I find myself not understanding somethings.
Why people look to a man they can not see.
Why people base their lives on stories they were not in.
Why people keep trying after they fail.
Why people want love though it always ends badly.
Why people physically hurt them selves to make emotional pain go away.
Why people think they love someone who hurts them.
Why people keep on living, trying to stay alive, not wanting to die.
Why I want this one person.
Why I still go to school everyday.
Why I try and get good grades.
Why I try to look my best.
Why I try to please people.
Why I try and please you.
Why I love you.
Why I care.
Why.

before everything
we were great friends
you were dating her
i thought you were cool
i liked you and you liked me
but we were both taken
when we were both single
we dated
i loved you
you loved me
then
i kissed her
and you found out
i ended it
you tried to fix it
but i couldnt let you back in and said lets just be friends
you couldnt take that and we fought
i told you, i hated you and i meant it
i told you, i didnt want to talk to you and i meant it
i told you, you were never the one for me and i meant it
now
i cant stop, loving you
i cant stop, wanting to walk up to you and say something
i cant stop, thinking you may have been the one i would marry
your with her
and your so similar
and shes sweet and pretty and nice
and shes my friend so i cant do anything about it
so**
ill let you go
forever
goodbye