Ever since this fantasy disappeared
My imagination is something I fear
But I try to make everyone happy it ain't working
Suicide is creeping I could feel her lurking
This knowledge is such fundamental
But reality and the people are so judgmental
I make money got no time for vacation
Staying on my grind you don't needa translation
I'm high just floating in the air
I know I'm an ******* but it just means I care
Its true Ima keep doing what I do
And if you can't see then you need to let lose
What makes you beautiful
Is you being weird as usual
Breaking my emotions its so unbelievable
I'm tired of the chase
I ain't Ina ****** race
So these feelings I have are gonna have to erase
Out of my stumber
To the government your just a number
Live life you ain't getting younger
I change rapidly through the stress and the agony
My problems are big probably fill up the the whole ****** galaxy
Even as a felon
My mind is up in the heaven
Of knowledge because its my only weapon
To survive while my thoughts divide
Hiding emotions smiling and giving high fives
You know its S U N
And there's no end
To the stress and this is why I don't have friends.

Cowboy hat Ima ranger
Two pistols on my hip I'm the danger
Feeling trapped Ina chamber
Disgraced now I'm offended
Sorrow long gone glad that it ended
Deleted my Facebook that why you were un friended
So dont blame me for the courtesy
Freedom in stake the force of captivity
Dont really care if they murdered me
Cause I'm sick, sick of this ****
Walking on ice but it ain't that thick
Got a 5 star beautiful chick
So what am I saying I got no problems
Homie if you gotta a problem ***** we can solve em.

Realizing you ain't the mistake
The mistake is what they hate
****** tryna put others down
When the ***** thats a ***** is you when the time comes around
To sneek at night killing ****** left and right
Ripping out the eyes so there would be nothing in sight
Cause ******* stay blind
Rather stay quite then open up there minds
This world is so lame without the fame being played like a game
Put down in shame
Looking for life yes I am the seeker
To find love and that beautiful creature
On a sunny day where theres still rain
Should be happy but theres still pain
Of the love when we make chemistry
I wouldn't be surprised if your ***** fell in love with me.

You can't comprehend
Not even close to understanding him  
There's no such thing as a right or wrong
I live and take a tour writing these songs
You got to live no matter what
It takes ***** and guts
So what the ****
Yes you have your ups and downs
Rounds after rounds
Its like a battle knife to a gun fight
Cause its unfair and its what we call life.

Open up and speak your mind
Revolution we seek through the time
Guards and cell mates with angry faces
Riots break off from different races
My mom told me its the place that I should fear
But I'm trapped in my mind is what's happening here
I can't lie I've done my mistake
But I don't get how they put me in with minds full of hate
I find myself talking and rapping at the wall
Where dreams and freedom is where they will fall
In court wrist and ankles locked in chains
Where the judge says the words of where I'll remain.

Sun shines when the sky is blue
Riding down the west coast avenue
Cause everywhere is balanced fair
Like when I chill the day with you
But I'll love you through the pain
Emotions be coasting through the veins
There's no mean to get away
When our love takes a far way
Of many memories each year
When things are weird but very clear
I fell for you soft like snow
The feeling of letting go
I guess we will never know
Cause we go back to one another
Gotta get money to get out this gutter
You say to leave but I can't leave my mother.

I'm tired of this ****
Don't bring your ******* around me
Are you ****** stupid
I said don't bring that **** around me
You think everything is alright
But in your heart you know its a lie
So why the ******* smiling for
If everything you do will not satisfy
The ones you love and care for the most
Because when you die
You'll finally realize
That's this ******* we call a life is a ****** lie
You try to change but you still sin
To the evil that becomes a disease
Spreading through your head
Till your thoughts begin to freeze.

What did I do to deserve this
God tell me what the **** to do now
I can't comprehend of what I believe
To live I need someone to show me how
I can't see anything that's infront of me
Even tho I see the glory covering my emotions
Thoughts flowing through my head
But steady flowing like an ocean
I lost everything to see the world
Where I'm just looking up at the sun
Thinking of my life where has it gone
Tried to escape but there's no where to run.

