And I wondered how can it be felt that effortlessly
                                                                                                                                                The feeling of not being left out, when that one leaves
                                                                                                                                                Only then you remember my existence and that I’m here
                                                                                                                                                Seasons went by and you’ve travelled the world with that one in mind
                                                                                                                                                Yet I’m still stuck here waiting for you but you never came
                                                                                                                                                It wasn’t about being busy as you said, I just wasn’t the priority
                                                                                                                                                That feeling of uneasiness in my chest that I get when
                                                                                                                                                 I realize I didn’t mean as much as you did for me
                                                                                                                                                When I’m included only when others aren’t available
                                                                                                                                                 It feels like there’s a void in my heart surrounded by endless solitude
                                                                                                                                                 But can it be filled when I’m no longer the backup friend, your “Plan B”?....

Every day when I wake up in the morning
I promise myself that today will be different and I’ll change
So that I’ll be able to finally sleep without my head hurting
From replaying these lucid agonizing moments relentlessly

When all I could do is please, support and trust people
While they are constantly stepping on me to move forward
And I just can’t say no to them, it took me a while to realize
That when you let people take advantage of you, they’ll never stop
                                                                                                                
I’m always deceived by the typical two-faced people
Prioritizing their feelings and their impression about me
While neglecting myself, feeling bad and the urge to be kinder
But at the end of the day, I’m the one who keeps losing to people who didn’t even try.

I hate how it always ends up like that.  
How I get ignored for several hours.
And reply within a few seconds.
       
   To think that you didn’t care as much as I do.
    Engraves a sense of solitude in my heart.
I can’t call myself anything but a fool.
To hopelessly stare blankly at a screen.
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How can I have these emotions, however?
      Every day I greet you like it’s never the last time.
       Reminiscing, overthinking but never hating you.
Ever wondered if you noticed those emotions………………? (will you ever do?)

Never have I ever imagined such a warm feeling
                                                                                                                                                That day, when all my hope seemed to crumble
                                                                                                                                                You felt my frustration and sorrows without me trying
                                                                                                                                                 And you were there to console me, to give me a hug
                                                                                                                                                 Suddenly I felt warm tears on my cheeks that I couldn’t hold back
                                                                                                                                                 But I don’t think that I can call that feeling sadness
                                                                                                                                                 Not when I felt your presence next to me
                                                                                                                                                 And not when you were braiding my hair gently
                                                                                                                                                 I think that I was reassured and I felt…………………Solace?