Everyone has a birthday
That would be the day, you were born
You then live your life
Hopefully to the fullest
Everyone has an expiration day
When it's your time, you then die
I believe in the after life
Death isn't the end of life
Death is a doorway, to the after life
Death is the beginning, of a new life, in heaven
We don't all, make it to heaven
Some of us, go the other way, to hell
Heaven must be a wonderful place
Only the select few, get into heaven

I watched you **** a man
Now it's time for me to take a stand
You are someone, I can never trust
Which for me, is always a must
You told me not to make a fuss
I didn't know what to do
Even though it is going to be bad for you
What was I to imply
I never received your reply
After I caught you in a lie
That caused someone else to die
I almost choked on my tie
What else could I do, but cry
As I looked up at the sky
Where birds are supposed to fly
What else was I to think, you lied

Murphy's Law states that
What can go wrong, will go wrong
Things can get better with time
I was at a point in my life where,
I had lost everything of value
I had lost my job
I lost my apartment
My car was repossessed by the bank
My girlfriend also left me
I'm now homeless on the street
I have hit rock bottom
Where would I go from here
I hope that things get better for me

Death comes in many ways
What if these were my last days
Who knows when death will come knocking at your door
Who will pick you up off the floor
My doctor said that I had six months to live
What else but my life, could I give
I knew that I was going to die
What else could I do, but cry
I kept saying to myself why
You have but one and only life
What was I going to tell my wife
I was sick laying in bed
Many thoughts were running through my head
I knew death was coming soon
I would rise up to the sky like a balloon
My mother called me on the phone
I told her that I would die alone

Today is February 4th 2018
The temperature outside is 75 degrees
It's also my birthday and I'm happy
It's supposed to be my special day
It's also Superbowl Sunday
My family has called or texted me already
I walked to the grocery store Albertson
I bought my groceries
I then took an Uber ride back
I then watched the Superbowl
The team that I was rooting for won the game
This was how my special birthday went
Thank you all for celebrating with me

I have made you many promises in the past
I just didn't keep any of those promises
I do love you, just in my own way
I know that I smoke too much
I know that I drink too much
I know that I use too many drugs
I have too many women around me
I have cheated on you, way too many times to count
All of these women, just use me, for what they can get
This has been going on for many years
I want to change my evil ways
I need help
I'm afraid to ask for help
Now is the time for me to change

There is a flag that hangs on my wall
This is a beautiful and bright flag
This flag is red, white and blue
The colors on this flag, will never run
Don't ever touch my flag
I don't allow that to happen

For 3 months I had been thinking about buying a car
That day finally came yesterday
I brought a new car on that day
When I left the car dealership
I was hit from behind, by another driver
My vehicle was totaled ten minutes after buying it
I had no insurance and no vehicle
What was I going to do next
I owed all this money, and nothing to show for it

September 11, 2001 is always on my mind
We can never forget, what happened on this date
My eyes are closed very tight
I'm afraid to open my eyes
I don't know what I will see
I can't see anything but darkness
My faith in people has been destroyed
People are crying all night long
Their are too many innocent victims here
For you to have a better tomorrow
Someone had to give their life today

My life is like a picture frame
The picture isn't very clear
This is what I really fear
I walk around with blinders on
When I look at life, I have tunnel vision
I'm walking down this long hallway
All of the walls around me are white
It's like this hallway will never end
There is a lot of smoke in this hallway
I can't see the end of this hallway
When I get to the end of the hallway
There is a big blue door at the end of the hallway
I'm very afraid to open this big door
What is on the other side of this door
I don't open the door
I just turn around and walk away

I have strong feelings in my heart
I just don't know, what is keeping us apart
You have always been the best
Even though you just moved out west
I have a group, that I call my crew
We all go out to drink some brew
This bar was located on Palmwood road
The temperature outside was very cold
I met a woman at my favorite bar
I got so drunk, that I lost my car
One of my friends started a fight
I really know that wasn't right
Someone hit me and I fell to the floor
I picked myself up and ran out the door
During the fight, I hit my head
My head was hurting and I couldn't go to bed
Even though I thought I was dead

I was sick and just got over the flu
My rent was way over due
What was I to do
It was the 15th of May
How was I going to keep the landlord at bay
I was three months behind on the rent
My landlord couldn't help but vent
He had me put in jail
I didn't have enough money, to raise my bail
This is what I found
The walls came tumbling down
I couldn't hear a sound
My heart continued to beat very fast
How long do you think this can last
Or is this just something in my past

I had a dream last night
In my dream there was a light
People seem to be very kind
Your always on my mind
Most things in my life turn blue
I'm always thinking of you
There were dark clouds in the sky
You have the most beautiful green eyes
Every time I see you
My heart skips a beat
I get so nervous when I'm around you
The palms of my hand, begin to sweat
Your the love of my life
I'm just looking for you, to be my wife