Living life
Where I live and learn
From my mistakes
But they will burn
So why the **** worry
And be upset
When the anger and stress
Don't show the respect
I need to get over it
But I guess it likes me down
Till I'm crying
And my head spins around
Choice I make
Will end up all for nothing
Choices you make
I hope its all for something
To make me feel
Like you care
Cause lately
It doesn't seem if your there.

I got life problems
You wouldn't understand
So why even try
When I don't even trust me fam
Life with a family
Happy as they could be
But they didn't understand
The sadness in me
Its hard to open up
Because they will stab me in the back man
To deep
Where I can't bear to stand
You say live and be happy
But words don't satisfied
To make me feel happy
Because happiness is the saddest lie

When the night is old they come for me
But I wont give in I have to fight it
And if I get tired
I'll start a riot
Because I don't wanna sleep
You wont comprehend
My dreams
Or even close to understanding them
Split an 8th of shrooms
Now I'm passed the moon
Looking at the universe
Knowing all of this will end soon
Drugs made love to my nightmares
Waking up in sweat, can't even breath
Don't understand what they mean
Feels like when I sleep I get dragged underneath
The hells of flames where I drink
To wash my sins of the baby blue ocean
What God gave me and now I'm thinking
Why did you give me dreams and the emotion
To try and understand
What these dreams may mean
Oh baby tell me
What do they mean, these dreams..

I'm paranoid of losing my life
And not achieving my goals
I'm pierced with the knife
That's deep in my soul
Losing my mind and can't find
My thoughts, cause they freeze
From hallucination of the situation
Spreading like a curl deadly disease
Demons at night search for my heart
But they cant because my angles cover me
With light so there's no sign of dark
My heart is to bright they begin to flee
I am not hiding who I am
Open up your eyes bro
But go ahead and close you eyes fam
For I am the plan and I understand
Going into the tunnel
Where the dark will surround
Can't see in front of me
But there's such a strange sound
Devil you played you games well
But my soul isn't yours its mine
I see you walk along my path
But dont cross my beloved line.

Tossing and turning in my bed
Demons hunting my head
Losing sleep
Opened wounds buried deep
Inside my brain hurting me
When will the troubles leave
My mind and will I shine
To the world as a kid to give off a sign
Im alone some say I'm divided
From people but its what I have decided
To do so I won't have people close to my heart
Because my mental is in the dark
Where I'm all alone
And my memory is gone
And I can't think of why I'm so tired
Where's the lighter, Im not fighter
But I'm tired, Spark the fire
Still not a fighter, But baby I'm so tired
Getting higher
Can't sleep cause you told me you love me, ***** you a liar.

Internal bleeding will begin to leak
If you don't stop it my memory will soon delete
Yea N-A-T-H-A-N
***** im underground but I **** the end
Of other rappers cause my music is different
If you haven't heard my **** then you haven't had the chance to listen
To the world and 2014 is here
People scared but its a different kind of fear
Human beings living on a rock called planet
If the rock was to melt we would panic
Heart starts racing
***** aint got a life ***** what is you chasing
Just chill here's a blunt hit it
Give it a minute feel your soul being lifted
Flowing rhymes like a perfect wave in the ocean
Discovered life is full of troubles and emotions
That will hurt but you have to stay strong
Don't give a **** about ******* cause you wont be here on earth that long
Feeling so good
Keeping it fresh listening in school while I'm keeping it hood
Cause if I slip away
And die to day
I wanna be known as someone who saved
Kids from suicide cause I know how it feels but I survived because I was brave
To go against my fears
Even if it took long and I shed so many tears.

