My life is still such a mess and no one would even care if I just died but there's still a part of me that can't help but to genuinely believe that Taylor Swift is in love with me and that we will get married and have babies someday.

It was always about me until it never was and perhaps that's how it always is
I cannot say with full surety
But I know my pain along the way was real and I often could hardly ever breathe psychologically

Life is so heavy
But be mindful not to drop it
Love is some despicable balloon
Yet be ever so mindful not to pop it
Just let it float up to the moon
Goodbye and goodbye
You despicable buffoon
Dinner is ready
Always
Oh, yay
Wait, it's never too late
To have to put more groceries away
Honor thy redundant processes of routine!

I just need Gordon Geko to finally realize I exist and acknowledge me within the financial community or I won't ever have enough money to finally impress my dad
It is true that people, including my dad, have informed me that money isn't all that matters but I don't trust people (not even myself) and don't really believe and/or care about the things that they say to me
AT the end of the day...one things matters...and that's money!

The empire's on fire
The dream is burning with the sun
You pigs
Choke on greed
Suffocate
Die!


(You're so moody
So moody all the time
It's hard to keep you mine
*****)

The people laugh and cheer
They all wear their ***** work on their ***** sleeves
They raise their ***** working hands to salute you
They unwittingly support your ***** schemes
You smile and wave
As you put to death their ***** working-class dreams

(You're so moody
So moody in your eyes
It's hard to keep you mine
*****!)

The empire's on fire
The American dream is burning with stars
No one seems to know
People eat what they're fed
No matter how foul the ******* might taste

You pigs
I hope you choke on your greed
Suffocate!
Die!!

(You're so moody
I can see the sickness seeping from your throne
So moody all the time
*****
I can see the poison bleeding from your crown
*****!)

It's a lovely day
To break my heart
Like some sort of beautiful Patricia
Turning away, just as I go to kiss ya
As though certain that I am ridiculous
& so certain you should be
I am living on a breeze & sunrays
I am living in memories of fun days
Like some sort of useless boy violet
I cut myself for you

I guess you could say I stepped into the ring with a vendetta but you should never say that nothing didn't hurt me all that while I destroyed everyone who stepped up to me

I am so sick of Gordon Geko acting like I don’t even matter in the financial community; I need him to respect me or I’ll never have enough money to finally impress my dad enough into realizing that I am not a mistake!

There’s no one here
But there’s me
The only one here
& so lonely
There’s nothing to do here
But sit and stare
There’s nothing to look at
There’s nothing there
& there’s no love here
But there’s air
I wanna stop breathing
But I don’t dare
Cuz I don’t know where I would go if I did
But there's no one here
But there's me
The only one here
& so ugly

Don't call me smart unless you plan on ******* my brains out, bab

I obviously wish I always was a good person, who did good things and make great decisions but that's just not the case, even though I want it to be. Sorry. I'm being so redundant again...I guess this is just one of my many defense-mechanisms.
Things when from pretty good to pretty bad pretty **** fast today; it all started with an argument with my little sister...I don't see her much and we just clash negatively these days. So much crap in my head.

Of course I'm a little bit crazy...I'm an American; if you live in America and consider yourself not crazy, you're totally insane!
I love this country!

Oh, the house is on fire?
Let's buy more computers

Oh god...Is life worth it ornot?

It is okay that you departed
Though you have taken away the real sun

eye let you go
nananananana
Nooooooooooo
<3<3<3<3<3<3
Left alone each time

It's so pathetic how everyone is so jealous of me just because I am the one who Taylor Swift fell in love with.

People hate me just cuz I'm a real vampire

People who think my poemz are dumb are jerkz
Cuz they don't even no how smart eye ham hahahahahaha

Sometimes people who act like they love me actually hate me but that's fine because I sometimes act like I hate myself, even though I actually love myself, a lot. Love myself more than you...that's for **** sure. I'd punch you square in the jaw if I ever saw you in public because I need to prove to my dad that I am finally strong enough to stand up for myself and attack innocent strangers in public with my fists cuz I don't want all the hot babes out there in the world to see me stand down from a fight.
I wish this was a picture website like Instagram or something so I could post some selfies; I want everyone here to see how hot I am in real life.

I was young and sweet once
I had love all around and a warmth inside

Now I'm just another sociopath
Just another psychopath
A victim of poverty
Just another dried out *****
A victim of society

I'll step on you
To get what I need
I'll crush your dreams and bones
To get what I want
I'll crush your hope and throat..
Because I'm just another ugly..
Deranged..
Over-sexed flesh machine

I have a dying heart
And a head full of crossed wires
And my fears won't stop bleeding through my skin

I can't today

We have nothing to fear **** the fear that no one cares about the redundant and simple truth of that anymore
People want to be afraid or something because it's all that's left
I don't know but I do
This is the worst poem yet
I ****
I kiss
Mouths and necks
I blow it all on her
Every her in time

I am ready to die because I feel this way and I feel this way because I live like I'm ready to do; and so you see, vicious cycles are real.

Her boyfriend
He don't know that I'm her girlfriend
I'm a 33 year old male lesbian
Who licks her sweet crevacis all night long
Me so *****!
Yes!
Me love you long times!!!!!

Duh broke can clock is ugh *** fort
Sticky

Kevin, you're a curse
You chew through everything
You gnaw on life like a rat
You're so skinny but fat
You're so skinny but fat
You're so skinny but fat!

