Lying awake restless and troubled
Close my eyes.
Thoughts barrel in and not out
Grab my phone
Aimlessly scrolling other people's lives.
Anxiety, my old friend
You've stolen another night.
What do I need?
Water, whiskey, ****?
What is the worst case scenario
Of any possible event
I've thought of it.

Too much woman,
Too much wild

Pulled away by the stars
Drift among the planets

Led by the wildflowers
And the waterfalls

Dancing on the treetops
Listening to the leaves

A personal awakening
Embrace the darkness
Be swept up in its majesty
Explore the depths
Never ending magnificence
In the deepest black holes
Of a galaxy
Far, far away
Or perhaps closer
Than the mind can comprehend
The network of stars
Runs deep in your blood
The dust of a celestial
Descension into your being
The moonbeams are your guiding light.

These words on the tip of my tongue
Scream and scrape to burst out.
My soul is alive, on fire
Every sense is glittering in the light
I feel the magic pulsating in every vein.
For I am the sun and the moon.
The stars, the trees, the ocean
The goddess.
That came after many before me
So I scream for all the women
Who are without their voice
The meek and frightened
Tremble before the oligarchy
Do not back down.
Scream so your sisters hear
That they are not alone.

I miss you with every moon
This is me waxing and you waning
With every phase I drift further
         Away from the past
The tides wash you ashore
     A bright full moon
Empties my memories
   The crescent reminds me
There will always be some of you
Carrying a slice of my heart