Will my death be coming suddenly
Will my death really be the last of me
Show me is this worth living for
Make me understand it
Before I begin to lose it
Cause when I was young and couldn't wait to big
I think of everything I did
And will it be all for nothing

Using my heart and not my eyes to find the root of my life tree
Using your eyes and not your heart to see what you really love about me
Tell me cause my thoughts travels of what is your answer
I would cry my heart out like a kid with cancer
My soul and my heart will freeze
Thoughts will run
Spreading like a deadly disease
Rhymes flowing so hard got my lungs sore
Mind racing thoughts combined
With the situation where I need to rap about it so I wouldn't feel the pain no more
But I feel like I drowned myself
Suffering through pain
Where the water is the only thing that prevents me from screaming help

Lions of the heart
Don't live in the dark
On the road to a new life
With the money and power in sight
If you ain't balling then you ain't no beast
****** that complain the most have the least
Don't be cheap
To your girl cause her heart will begin to leak
Of your love so just don't think just do
Rather do that then to lose
Something so good
Instead of your homies in the hood
That only always be there
Cause friends wont always have time to share
With you so why the ******* trying
If they wouldnt give a **** if you were crying
Lions don't lose sleep
Over the sounds of feet
Surrounding them when there's no way out
Don't hate life cause its not good to take the easy way out
Music
Don't lose it
Neither confuse it.

You see in trapped in my mind
Stuck in my lie
Where the happiness is hard to find

When you think of the world
I know its crazy
But hey it don't faze me

I'm trapped in my mind baby
Its hard to believe
But believe me when I say I'm going crazy

When I think of this girl
She drives me crazy
Oh she gots my mind all hazy

Iv been trapped in my mind lately
And baby
I know its crazy

I'm trapped in my mind its not that bad
But my mind is the only thing that keeps me un-sad.

My life *****
People say they care but they don't really give a ****
Suicide is real
The cold blade on my skin is what I feel
Funeral im ready burry me now
Saying you care about me, ***** how?
IV got some issues that will never leave
And those issues still trouble me
My hearts an open wound that I hope heals soon
Feel alone like if I'm not on earth but walking the moon
Walking through the shadows leaving my zone
No coming back baby I'm gone
Multiple the lies
Slash out my eyes
People don't understand but they will learn
People understand when they are burned
Man I'm tried of life and its games
Just **** me now and lit up the flames
Now ima let **** happen and not try to fight
Even tho I'm sad baby I'm alright

Get down rock round and round
Love to her you moan mm girl thats the sound
Dap a pound
Feeling so ****** pick me up off of the ground
Feel the bass up in my chest
Music calling me this ain't a test
If you think you better boy give it a rest
Only got 3 tatts
Spurs hats
Living big you should know it says it on the mat
Of my crib when you first walk in
You know when I walk in the party has begin
We gonna get ****** up all night there just isn't an end
But to much just got me in the morning sick
Them girls saying they want me and want me ****
But I don't wanna **** I tell em to keep them jaws thick
Swerving them lanes
Turn off the lights when I see a gang
Drive pass by and my glock goes BANG
Purple smoke not original dank
All purple even my drank
We call ourselves potheads ***** what the **** do you thank

Click clack POW POW there goes my gun
Second chances going out for some
***** doesn't mean that you'll be one
I'll slice your neck
Rip your ******* heart right out of your chest
****** you with my glock and behead the rest
Smash your head
Don't give a **** if your alive or dead
Smash till the ******* walls are soaked in ****** red
See your brain
Makes me lose it and I go insane
Now I see the world pouring blood as rain
Tie her up
Cut between her titts then down and out goes her guts
I'm a crazy ******* I don't give a ****
Hammer straight to your face
Make your ****** soul levitate
***** now you in a better place
Cut my wrist
Deep inside and I give it a twist
Feeling weak now im relaxing my fist
Man I wish my mom would of killed me during pregnancy
Now God gots me on this earth tryna start a new legacy
But I feel im the only one and its stressing me
Click Clack POW bullet through my head
Now that im dead
You cry and think of the things you could of said.

Get my head right
Just like in jail ******* up my appetite
Man this **** is suicide
Give up your only pride
And when you do you'll realize
There's no apple in my eyes
For I have cried every last flavor so there's a lack of color
That's why I'm always mad you *******
***** *** *** don't even know
(Don't even know)
Don't need the problems so just go
(Problems are a big no no)
All about that money
Eyes stay ******
Just to see the world different cause its so ugly
Swerving lanes gets me car sick
But it don't faze Carson
Army strong like a martian
Feeling alive getting it in tight
Smiling through the ******* you know its alright
Hide my soul so I wouldn't be leavin
Smoke bowls in the morning and blunts in the evening
Oh yes I inhale ****
Wrecking these mics cause my flows are so real
***** im so chilled
Since my birth the day I came to earth
There was a burst of hate that got worse.

