Dearest daddy,
Oh how I mis you!
I miss your hugs,
kisses,
our secrets.

Daddy dearest,
I miss being just
your baby girl.

I'm something more,
someone older.

Your kisses can't
make the hurt vanish,
mommy's cannot either.

Your hugs don't
make me forget,
mom's either!

Daddy,
Oh dearest daddy.

I love you.
I miss you like crazy.

Sitting
and
Waiting.

                                            Waiting
                                             and
                                            Sitting.
All day.
I've waited for a text.
A message.
Something.
                                               I can't help
                                               but fear the worst.

One Night.
While dreaming,
I met a boy.

Face of an angel.
Voice of one too!
Twas' just a dream though.

One Day.
While awake,
I met a boy.

Face of a demon.
Voice of one too!
It wasn't a dream though.

One Night.
While dreaming,
The demon boy appeared.

His demon face melted away.
His voice became angelic.
Was this real?

One Day.
While awake.
I met the demon boy, again.

I looked into his eyes.
The demon disappeared!
*He became My angel.

Left.
Right.
Left.
Right.
How to get through the day.

Breathe In.
Out.
In.
Out
How to make it through
            those moments.

Look forward.
Forward.
Forward.
Forward.
Never look back at what
           you thought you wanted

My heart stays hidden,
       I don't know where,
       I just know it's hidden.
It hides from my eyes,
        in a box,
        maybe on a shelf.
Wherever I hid it last,
        there it lies.

Somewhere,
        unseen by prying eyes,
There's a blade,
        the one that almost ended my life.
That simple razor,
        it hides from prying eyes,
               It hides from your eyes.
Because of that blade,
       I have felt pain,
               the blood draining.
That blade was once,
        my only friend.

I want to:
see your 'good morning' smile
wake up to you looking down at me
be able to look up at you

I need to:
hear your voice in the morning
go to sleep listening to your voice
look in to your eyes and know that I'm all you see.

I have to be:
held by you
loved by you
touched only by you.

I
pour
my
heart
and
all
I
get
is
a
Really?

I
Love
You,
but
you
really
are
clueless.

You know what?
I'm just here,
waiting.
Waiting for the day,
when you make that
choice.
You know what I'm
talking about.
The choice that finally says,
"I love her, it was all a lie."
Yea,
that
one.
I can feel it coming on,
she's your ex, but
I was once too.
Now though,
I'm your new
You dear, You should be
focused on us.
On our relationship.
It's torn dear,
my family hated you until now.
They're just starting to
warm up to us, you and I.
Don't **** us up,
I love you
In 8th grade, you my dear, you said
             Today,
               Tomorrow,
                 and
                Forever.
     That's how long I'll love you.
You see dear,
I remember that.
I remember the date,
what we were doing.

*I remember it all....
          from our first kisses to the last

When we have those nights,
the ones where we do nothing,
it makes me happy.

On those nights,
all I want to do is hang out,
that would make me happy.

I love those few nights,
when we're almost all together,
they make me smile.

Nights like tonight,
where we could even hang out
in Subway, and still have fun!

*Nights like these,
They bring me joy!

I see your face,
        hear your voice your laugh,
                 feel your joy,
                       smell your smell so clean and crisp
Your eyes, they look sincere, but your voice seems confused,
          Your joy, it's changed, it's different somehow.
                   Your smell, it's different, less innocent in a way.
That sentence, is it true?
         *What's it mean to hang yourself?

Do you know what I think of when I hear your name?
         I think of someone cruel and ugly.
                   The type of person mean enough to kick puppies!
                            Honestly, the one person that even Mother Theresa would hate.
                                    No one can fix you,
                                             No one can put you back together.
                                                    You're just a broken little person.
                                             Who will one day understand,
                                     Understand the reasons for the hatred,
                            The reasons for the sadness!
                  One day you will see,
        You will be no longer blind,
You will see why we hate you,
        You will look into our eyes, and see the pain you caused.
                  Our fear is your fault.
                            Yours, and yours alone.
                                    How could you not know,
                                             *What you've caused?

When I lie awake at night, I think of you.
                                                            ­                                                                 ­               I think of you too
When I close my eyes to sleep, I see your face.
                                                           ­                                                                 ­           Your's is all I can see
When I finally dream, you are the main character.
                                                      ­                                                                 ­     You're the princess in mine
When I wake in the morning, I swear I hear your voice.
                                                          ­                                              Your's is the melody that awakens me
You're so much a part of me, that
                                                                ­                                      *I don't know where you end and I begin

No one can really tell,
      Where friendship ends and sisterhood begins.
No one really knows,
      How some friendships begin.
Not many understand,
      The reasoning behind the dynamic.

Fate brings them together.
      Just like us.

A summer
      to remember,
The loss of
      our innocence,
The taste of
      a kiss
             beneath the stars,
Just a few simple things
      to make our
             *summer memorable

I hear the choking sound,
                  turn around
I see the boy, the tree, the pink leash,
                  pink, why pink
I touch the boy, his skin is ice, Why?
                   he's so cold
I feel the fear and tears,
                  do not cry
I speak the words, "Michael? Wake up, you're gonna be in trouble!"
                   *he's gone

That night,
it plays in my head
like a broken record.

That night,
I see it all again
like it's happening again.

That night,
it's my nightmare.

You are far,
    But my dear,
       Think of me?

You are near,
    But my dear,
        Don't forget me?

You are gone,
    But my dear,
        You're still here.