I don't know if this is true
Can you help me find a clue
The sky was the color of dark blue
Tears came down like rain
I was in a lot of pain
Things in life, move like a snail
When I'm with you, it's like being in jail
Can someone just pay my bail
Every time I try something, it usually fails
People only buy things, that are on sale
The house next door, just sold
Come to find out, it had mold
You are very bold
This is what I was told

The day of the week was Sunday
It is the last week in December
I spent the afternoon watching NFL games
It has now turned dark
I'm standing on my porch at 8pm
The temperature had to be in the low 40s
It was a cold and stormy night
There was thunder and lightning in the sky
The rain wouldn't stop coming down
It had rained for most of the day
The streets were starting to flood
There was no traffic for miles to see
It rained so much, that I couldn't leave the house
This was my whole Sunday

I looked at myself in a mirror
I didn't like what I saw
The image in the mirror wasn't me
I knew that it was time for a change
What could I do to change
This transformation is a must
All of these evil thoughts were in my head
This is a book, that must be read

I have lived in California for twenty plus years
My adventure started in Vallejo, California
This is thirty minutes from San Francisco
Northern California is a great place to live
My beautiful daughter Kristiana was born here
I then moved to Southern California
Southern California is a wonderful place also
I now live in Los Angeles for three plus years
You can go to Hollywood or Beverly Hills
You can go to Santa Monica or Venice Beach
Los Angeles is my city now
This is a beautiful and vibrant city
The people here are friendly
I love the warm weather all year round
I enjoy going to the beaches here
I can't imagine living anywhere else

I decided to go to Santa Monica yesterday
It was a warm and hot day
Many tourist were in Santa Monica
I'm laying on the sand, at the beach
There were beautiful women all around me
People are running in and out of the water
There were boats on the sea
I can see people surfing in the distance
The waves swallow one of them up
The man falls off of his surf board
The pier is full of tourist
I can hear music, coming from the pier
I got hungry, so I had a pizza
It was late in the afternoon
Now it is time for me to leave
This was my day at the beach

I use my computer to write
Everything else is out of sight
It was a very hot day
It was the month of May
What else can I say
I left my house for a bite
People were in the park, flying a kite
The child held onto the rope, very tight
I rode my bike to the park
It was just about to turn dark
I had a dream last night
I thought that I was in a fight
It was a horrible sight
Now I'm laying in my bed
What is going on in my head
I felt so bad, that I thought I was dead

I met a married woman at a bar
I was single, but playing the field
I was looking for a relationship
This woman was in a loveless marriage
A marriage she was looking to get out of
She was a beautiful vibrant woman
We were attracted to each other from the start
We started an affair soon after meeting
I fell in love with her quickly
I thought that she felt the same
This affair lasted over eight months
Come to find out, she was just using me
She was never going to leave her husband
I was left alone with my thoughts

I think that I'm losing my hair
This is something, that I can't bare
My one and only fear
Is where do we go from here
Do I make the right turn
Or do I crash and burn
Do I kneel and pray
Or do I just run away
I drove my car very fast
How long do you think, that this can last
I'm very big on trust
This is a must
Eventually everything will turn into dust

As I opened my front door
I can't help, but to look down at the floor
I was able to look outside
There were many clouds in the sky
My flag can't help but fly
I waved my hand through the air
All of my thoughts were very clear
I walked down my street
There were no shoes on my feet
It just began to rain
I'm going through a lot of pain
I saw the writing on the wall
There are times, when I fall
I was able to read, the good book
Where else should I look
People keep looking at me
What do you think, that they see
Is this something, that I can bare
Or is this just my fear

My depression is very bad today
What else can I say
What is on my mind
Is that something, that I can find
I live in my own world
I isolate myself from other people
I'm scared when I hear a sound
All I want, is to be found
I'm different than everybody else
I keep hearing voices in my head
They keep me from going to bed
I can't go to sleep
So I begin to weep
I cry all night long
But this is what keeps me strong
The things that I do, can't be wrong

Just another day in Paradise
I'm on an island all by myself
I'm sleeping on the beach in a tent
The sweat is pouring from my face
The temperature is over a 100 degrees
All kinds of thoughts, keep running though my head
My depression keeps getting worse
My anxiety is going through the roof
You have changed my whole life
I have love in my brain
Although I'm going through a lot of pain
Tears are falling from me like rain
The weather is always sunny and hot
I will be all alone until the end
This is my island Paradise

Your thoughts are always in my heart
Why are we always apart
I just got over the flu
And the sky was navy blue
Your eyes just didn't have a clue
The smell of rain, was in the air
I looked up into the dark clouds
The rain began to fall
I just received a call
My feelings for you, are very strong
I know that my feelings, can't be wrong
The temperature outside is very cold
I can't believe that your so bold
This is the story, that I was told
We should always be together
This should always be forever