Wondering why everything is so slow
Mind blown and eyes steady be low
Smiling at me when I bust out the show
But why is you happy when you don't even know
What ima rep
Don't disrespect my set
Aim for checks before you aim for ***
Don't understand the difference between what we call a friend
All the ******* **** and stress will end
So why put up with other peoples ******* don't start or begin
See I'm the type of guy that laughs at his mistakes
So excuse me while I laugh in your face
Put you in your place
Ain't got not problems when I lace
Up that blunt
So much pounds waiting to be delivered out my trunk
Sand between my toes sun in my face everyday
What can I say
I ain't been this chilled ever since my birthday
Its hard to live life when it brings you down
Feels like your in maze but can't find air while you drown
Fat like Biggie and buff like Pac
Walking the streets strapped with my glock
How it is when you walk them blocks.

My grandma died in 08
But it was to soon God was that her fate
Left me alone in this world that's cold
Iv learn to move on the more I get old
But I cant stop of stress that you are gone
I can't believe its been this long
And everyday that passes I think of you
My desire to do good choices is cause of you
R.
I.
P.
These emotions still **** with me
And every single emotion is invisible where you can't see
I wish she was alive
Without her things are never right
I wish you would of took my life
(I pray, God you should of took my life)
Since my brother died I ain't been right since
Now I would rather spend
Life with them where I'm happy without 1 cent
And when my father died, I discovered my moms has lied
R.
I.
P.
All of these emotions are ******* with me
And all of these emotions are invisible where you can't see
I wish they were alive
Things without them is never right
God?
Why not take my life
(Why take them and not my life).

You go and call my digits
Expecting a visit
I tell you listen
I made a decision
What the point in playing this game
When I'm to ashamed
When the anger runs through my veins
Don't **** with me, and if you do you'll ******* too
Please forgive me, I'm sorry I hurt you
Saying that while I'm on one knee
Nothing to say so you don't speak
I see a guy replacing me since I been gone
I guess it hasn't takin you to long to finally move on
So I guess I'll do the same
And now you mad cause iv changed
Got a job and a new girl
But why you mad when you ****** up my world
Don't say you miss me, when your the reason I'm gone
Sorry but you know when I'm mad I just write songs
I know I'm a **** up
But you know my story and how I grew up
So don't say "I thought you were different" ***** shut the **** up
I'm done and its over
I'm a **** not a lover
*******!!

I'm so high but I feel so low
See people say they care but I feel so low
That's why I'm stuck smoking this dro
What the **** am I crying for
I can't chill cause my mind is sore
Fighting off the demons in my head causing a war
Man I don't even know what the **** is real anymore
I'm losing sleep
Cut bad and the wounds is deep
Hot headed because my blood begins to heat
Is there something wrong with me?
Am I just a ******* that doesn't know his own life
Am I just a ******* that doesn't know what's right
Cause if I am I don't deserve to live
Treated so many people wrong the guilt is big
But ******* I'm back
Say it louder
IM BACK
***** *** ***** *** ***** little ****
no my vocabulary ain't good one bit
I say what the **** I like
if you ain't like it taste the bottom of my nikes
cause I'll kick your *** in the ******* face
Put you *** back in your place
If you trippin better fix your lace
Don't make the mistake
Cause when I'm back
Louder!!
***** *** ***** when I'm back
I'm out of my mind like all the time
And all the time I'm in my mind
Don't bring your ******* to me they'll learn
Cause everything you say in hell will burn
Don't decide, if its a lie
don't cry, put the ******* aside
take your time, and everything will be fine.

