Permanent boundary
A calming presence
Your constant resilient voice

Throughout my tireless journey

Whether it be
A mirage in the desert
To the lions den

From the deepest depths
Of my pits of despair
Your devotion to me

Has never wavered

Not for a moment
And sometimes I lose focus
On what’s truly right in front of me

Humbled in the most

Unexpected ways
Increasing gratitude as
I’ve battled the seven seas

Salvation came at a hefty price

Stubborn as A doorknob I am
Picking up sticks
Trying to build a fortress

I declare your inherent greatness

My calming in the eye
Of the most vicious storms
Life has

Challenged my faith

Yet no matter what
I have to trust in you
Completely without compromise

Warfare in a spiritual realm

In overwhelming numbers
Can bend a soul
And the mind can truly hamper

Your progress throw you for a loop

A broken will
May not stand
The test of time but you surly will

But I want my song

Sung loudly throughout eternity
From the top of my lungs
To outlast all my troubles and doubts

Wash away all my fears
And let your resilient strength
Shine upon me when I am at my WEAKEST

Testimony
Like a speed of light
Lost horizons

Been stuck in wanderlust

Sifting through my ashes
Judgement and jury
On day I’ll meet my maker

He’s the only one

I’ll have to answer too
When the lights
Finally go out

And I leave this earth

Will I have ever lived
Up to the life
The lord gave me

I honestly doubt it

I’ve been waiting
For the end too take me
All my life

For as long as I can remember

Living in sin
Drowning in myself
Body and flesh tainted

When my soul deserves

To fly freely for eternity
Running in circles
Ghosts haunting me

I’ve been holding on to tightly
When I should have
Just let it ******* go

The great unknown

When the sunsets
May I finally see all that
I believe awaits me

ON THE OTHER SIDE

Thee longer I run
Promises never kept
One can dream

Only too be let down slowly

Surrendering caving in
Sweet silence
Fall upon me

Don’t let me down anymore

Blue and black
Night and day
Sleeping awake

Years gone by the wayside

Nothing much to show
Scattered pieces of me
Like a puzzle out at sea

Weapons broken ~ Shields down

Battles lost replaying
Burning the midnight oil
What may have been

I guess I’ll always wonder

Never truly see
With my own two hazel eyes
Daydreaming never

Got me very far dumbfounded

When the clouds
Rain down
Not a cloud in thee sky

No where too turn

Head hangs lower each time
When my mood turns
Blue no one too blame

Maybe it’s just me

The thoughts in my head
Take over playing on repeat
The way it’s always been

A mind programmed incorrectly

Not by my choice
By default
Because of others misdeeds

Caught in thee crossfire

Never had a chance
I was just boy
Misfortunes have haunted me

All my life

Dealt a bad hand
Deck stacked against me
A stench fills thee air

What did I ever do

In my heart or hearts
To deserve
Such a life of heartache and anguish

Is beyond my reach
Beyond my comprehension

Wrestling thoughts
Never gonna
Be enough

Everything falters

Hollow breath
Leaves you speechless
Broken wounds never heal

Winding roads spiral

Raging seas
Never cease to abandon
No matter how

Good it might get

The blanket comes off
You can’t hide long enough
I always find my way back

Too the cellar

That place deep inside
Of my head that’s always
Welcoming Me with open arms

That never lets up

Only disappoints
Time and time again  
I wish I could wipe away

That part of me for good

Thee memories that bind me
To the ground
And have held me prisoner

All my life

Simplicity has always eluded
My being and I ask myself WHY

The circus left town
Forthcoming conclusion
Suspended object

Seductive Vermillion

My sadness has
Exceeded my limits
Hovering Cloud catcher

Anchors away

The whites in your
Eyes rolling back
An epic calling

I’m not going to miss

Minutes become Seconds
**** now they are gone
A spectacle

I must have missed it

Bowing out ~ borrowed time
Never did me any favors
There was never going to

Be a curtain call

The audience boycotted me
Taking personal Inventory
Not for the faint of heart

But there’s no crowd

Like a eulogy
Better not spoken
Good grief but understood

Pick a door but choose wisely

The outcome might shock you
I’ll have this last dance to myself