Words can't come out easily
No matter how much you long for these words to leave and for freedom replace it's absence
What would these words do once they come into existence would they show me the answers
Give me a new friend
Create a new love
Brake a heart
Ruin everything I worked for
What would they do
When We're both free
That is the thing that scares me

You'll find a Abraham dead on the ground everyday
But you'll only be lucky when you find Benjamin laying there
Honestly I've seen more Abrahams then Benjamin will ever represent so if i picked Abraham up every time I saw him by the time I find Benjamin I would already have more then he represents

Think about it

Times my weight by ten
You'll know how much I carry then
Though my body may be skinny
My heart is as bigger then Texas
Carrying things that make me sick and things that cure any sickness
Some cardiovascular work might be spectacular I need to get rid of all this weight
But this is years of obesity
Everything I try never eases me
The doctor said they can't do surgery on my condition
Figure it out yourself
So I'm here on my bed
Gaining weight as we speak
Now a days my body drags my chest around
They say I move so slow
Well now you know
My hearts gonna blow from all the **** it eats
So I'm prayin to god to shave some pounds
........
That's what I thought you'd say

My heart now is the weight of the world
What can I say it wants it all
When it explodes then who would you call
To take in all these worldly things and destroy themselves as you walk around skinny and free
I asked for help and you just looked at me
You scared of a little weight?
It'd do you some good
No now your to late
This is my fate
Learn from this hold each other's weight

Fire falls from the sky
Endings are near
What is good
As long as the rainbow still shows when the sun glows
Then imprints itself on the moon
the moon will cry from such a beauty
One big tear which drops on the world
Trees grow from this
making apples and oranges
Man and woman rise from roots
So there must be a serpent forming from the branch
Who looks woman in the eyes and says you have the power to make man cower
(It is true but the idea is not needed)
So then the woman laid down serpently charms on the man
For test to only say I jest
Which left the man in tears to eat the apples of fears
So now the clouds see love is not seen clearly
Pain can be washed away in rain
So it fell until none was left
Lonely and sad the earth was
Rain continued for years
As the rain built love in its true shape and form
Humans were then born again

It has been a while and the way I last left you was not in style
The way I stayed was not exactly smooth as suede either but I plan to rectify my wrongs by showing you things will be better then I will solidify my place as the king of Mary's land
For I will not do you wrong like I have in the past
I will not abandon you only to want to run back fast
I have changed in a way that is hard to explain I can not say
It's a change though
you are home
I love you so
I know we have not seen eye to eye which leads to you asking why
No longer can I lie
Because I can not lie to my heart
Your were there from the start
Land of Mary I know believing in me may seem scary for the offenses I committed blaming you in by hard times when I was the only one to fault for my crimes but I'm coming back Mary I know it may seem scary but I'm gonna do you right until my last night and forever represent everything you present
It's time we meet again on the right terms
I love you mary in me you will never go weary

This feeling In my heart twists my gut
You started a tornado that is destroying me internally
In so much pain I think how can it be
I could be so dumb as to let you see the real me
So you can have your way and leave one day
I asked no, BEGGED You to stay!
Your answer reflects where I am today
In my bed with so many words to you unsaid
Right now hateful words that if spoken out loud would probably **** the birds
So I keep them in
I guess you think you win
The games not done
I will be the one
Happy in the end
This will eat you over time
Your heart will bend
For every word in this rhyme
Is it safe to say I hate you
I wish it was but I wouldn't want to say it if I didn't love you
What made me date you in the first place?
I guess that's just how sweet it is
Loves first taste
Now I know To avoid someone with your affliction
You gave me more conviction
So I went to the doctor and he gave me a subscription
For a medicine called never again

Even angels have there evils
And demons wings are white under the black
If this conception falls far from your perception
What is the direction you walk For it to land so far?
Have you walked far enough to know who you are?
I think not since you don't understand you are both
One white wing one black is the truth on your back
Meaning your meant to do good just like the evil but your good will always be more feasible
The wings are both white at the core what you see on the outside is nothing more
The black gives more meaning to any good your seeing
beautiful souls pulls toward black holes in order to find the white hiding where there is no light
You know it's there when you feel it questioning your desire to chase the deadly fire is a doubtful deed
In the end death is what you need
So I say chase something that you would die doing with a pleasure so you will never feel dead when it's done and said