Its so ****** old
Havin this dream running down the road
With demons hunting me
Will I ever see what I'm suppose to see
In life, am I alright
These dreams seem to ****** with me
And I cry upon what is left of me
And what ever it is baby its yours to keep
But they leave me blind
Controlling my body cause I'm trapped in mind
Will things ever be simple and fine
This dark road, is getting old
I look to my right, darken is there and nothing in sight,
And then I look to my left, still darkness won't y'all give it rest
I'm in my mind
Because I'm blind
Nothing is fine
The dark road, its getting old
Its getting old, running down this road.

You need to learn to live and learn to love
Ain't many opportunities to get a hug for the ones you love
Cause one day they be gone
And so will you life ain't that long
So make everything count that comes around
Dap a pound of love so you won't hit the around
Life is to short to be sad and mad
Wish of all the things that you wish you had
You need to get out and get some
Ain't no chances in life but just one
So take it, replace it
To a new innervation
They say yolo but is that the meaning of life
you only live once well I guess that right
But you need to stop doing all the drugy ****
Finish school sit back a study the ****
Pass the class with flying colors
Don't give a **** about a *******
and you'll be good
gangster while you smart still keep it hood

Don't tell me how to live my life
If you try than you know you'll be seeing the light
cause I ain't with that *******
talking about being a bad *****
and your selfishness
becomes the innocents
of what nature calls
up in the college straight smoking in the halls
I don't hear a word you said
Bass so loud busting the ear drums out my
head
Living life big
smoke none but **** cause we don't **** with cigs
party all night
till we see the sun light
so once again
Dont tell me how to live my life if yours haven't began
Don't tell me how to live my life
Smoking that Dro so that I feel alright

They call me nuts
But the government is what made us
Behind a cage you wouldn't understand
All day with with people showing you how to be a man
Its jail
Where Iv failed
cause I didn't go to court
And came to my house taking me by force
Gave me 4 years probation
Wanna smoke and its nothing but a hesitation
But I take my mind off when a girl calls and I use the lubrication
Beating it up they should call me the extermination
Now I'm out of jail
with my family everything going well
Can't smoke so I guess I'll sell
I'm so depressed but its hard to tell
Cause I keep my feelings inside
So I push you away and I hide
my emotions because I wanna cry
Everything that made me happy before never truly satisfied
Now because I tell people in happy but that's just the saddest lie
And I don't know why
Again god give me a sign..

Some say I'm a wizard
But they ain't the ones with the liquor
How am I suppose to provide if its empty in my liver
Do your thang, Live life a hang
On as it knocks you down with a big bang
Just let it pass and stop racing
to something that's not there but you still chasing
you understand y'all understand
just stick to you and your dreams and make a plan
You with it are y'all with it
If you do put your dreams somewhere in your mind to fit it
Whatever you want go get it and make it yours
If you work hard you'll never be ignored
From life cause man it all yours.

I tell the chick my deposits
Finished school I might be headed off to college
Hope I don't die soon to lay in my coffin
Smoking so much **** just got my lungs coughin
I'm zoned, and I'm gone
Even tho this **** is wrong
I'm still hitting out of the ****, and getting high all night long
I'm smoking with my peps like you never thought I would
Cops bust the party but we still toking its all good
Living life without fear
Came from blue wearing voks at lainer
But it ***** and that's why you know why I don't wanna go back
Failed 2 years there and now I'm passing can you believe that
Cause in class I be maintaining
The work and they say I'm doing amazing
But there's still problems, and troubles
Just living life through the *******, and the struggle
But I can't complain, it will be there just like my chores
Stuck in my mind with no exit doors
But I try and I do good
But a black man to the world is misunderstood.

SA Town is where it is
Partying all night like my home girl Liz
Pour the beer in the cup and chug it down with the fizz
You can go downtown
Where everything's poppin
Or go to the club and them girls hips be rockin no stoppin
We the best, in the west
We come down so beastly
Making other places look weakly
We ain't mad we stay chill
Cause we be so real
Oh yes we smoking ****
And our minds are so ill
San Antonio
Raving at the Alamo
So many people gone you can't even caught your own zone
Cause this is where it at
210 baby what do you know about that
Restoring our pride best believe we'll come back

You give me beautiful worries
That rush through my mind in a hurry
Now the sight is blurry
And my thoughts are *****
Wanna make you my queen
Drowsy and trippin all night as we sip lean
Baby what do you mean
I'm starting off slow
Let me pack this bowl
So I could give you the show
But NO!!
Wanted to start off doing it wrong
No ****** on, but it takes me long
To release my semon to create another demon
cause he'll be like me
His head will not have memories just the pain of misery
And he will believe
Whatever it shall be
So lets go it right, don't bring that stress so early on me.

