I used to think
That there’s nothing
More painful,
More unbearable
Than losing
Someone you love
To someone else.
Turns out,
Losing yourself
to the person
You love
Is much much worse.

I’m sorry.

Pill poppin’
Mad drinkin’
Brain dead
Over eatin’
Skin slicin’
Lost reason-
Embarrassed
You had
To see it.

Don’t leave.
Stay the night with me.
In your arms is where
I’d rather be.
Make sweet tea.
Flip on a movie.
Talk to me.
Help me
Fall asleep.

Staying angry
Keeps the birds
From flying,
The flowers
From blooming
And you
From returning home.

It is those days
That when our
Hearts are heavy
And our minds are numb—
That we need to be
Most kind to ourselves.

I’ve got nothing left
to give you.
I gave too much away
and left nothing
for myself.