Everyday in our lives, we make choices.
Some are good choices for us
Some are bad choices for us
We must make the choices, that we can live with
When you get up in the morning
You make a choice on what to wear
You make a choice to eat breakfast or not
All during the day, you make choices
Where do we go from here
How many people, really care
At night I look up at the stars
As I drive down the street in my car
At night when I go to bed
All of these thoughts run though my head
My eyes are closed very tight
But my feelings are never out of sight
What else can I say
These are the choices, that we make everyday

There are many thoughts in my head
What can I do but go to bed
How do we control our emotions
What changes our emotions
Sometimes it is happiness
Sometimes it is sadness
Sometimes it is fear
Sometimes your scared
We can't control, if we are scared
I suffer from depression
I suffer from anxiety
Emotions are all around us
Where do we go from here
Is it something that I can bare
What else can I tell you
My life is becoming blue

Life is a wonderful journey to travel
This journey is better traveled with a friend
I was born on the East coast
I have lived most of my life on the West coast
In between life, you will make many stops
My other family is in New York and Puerto Rico
I also have family in Florida and Connecticut
I myself live in Los Angeles, California
My daughter was born in Vallejo, California
I will die in California
This has been a wonderful journey
I hope that my journey, that we call life, never ends

I spent 5 years of my life in the US Army
I got to travel around the United states during my time
I also traveled in Europe and Asia
My trip started in New York City
I then traveled to New Jersey and Maryland
My next stop was in Oklahoma
I then found myself in Germany and Italy
From there I went to Dhahran, Saudi Arabia
Iraq was my hardest stop of all
I have been in battle, I mean war
I lived my life in fear
My mind was never so clear
My trip of life ended in California
These were great years of my life
I wouldn't change a thing about time in the US Army
Military life was good to me

Please tell me what you see
Is it really a flying bee
I can't be clear on what I saw
But I truly think it was a draw
Look up upon these walls
At all the bouncing *****
No one knows when they will stop
We only hope that it will be at the top
Looking at it again, I think it's a flop

I woke up from a dream last night
But all that it was, was a scary fright
Things do not seem to be true
Even when I don't have a clue
I feel that there is no more time
Even though I continue to hear the chimes
There are situations that I must fear
However I don't think that people really care
What would I call a deal
If I can't remember what is real

All of a sudden I pushed open the gates
Not knowing what would be my fate
I can't remember what I have seen
Even though it was very clean
And then their he stood in front of me
The all mighty one explaining it all to thee
In the end we all must pay a fee

The end of my time is almost near
I feel that there are things that I must fear
I don't know what the future may hold for me
But I truly believe that I can find the key
New doors will be opened
And the old ones will close
The world is a wide open sky
And all I hope to get is a piece of the pie
Life is but a test of time
However, it is a hill that I must climb

There are things that I continue to think about
Some are the right things and
Some are the wrong things
I must make the choices
That I can live with
I must also pay for my mistakes
When they are made
I must think about why I'm here
What must I do to leave here
Night after night I dream of my freedom
Time continues to pass very quickly
My time here will end soon
There are many opportunities out there for me
What will I do when I get out
I know that I must do my best to succeed
Failure is not a choice for me

Can we see each other one more time
You are all I have on my mind
You don't have to be so cold
I feel this story must be told
I'm sorry for any pain that I caused you
All I ever want, is to be true
I wouldn't tell you no lies
So there is no reason for you to cry
My love for you is something, I can't deny
Just don't tell me, there is another guy
My feelings for you are complete
Please give me a time and place to meet
If I lose you, I know that I will die
Can you please give me some kind of reply
This situation has helped me see the light
I don't know what will happen with us tonight
I feel that you don't love me anymore
I feel that this is something that we can explore
I'm not here to complain
But life is filled with much pain

Puerto Rico is my wonderful homeland
It is the island with the glaring sands
Where everyone can always get a tan
The land where the music comes from the tremendous bands
The temperature is always sunny and hot
The land where I was baptized as a tot
It has endless beaches and gorgeous woman
Puerto Rico is my island paradise

There are thoughts that sit in my head
Like chapters of a book that must be read
Everyday in this world a woman is abused
Who will pay the price and stand accused
This fear wears at you day after day
It effects everything you do and say
You are scared to speak
For fear of what he will do
That fear makes him the master over you
You are still in control, if you take the reins
You can wash yourself
But nothing can ever remove the stains
These are permanent scars
Help can be found
If only you reach out
You can't ever be heard
If you don't shout
Please give me a reason for this