Mmm you don't understand
Why I am what I am
I'm sorry I couldn't be your man
I just can't deal with it, gotta stick with my plan
But don't be offended when I tell you to shut it
Making my brain hurt I think I might lose it
Chasing after nothing but still I go through this
Making me feel down and blue
And then I think of you
All happy thought in my head that are new
Before never seen
You tell me I'm stuck in your dreams
That only happens when you go to sleep but eat something sweet like ice cream
But girl who are you choosing
Got two guys after you and now you just fooling
Man what are you doing
I'm going to stop be cause I know where I stand
I now understand why you don't wanna hold my hand
In public cause you embarrassed that I'm your man
But when we alone you love me keeping your jaw thick
While you up on my ****
But the emotion still hurts and I'm tried and I'm sick
So I go to the ditch, and smoke the rest of this nick
But when my soul fly's to the sky
You'll think and wonder why
Its probably because you never said goodbye.

They said that I can't change without you
That I can't changed without your hugs
That I can't change without your love
Why can't I get much better
Like why can't I get much better
That's why I write you these letters
Love me for me
Make me see what I don't see
And never lie to me
Love doesn't disrespect
Something you'll regret
Cause when I leave your life will come to a wreck
And I'm sorry that I'm this way
But I have my days
It won't last long its just a faze
Cause
I can't change without you
That I can't change without your hugs
Baby I can't change without your love..

Can't you see our destiny as come
Can't you see that I should be the one
And honestly your the only one I want
Oh oh baby
And I'm so glad that I found you now I am done with the love haunt
I wanna make loving memories
Where its just you and me
And I wanna make history
You don't know how much you mean to me
My love is true
And its only for you

Why do we die
Why do we cry
Why do we lie
God give me sign
And a reason why
My mind is trippin
Is this life worth livin
Am I ever forgivin
What is my best decisions
As I grown
Seeing people always on there ****** phones
Always getting ****** up to feel immortality
But in reality
No sign of a personality
On the internet is where the devil speaks
Teaching girl to be ***** instead of making them feel unique
Make a confession
Of your depression
Don’t hide cause I could see it in your face expression

You live and you learn
If your unconcerned
There’s always a way or a different turn
But take the right one before you spend eternity to burn
Even through your life has  struggles
From the pain and the troubles
Don’t be like me ******* up my knuckles
This world is crazy and it still leaves me puzzled
Live life around people
But in the eyes all I see is evil
Aint no one treated equal
So I be independent like an eagle
Then I fall because of the bleeding
Fell and having a hard time breathing
Death is near I feel my body freezing
But no help cause the blood is still leaking

When I am zoned
Feeling all alone
Staying up all night as my mind is blown
And my thoughts are gone
Sticks and stones
That’ll break my bones
Won’t give in and let them take my throne
You gotta stay strong
Hit that ****
Like the next cheech and chong
Let your mind go and ride along
To this world were you feel you don’t belong
Being outlawed and doing the wrong
My mind comes with the greatest technique
Flows so weird but unique
Leave you speechless, but you better not speak
Before I leave your body chopped up and ***** in a creak
I know it’s not right
But all I see is black and white
Where I wanna pick a fight
Trust me when I say I’m alright
I got some issues that nobody can see
I fight for my life as you can see
And everything that hurts is hurting me
Im only human what am I suppose to be

