WHEN WE HOLD HANDS I WANT
YOU TO FEEL AS EUPHORIC AS
YOU WOULD IF YOU FOUND YOUR
PHONE WHEN IT WAS LOST
ACCIDENTALLY IN YOUR POCKET
AND YOU COULDN'T FIND IT FOR
A REALLY LONG TIME

just know that I was in a black void
reaching out for something
and I'm not really sure what exactly I
was reaching for
if it was in the dark
or if it was the dark itself
but I wanted it to be your hand and I
haven't stopped wanting it to be
your hand for always
so I'm sorry I want your hand being
held in mine but I do
I want to clutch your hand in the
warmest way
I want my hand grabbing your hand
to feel like the warmest cup of hot
chocolate in the coldest winter ever
seriously all I ever think about when
we're together is how your hand
would feel in my hand
I'm sorry I'm an ******* and I'm
weird

you can only find the sadness in the
song if you're really listening to
it, the heartfelt outcry initially later
secluding into the heart of the
girl, who is truly happy while is never
underneath
I can't believe I made it this far

wanting to stare off meaninglessly
into space while being held, being
held, being very held by someone
the feeling of holding and being held
by someone
wanting to think endlessly while
holding something, while holding
something, someone, holding
anything just to have the feeling of
holding present
any act of desperation seems
apparent or pathetic at this point

all i want is to sleep but even he's
watching everything that happens
i could stay up here for a week and
wouldn't feel the difference
realizing everything to feel is real
who cares where it is
i can't close my eyes and it's
haunting me just like you

get high
get sad
think about what
we coulda had