I know, I'm a ******* monster
I can never get out from under the bed
I know, I'm rat-like monster
I chew on your fears and gnaw on your love!
Trust me, I know, I'm a F@#%ing monster
And I'll never get what I want
If I never get out from under the bed

Kevin, you're a curse
Is there nothing you won't chew through?
Is there nothing in life you won't gnaw on?
You RAT!
You're so skinny but fat
You're so skinny but fat
You're so skinny but fat!

You're all skin and bones..
But your addictions are so fat!!!

Seriously
Things aren't that horrible at the moment and the world hasn't exactly ended, yet...but I got so worked up today and now I have to get a lawyer and have him or her talk to my parents because there's seriously no point at all in attempting and honest and/or open conversation with these people; they just don't know how to do it because I guess everything was so much different for their generation growing up and everything

So much of the hell is leaving my brothers and sisters
And perhaps it is even leaving me
For now

I would never actually **** myself on purpose but there's been so many times in my life when I wished I had a gun or cyanide pills so I could just end it all very quickly and I don't think I'm alone in this.
I hate when people ask "are you okay?" because people are the reason people are not okay.

Sometimes it can be so good
Other times so wrong
When it comes to good I wish it would
Be extra good so long
Me love you long time
Me so *****!!!!!!

I'm only on here for attention
Just joking
Wait...am eye?
Nope
I don't know
thingszzz

I am so tired
I should just take one of my giant pills that my doctor prescribed
They just tranqulize me, which is good...because I seriously hate being awake so much sometimes
I can't even figure out how to spell the word tranqulize right now and refuse to look it up because I seriously do not even care at all
I just wish life was always a bit happier and that good people didn't die young and leave you all alone for the rest of your life
I like to daydream and fantasize that Taylor Swift would love me but she probably would not even care much about me or my life
I'm so stupid
Just wanna sleep or something, even though it isn't even dark out
Summer is my favorite season and I've been waiting forever for it but I don't even care right now
I'm always alone
My heart is black
I will always be alone in a cold cave of sad desperation and total insanity and no one will ever reach out to me and really care and I won't care, either
No one can love me because I'm a beast and beauty isn't real

No life to speak of
As I sleep, wake
Breathe
Turn into wall
See, believe
Dream
Break
Crushed into dust
Float
Sail into you
Faith, trust
I'm lost in your voice

I can't sleep even though I took a big tranquil lies sir pill
I'm sick of stuff
I don't have any real independance and I can't even spell it right
I am the smartest man on the internet

No one seems to wanna stay with her but me but anyone can just come along and say that about me and it'd probably be true
I don't know her and she doesn't know me but we do love each other on a spiritual level and I honestly believe her soul is purely dive and pure <3

What is someone as smart, wise, beautiful and talented as Taylor Swift actually had a crush on me?
I seriously would just play it cool and not blow it, everyone
I just would wanna be whatever her ideal is

I feel like watching the movie Valentine's Day
Even though it has Ashton Koochair
Because the real Taylor Swift is in the movie
I wish she cared about me enough

What if nothing is even real?
I guess that's pretty standard psychotic thinking
It's like...I know things are real...but I just need to look up the word real on google or something

wHAT am eye **** an endless ocean of dreamzzzz?

Who am I to define even the smallest part of you
When all I do is break myself down
Second guess my heart and mind
Analyze my own every thought and action
The stupid simplicity of it is I don't know you
But want to

Whether we do good or bad, we always have to be ourselves, which is bad when we're bad and good when we're good and I'm not just saying so to be simple-hearted or coy or whatever; it really is that simple. I almost just got thrown back into the hospital but chose to have my parents and siblings just press legal charges against me this time; the trooper said there's not enough hard-evidence to drag me in but did end up writing a citation against me for harassment. This really is a crazy country but I love it.

I'm waiting for the morning AA meeting...haven' t slept in a bit....don't even know why I'm staying up for it when I could just take one of the giant tranq pills the doctors gave me and sleep for like sixteen hours in a row.
I hope people don't mind that my poems are often me just writing whatever.

Why ain't things better yet?
I feel so unispired

I am insane for you, whoever you may be, baby
I'm all about gambling tonight
And every other night
Shaking and baking
It's what I gotta do
**** eye waz never faking
When I said that I love you
Whoever you may be, baby

What if ornot was a real word? What would it even mean?
I dare you to moooooooove
I dare you to moooooooove
Oh...sorry, I'm listening to this great song by switchfoot right now

Still wide away, which I blame on the coffee...it makes me have to *** a lot and keeps my brain wired. I wanna eat burgers and fries and a vanilla milkshake. I feel like cruising through the night some more.

Just one death
No more ******* around
Games are for *******
I always have fun playing games until I get sick of the rules
A game is defined by rules
There are no games without rules

This is the worst morning of my life
Though, I have said so before
Everything is terrible
I'm so terribly bored and I hate the way everything feels
Wish I had some ****
Coffee and cigarettes just aren't cutting it
What's it?
Stress
I would leap from a bridge to end it all
But am I not already falling?
Question is, when will I hit the bottom?

Why should I even bother doing things?
I shouldn't because people will not like me no matter what I do.
I just got invited to one of Madonna's famous beach-parties but I don't feel like going because Madonna is old and ugly and has a huge gap in her teeth and I bet her breath stinks really bad