I live as a loner
Because I’m a stoner
My pride won’t let me see
That I’m alone and it’s just me and me
As I’m trapped in my mind
My brain will combined
With my thoughts to entwined
In my imagination to be one of a kind
I am happy today
I am happy in some way
Somehow I feel okay
Somehow I’m happy today
No depression no more
My heart is done of being sore
I have something else in store
Happy and free is a perfect mix
Aint got time to **** with ******* and chicks
Just wanna smoke a bowl and watch work alcoholics
Wild cause I’m young
Feeling good among
The smoke blowing out my lungs
Call 2 chicks to have a *******
If you wanna join your welcome
I’m stop cause this has nothing to do with my poem

She said I don’t spend time like I really should
She said I don’t try much like I really would
She said I don’t smile when I really could
But I can’t decide weather its true or a lie
My heart starts to cry, but don’t know why
It’s not me getting high, It’s me giving you sign
She said I don’t like when your high, I can’t adore your eyes
She said I don’t know if this love is true or a lie
She said I’d rather be with you and work thing out and try
Baby I love you a lot, Your gonna be the one I propose to with the ring in the box
I love spending time with you every second that counts on the clock
My life with you rocks, I don’t need anyone else cause my heart is overstocked
With your love, Cause this is what happiness is made of.

Your friends are low lifes don't act surprised
Where the ******* think they be going at night
parties and kick backs just so they feel alive
copying all these artists tryna be a bad *****
but when it comes to school you ain't know ****
you would throw your life away cause you would wanna get high
but the support of help is there but you just let it ****** pass by
but you still don't understand
havin fun being "turned up" really makes you a man?
following the life of an artists that don't give a **** about your plans
thinking life is boring and so is school
wanna make it out of  trillions of people and you think the world will listen to you?
thugs get mad cause a ***** be mean mugging
but at the end you proved nothing
now you in a jail cell and your guilt is bugging
you don't listen to your mind when its trying to tell you something.

I got emotions that don't make sense
Wondering where has my life went
But I'm not Jr or Matthew
I'm Nathan Carson that's been to jail
Living my life it seems you live in hell
Succeed everything but you seem to fail
But my brian feels like its insane
and my brain cause the emotion of pain
My own birthday
Was the worse days
Don't understand why I was born this way
No understand its not okay to be by yourself
But I'm happy even tho I'm by myself
I got 2 older brothers one ahead one dead
Got a loving mom that tells me to forget the ******* and what they said
But that still doesnt satisfy
The pain the hunts my mind
Hey Carson!!
You got a mind that doesn't understand why your here
Your mind is confused thats why you live in fear
You rather stay in the dark
Where it warms my heart
Don't act stupid because this **** been happening from the start.

All I do is create trouble
making my mothers stress double
even worse from the pain and the struggle
Man..
I wish I was simple in the mind
I wish there was a button to rewind
I wish there was a purpose to find
I wish the world would of never left me behind
I feel ALONE
I feel if this place isn't my home
I feel like my life is like my mind, GONE...
All my prayers I pray feel as if they don't work
The wound is deep, my pain, the emotions still hurt
They tell me to get back up but im buried under the dirt
Id rather live in my mind then these confusing earth.

Freedom is not allowed
Serving your country you must be proud
Killing your own kind on the barrier of your own grounds
Blood, flesh, guts being dropped by the pound
It's called war
Where the government spends all the money on instead of the poor
Its weird how me and you was born on earth
Same place before death and birth
But everyone is different
Some smart some just don't listen
Girls think they have everything but everything is what they really missin
Don't understand the true purpose of what God wants me to do
So ill just do me and you just do you
Man this world is so close to end
Don't even think I have much time for family and friends
That I haven't met when the new revolution begins

I got no problems
Can't solve em
So I just let the **** be
Instead of it troubling me
Smoking that ****
Gives a kick of what I need
To my imagination and thoughts is the definition of speed
Because my mind starts to race
Can't catch it or even stay with it in a stead pace
Keeping stress in the mind
Creates it to be blind
Where I'm lost and can't find
The reason I'm on this planet
Still confused and I want to panic
But I can't complain cause I wasn't the one to plan it
To go to school and be called lame
Because my swag is different and isn't the same
From yours?
Nah homie I don't wanna attract ******
I wanna girl who's imaginations is bigger than an inspiration
Of what she wants to be after graduation