I thought we had something
time passed by,
I realized that something turned out to be nothing
It felt so crushing I felt like jumping.
Falling then crashing

with all that pain not many are capable of getting back up.
Yet I managed to find my way around the cup.

Actually all I just did was whimper, suffer, and linger
Until one day this light I saw started to glimmer
That’s when I realized my world was getting dimmer
It then occurred to me that the light was a path for a sinner to once again become a beginner.

Once again I am back at the top
Will I suffer the same mistakes?
Or will I pull the breaks and make a full stop.
I am in my room staring at my desktop all day, nonstop.
We talked all day, for what feels like an eternity
I don’t remember the details but whatever we talked about,
It was funny.

All these memories feel bittersweet,
The pain it stabs me with knowing I didn’t try
And the fun we had together always makes me wanna cry

I see two birds outside, I stare at them adoringly
This euphoric atmosphere generically makes me feel kind of comfy, Like the love I thought I gained through superficial Superiority.

It’s so funny how oblivious I became with one emotion,
Jacked filled witch ecstasy it’s certainly beautiful.
I worked tirelessly for something that doesn’t exist,
I am this close to shattering my sanity. Oh the absurdity.
something so beautiful can never cause any harm right?
Surely something this pleasant can’t be capable of creating such adversities.

But oh the larceny
My precious heart that you took from me.
Even though you didn’t,
I still felt the pain.
Do you know how it feels being ******* with chains?

I wish I could tell you this but I can’t
If I did all my thoughts would form a knot like a plant
My mouth would stutter for every word
Honestly Our talk would have looked absurd
You’d just look into my face and just say “your a disgrace”

You may think that I’m a coward for not confessing
But Im just a flowered phanter waiting for a blessing

If only a perfect moment can just happen
Maybe I’ll start off with placing my hand onto your head
Then staring into your sparkling eyes
And saying I love you
With a slow deep sigh

If only that could happen then I’d be glad
God knows you would too.
But such things rarely happen
We flew high in the sky with our waxed wings
But I’m afraid we soared too high

We were the captain’s of our own flights
Yet no one made the order to make things right
Up high in the sky, away from the crowds
surrounded with bright white clouds

Do you Ever just wonder why we made these things?
Did it just appear? Or did we somehow make it?
These wings that cling onto our backs
Making us feel like kings of a village with springs.

No matter how much I write into this poem
It will never change the fact that I’m always alone
I had hoped that things could continue for us
But it’s over now, there is nothing to discuss
I wish to adjust my point of view on this
And hopefully have the guts to find more trust
On love. Farewell my waifu.
Sincerely, your random otaku

all my thoughts spin with the world
As though for a moment time collapsed
The things around me felt, relaxed

I feel my surroundings starting to spin
Like the world who wants to destroy us from within

It’s been over a second now. I feel my whole body floating
As I look towards the sky, I see not clouds but fluttering spies
They hide from the above and peer from below with their eyes.

A certain spy had quickly approached me to supply my pie.
as I fell from the air and just sat there feeling shy
I greet him saying hi.

The spy tried to fly but I had to deny and grabbed him with my tie
I asked him “where are thou pie?”

The spy shrugged with his ***** lips as though he had just eaten chicken strips
“Is- is that my pie!?”
I shouted with concern, scared of what it is I’m about to learn.
“Nigh” the spy looked suspicious as he proceeds to deny

“******* your mouth is filled with empty cries“
I snapped then pounded him on the ground locking him with my thighs”
“Although I am not wise my eyes can see through your lies.”
“You will now die right in between of my thighs”
“Anytime now you will meet your demise”

The spy tried to break free but the golden chef had very strong thighs
As he tries to  wiggle around, a sudden surprise had started to arise
It was his allies.

With sizes of that of a mountain, so glittery yet so majestic like a fountain
“Oh you fuking donkey”
The chef mumbled as he snapped the spies neck
“COME AT ME AND YOU WILL SEE FOR A SEC THAT THIS WAS THE BIGGEST MISTAKE THAT YOU HAVE CHECKED”

the spies flew around the chef and threw lots and lots of pies at him
Fast pretty Pies the size of that of them thicc thighs
“Ah ****” the chef exclaimed as he got brutally murdered by thigh sized pies

2 dead corpses were left on the scene, leaving it for the janitors to clean
It had been about 19 seconds now. I don’t feel anything.
Not my body not my thighs and certainly not my hand
To which I am hoping is holding a bunch of pies.

The world continues to spin as 7 minutes passed all my thoughts collapsed
But time kept going pretty fast as though nothing had happened from the past.
The moment which had just flashed inside my brain.
Was kind of vast so I just smashed it, Knowing it was my last.

I open my eyes and I see two hands covering my thighs
I sighed, crouching down to the ground then cried
As for my thighs were covered up with lies
So wretched, cold blooded like ice

Clenched with my best efforts I held my head up high
And screamed to the world “I wanna die”

The echoes filled my room I felt so bad surrounded in gloom.
Then a boy shows up, and bluntly said “what’s up”
He told me that he had heard a cry from bellow
he told me he had never heard something so painful yet so shallow
engulfed with curiosity he came down and stumbled upon me
a person, who's been so down with the world, she could not draw a single sight to see

i laughed, knowing full well the he was lying to me and exceptionally with glee
i asked him what he was after, and all he said was a cup of tea
i told him i didn't have any
the boy believed her knowing full well that she lived right in the middle of the sea

the two companions talked and talked until sunrise
the boys watch rang. flustered he stood up and ran
the boy apologized and said that the two of them will talk again tomorrow
filled with sorrow, the girl was alone again. she waited until tomorrow arrives

with no concept of time, she just waited and waited and waited
but his tomorrow never arrived.
covered in red, her heart and her head were consumed with hatred
She pouted and wondered why she was even alive

She knew it was coming yet the pain still felt so deep her heart might crack
She cried once more knowing that him leaving was just a fact

Nothing more, nothing less
And thus the cycle continues but with more stress