Replicated
Never duplicated
Leaning forward
Tumbling
Twelve steps backwards
Backhand blues
Struck me again
Omitting me
From me
Etched in
Braille yet
Somehow I understand
My own language
The crowded streets
Forged in my head
I wish I could unplug them
Yet they are the reason
I create with such flawlessness
Shivers in the
Tiniest crevasses
I’ve come to grips
With my psyche
And the abilities to express
Myself differently
The plethora of ideas
That run at mach speed
Fire on all cylinders
I just try my
Best too keep them all at bay
Yet it can’t seem too
And create something anew
Stuck in a daze
My happiest place
The juices never stop flowing
Like a finger
Pulling the pin from
A hand grenade explosion
Writing seems to be
My only true coping mechanism
In every situation
It all feels so relatable
Despite the hectic frustrations
That run me over at times
You will never see another me
I’m far from imitation
It’s only me trying to find
My true meaning in life
Yet maybe I already have

Black matter
A sickness over ran me
Alive despite it all
Tunnel vision followed
The blisters had ****** me up
Locked down
Where was I
Lost at sea
I wandered this earth
A fool clueless
As to what I was doing
Wasting away inside
Staring at thee same
Screen got me nowhere
Tripping over my own two feet
There had to be another way
Faithful one master of thee universe
I searched you out
Then you appeared
You spoke to me
Like no one ever had
And yet you where there all along
Forward carrying on
I’d rather break bread with you
Then try and figure this
Out all on my own
Because I know I can’t

Skin deep
Slipping quietly  
Into your swan song
Faithfully I am yours forever
A graceful calming
After thee storms have passed
Cradle to thee grave
The walls are finally crumbling
And the cuffs
Are finally dissolving for good
No longer sinking
To the bottom in concrete
There’s no longer a
Need to wanna feel numb
Weightless matter
Starving to be empty
Free from me
Aftermath to
New beginnings
Peace of mind at long last
No more
Free falling
A refreshing light
So exuberant
Why do it take so long
To get to my ending
Resurrected by you
Eternal sunshine
In endless abundance
With no end in sight
For as far as
My soul can see
Everything’s so clear now
My eyes no longer hurt
Where the distorted noises
Of life have been turned off
Completely
And I’m finally healed fully
Arriving better late then never
Or not at all
Unconscious spirit all is quiet
And I’m finally in the arms
Of a everlasting peace
That I’ve been in search
Of my entire existence
For all eternity you are mine
Be still my son

Phone lines are dead
Time after time
Healed never
Looked so fake
In the palm
Of my hand
I hold onto everything
Lonesome blues
The snake bit me again
Shed my skin
The wounds I wear
Make me feel so filthy
I don’t want sympathy
Where exactly has that gotten me 
Tethered soul
I want my great awakening
Love can be so cold
Phony and cruel
And holds nothing back
Turns on you on a dime
You were suppose to be kin
Blood through thick and thin
But I quickly learned better
An outsider I felt like  
Don’t be fooled
Just because the lights are on
Doesn’t make a house a home
I didn’t fit in
Because I’ve always known
Exactly who who you all were
And I didn’t wanna be around that
The negativity always showed
Face it’s true self
Especially when I was always looking  
Over my shoulder
Guess the apple doesn’t fall
Far from the tree
Vilified in the eye of the storm
When will I see my
Truest day in the sun
Receive my pardon the justice
I so deserve  
To leave this sick evil place
And find everlasting peace and freedom once and for all

Time we can’t
Get back
All we have is today
This very moment
Nothing less
Let’s make thee most of it
So lost before
Empty dirt roads
Consumed me
I was looking for
A wholesome highway
A light at the end of thee tunnel
Out of the darkness  
I walked alone
For a very longtime
Guarded my heart
Kept my head down
Had no interest
In finding a partner
Or love for that matter
I hid myself
Because I never
Felt good enough
For anyone else
Let alone myself
I’ve had
To make adjustments
Step out of
My comfort zone
And that’s not always easy
Wether I
Deserved you or not
I’m eternally grateful
To have you
It all happened for a reason
Then you came
And now you’ve
Become thee
Best parts of me
Worth seeing
The lord works
In mysterious ways
An Angel appears
When you least expect it
Out of nowhere
You changed my life
Good things come
To those who wait
It was a miracle finally
And I never saw it coming
Like a flower in bloom
I had no expectations
Just a hope of sorts
You were different
Sweet to thee core
Took the time
To get to know
The real me no judgments
A beating heart like no other
Three years later
Through thick and thin
It’s a lot of work
And here we are
But for thee first time
Feels worth it to me
Feels like a dream
Worth waking up too
The lord
He must have known
What he was doing
All along
Bringing us together
Many wrong turns before this
Finally I made thee right one
Then came you

Culling chatter
Un compromised
Dimming daylight
Sidelined passions
Juxtapositions
Wide eyed
Apples to oranges
My best form
Of communication
Is writing airing
Out my ***** laundry
And it
Comes so naturally
My formulas
Are unique in stature
Reaping the rewards
An inept understanding
To some
Birth of passage
A tedious task
Forecasting what may become
Certain views
When expressed
By a spiral of emotions
Can be unpredictable
A preview
Of what’s to come
Won’t always be followed by others
Instant gratification
Can’t come fast enough
A perfect posture
I’m far from
Illuminating ideas
Conceiving into form
The sweet aroma
Spreads like an inferno
A self indulgent
Trip inside the roller coasters
Of mind
They need to have
Those precise
Precious monumental
Gains to bloom
Wheels are churning
Curiosity
Is peaking it’s pleasing
Head through
Stanzas are slowly being burnt
Into mind like a fortress
And when I write
It may sound haywire  
But by stance will always
Remain the same right in two
Till I’m no longer in the drivers seat

They used to
Rain on my parade
Roam freely in mind
Depressurize
My infrared paradise
Erase these corroded halls
Mocking birds
Collide
Projectors relive
Stories that never lined up
To my liking
Two faces
Constant tension
Temporary streams invite
Rivers rage
Against my self worth
Why did you create me
Stimulate
My darkest fears
Put them to bed
Simulate my brightest desires
Let them illuminate
And amaze me
Stop thee hurt that leads
To me feeling dead in my space
Lead me to
Train tracks to follow elsewhere
Sympathize
With me a little more
Don’t let them
Mimic my movements any longer
I want to be just like you
Apart from me anyone else
Show me your truest prophecy
Let me resemble
Anything that won’t mimic me
And leave me feeling deflated
Because I’ve already seen
An ample fiery of warfare within