I know a woman who has been abused
Are we shocked that her boyfriend stands accused
Or do we turn our heads and look away
After all tomorrow is a new and better day
What happens if the problem keeps getting worse
Should we kneel and pray or stand and curse
Who holds the scales of justice
If she falls
Someone here or someone
Who hides behind walls
They hide so they don't
Ever have to see
Bruised emotions
Stain all that could be
This stain runs red
The color of blood
And it runs deeper
Than any other flood

I still remember the way it used to be
When you were with me
I want to meet you under the clear blue skies
And then I can look into your eyes
There are things, that need to be said
Before we can each retire to bed
We are both running out of time
You seem to be looking for something, you will never find
With everything that you do
I will continue to love you
At this time I feel that I'm alone
But I hope that we can share a happy home
Has all this been a lie
Or is this your way of just saying good-bye

Remember when I used to be there
Everything was ever so clear
There was never anything, that you ever had to fear
You are always on my mind
You were ever so kind
There was never enough time
People have always told me not to trust you
Because everything you touch turns blue
At this point I feel that I really love you
But that you, have always told me that, I never had a clue
This is something that I will never understand
But this is what has truly made me a man
You will always be my one true love
Because I will always think of you as my dove
I can't get your thoughts out of my head
Even though you are now dead
Now I know what has always been the key
It is to remember the way it used to be

We fell in love in December
It is a day, that I will always remember
It was a cold and stormy night
You and I bundled up tight
As I looked into your eyes
I could see the clear blue skies
As I look at your beautiful face
I said to myself, what a wonderful place
There isn't much more to say
You make every hour a precious day
Only time will tell if this will last
Or is it just something from my past

Christmas is a wonderful time of year
Just remember everything isn't as it appears
I can't tell you all the reasons
That I truly love this season
As my eyes come to tears
I realize people don't really care
This season should bring plenty of snow
As the temperatures dip well below
When the snow begins to fall
Everything else in this world seems small
I hope that all of your wishes come true
Especially if all your thoughts are new
Everyone should begin to cheer
Because Christmas is a wonderful time of year

I didn't believe in love at first sight
And then I met you
I now know that it was destiny
For us to meet
There is no other woman that compares to you
Your face -Your eyes-Your lips-Your smile
You are in my dreams
You are in my heart
And nothing will ever keep us apart
I knew since our first meeting
That you were an angel sent from heaven
I think of you every second, of every minute,
Of every hour, of everyday
I will love you forever
Until the end of time
If nothing else you have a friend for life

This has been going on for many years
It has become one of my greatest fears
Someone is chasing me with a gun
The only thing I can think of, is to run
During this nightmare I begin to scream
Then all of a sudden I wake from this dream
I'm standing by these sandy shores
As every wave hits, I can hear the roar
Now I'm holding a fistfull of sand
As life begins to slip through my hand

Life can be very simple
Life can be very difficult
Life is very short
Life is what you make of it
But more important
Life is what you take from it

Life was never more important or
Never so precious until I met you
You are the only thing
That keeps my world from turning blue
When I see that sparkle in your eyes
I can now see all the reasons why
At this time you may take your falls
However that is the reason that
You will remain my greatest love of all
Everything that I have said is true
I just can't imagine life without you

These days people are afraid to fly
With good reason, who wants to die
Who ever thought terror could strike our skies
Lord please hear our cries
Tonight was a night of pain
Tears fell down my cheeks like rain
Never touching sacred ground
My eyes have tears and everything they surround
Why do my eyes tighten
Will my sun ever brighten
My tears continue to fall
Eyes closing tighter until everything comes to a stall
Help me a dark cloud hangs over my head
Crying so long that I can't go to bed
The only place I wish to be
Is away from here but always free
When will all this madness end
This is something I can't comprehend
So many innocent victims
When will all this hate end

Since the first time that I met you
It has been like a dream come true
You have become my every desire
You are the woman that lights my fire
I'm very much in love with you
But all we have in common
Is the color blue
We can't seem to come together
I can't help think that you may have another
That has become my biggest fear
That everything is becoming clear
Now I find myself all alone
Sitting and waiting here by my phone

As our relationship goes we are secret lovers
Everything we have must stay undercovers
This has been going on for a very long time
I just wish that you could be all mine
I love you very much my sweet
Can this love affair remain discreet
What will you tell your husband
What will I tell my wife
What can we do to change this crazy life
This story is very old
However this story must be told
We can't sneak around forever
Even though we have been cleaver
Can this wild romance ever end
More important will we remain friends
This is one crazy love affair
We both have guilty hearts as it appears
Guilty hearts are what we are sold
Even though everything is about to unfold

I think of you everyday
And your thoughts never go away
When I go to sleep at night
I like to bundle up nice and tight
Hoping to dream a sweet dream tonight
And when I wake in the morning light
I hope I'll dream the same dream another night