What did I do to deserve this
God tell me what the **** to do now
I can't comprehend of what I believe
To live I need someone to show me how
I can't see anything that's infront of me
Even tho I see the glory covering my emotions
Thoughts flowing through my head
But steady flowing like an ocean
I lost everything to see the world
Where I'm just looking up at the sun
Thinking of my life where has it gone
Tried to escape but there's no where to run.

Living life
Where I live and learn
From my mistakes
But they will burn
So why the **** worry
And be upset
When the anger and stress
Don't show the respect
I need to get over it
But I guess it likes me down
Till I'm crying
And my head spins around
Choice I make
Will end up all for nothing
Choices you make
I hope its all for something
To make me feel
Like you care
Cause lately
It doesn't seem if your there.

I got life problems
You wouldn't understand
So why even try
When I don't even trust me fam
Life with a family
Happy as they could be
But they didn't understand
The sadness in me
Its hard to open up
Because they will stab me in the back man
To deep
Where I can't bear to stand
You say live and be happy
But words don't satisfied
To make me feel happy
Because happiness is the saddest lie

When the night is old they come for me
But I wont give in I have to fight it
And if I get tired
I'll start a riot
Because I don't wanna sleep
You wont comprehend
My dreams
Or even close to understanding them
Split an 8th of shrooms
Now I'm passed the moon
Looking at the universe
Knowing all of this will end soon
Drugs made love to my nightmares
Waking up in sweat, can't even breath
Don't understand what they mean
Feels like when I sleep I get dragged underneath
The hells of flames where I drink
To wash my sins of the baby blue ocean
What God gave me and now I'm thinking
Why did you give me dreams and the emotion
To try and understand
What these dreams may mean
Oh baby tell me
What do they mean, these dreams..

I'm paranoid of losing my life
And not achieving my goals
I'm pierced with the knife
That's deep in my soul
Losing my mind and can't find
My thoughts, cause they freeze
From hallucination of the situation
Spreading like a curl deadly disease
Demons at night search for my heart
But they cant because my angles cover me
With light so there's no sign of dark
My heart is to bright they begin to flee
I am not hiding who I am
Open up your eyes bro
But go ahead and close you eyes fam
For I am the plan and I understand
Going into the tunnel
Where the dark will surround
Can't see in front of me
But there's such a strange sound
Devil you played you games well
But my soul isn't yours its mine
I see you walk along my path
But dont cross my beloved line.

Tossing and turning in my bed
Demons hunting my head
Losing sleep
Opened wounds buried deep
Inside my brain hurting me
When will the troubles leave
My mind and will I shine
To the world as a kid to give off a sign
Im alone some say I'm divided
From people but its what I have decided
To do so I won't have people close to my heart
Because my mental is in the dark
Where I'm all alone
And my memory is gone
And I can't think of why I'm so tired
Where's the lighter, Im not fighter
But I'm tired, Spark the fire
Still not a fighter, But baby I'm so tired
Getting higher
Can't sleep cause you told me you love me, ***** you a liar.

Internal bleeding will begin to leak
If you don't stop it my memory will soon delete
Yea N-A-T-H-A-N
***** im underground but I **** the end
Of other rappers cause my music is different
If you haven't heard my **** then you haven't had the chance to listen
To the world and 2014 is here
People scared but its a different kind of fear
Human beings living on a rock called planet
If the rock was to melt we would panic
Heart starts racing
***** aint got a life ***** what is you chasing
Just chill here's a blunt hit it
Give it a minute feel your soul being lifted
Flowing rhymes like a perfect wave in the ocean
Discovered life is full of troubles and emotions
That will hurt but you have to stay strong
Don't give a **** about ******* cause you wont be here on earth that long
Feeling so good
Keeping it fresh listening in school while I'm keeping it hood
Cause if I slip away
And die to day
I wanna be known as someone who saved
Kids from suicide cause I know how it feels but I survived because I was brave
To go against my fears
Even if it took long and I shed so many tears.