I miss my house
I miss my room
I have not left yet
But I will be soon,

I miss my parents
I miss my pets
I said my good-byes
I will not regret


The tragic thing is
It's only a week
Imagining it's more
For when I do leave.  

Things happen so fast
It's hard to believe.

Your not living in a world
full of people for you,
You don't live in this world to not
go and see what's out there..

Sometimes to move forward
you have to cut off the past,

Accept that you are
More than you know,
You can accomplish more
  Than you already have..

If you're not going to do it for you,
Do it for the millions of other people out there.. In need of somebody to be there for them..

You have gone through so much
to not keep on going now..

You survived till right now..

You are strong!!..
You are confident!!..
You will be ready in time.

You were not born to be alone..
You were born to be on earth with people.. you were born.. to live till end of your life.. and that has not come yet..!!

Follow the desires of your heart..
But only with pure intent..
Only if you know it's right.!!

Find your passions in life
and never look back!!..

You got this..
You are awesome!!

You are loved more then you know!!

Be Careful what you wish for,
Someday it might come true..
Maybe if I follow a star,
I might just shoot past you..

Be careful what you dream of,
Or you'll find out what it means..
Maybe if I dream big,
I can dream us up again..


If I wonder where you are,
I am wishing were not apart,
I just miss you
An want you back,

Your just that one want to see
My hearts request isn't extreme,

So when I wish for your happiness
All I want for you is the best.

Welcome to the New Improved America,
Land of the free, Home of the Brave,
That turned into a Racial, Discrimi -"Nation",  with an illusion of doing good,

The digital age with global elite,
(Hash tag) #Poperotzi
(Hashtag) #Illuminate

Getting rid of the Doller
Printing money away..!!


Faith with Deception,
Dementions to deception,
Time of affliction,
In a process of a system,

Praising one nation, advertising,
and selling yourself out
With no respect..


The shadowed government
Starting and causing war,
Out of the darkness,
Transitioning into a time of change,

Don't make yourself Toxic
But don't be afraid,

Here's your wake up call..
Suggesting you take it
The best way..

Freedom is the breaking of chains freed from your soul, Its not caring what anyone thinks even if their in the same room, not being Anxious or nervous or having to rush..

Freedom is not being held back, but with no where else to go, its finding out who you really are despite what's going on around you,

Freedom is having a choice in the matter of every decision you make, not having to be told what to do, but picking what you want,

Freedom comes in many forms..
In every subject.. physically, emotionally, spiritually..

But freedom but is never free,
Theirs always a hidden War!

Chained in solitude
Surrounded by fear

Locked in a prison
No one can tear


It's depths unexplored
With unbearable pressure

Deep in ones heart
It crys without tears

You got ambushed in a decoy,
besieged in a bottle,

Captured by some theifs 
Cast for century's days on end.

Maybe it's not that elegent..
Maybe not even that sophisticated,
But what I lay apon this page
Bleeds from my heart
With a passion
That desire
Holds most dear

Don't you look me in the eyes
Don't you see what's to hide
Don't you speak and then leave
All that Judgement you proceed,

To leave the wanted in the dirt
To pile it up so high, its upserd,

Run off the road
some place unknown
Left high and dry
What's left to know..

It's dark inside
As I seek the light
No body see's it,
But It's what is mine,

I hear the promises
I see some proof
I come every week
To learn what to do,

I feel the unheard
I see the unknown
I know the results
To where this must go,

Like hide and seek,
Realty,
but with mind game's
Made up as this goes..

People want common curdisy
People want love and respect,
People want your attention,
And aknolagement all the way,

People want you to listen
To know their important to you,
People want to see you value them
An see someone who cares for them,
Not just aknologes them and throws them aside.

People want trust and honesty
People want loyalty and justice
People want a pure heart
Devoted to their ever most wanted
Needs, wants and desires.


If your trying to make people stay..
Keep them in reach and not on hold..
Well take a hint.. maybe you'll see..
Life will change then.. possibly.

Ever think God is like a Sims game?..

Instead of being controlled all the time,
We control ourselfs.. the thing is we have free will.. But God can do what ever he wants..

He watches us from above..
See's us roam around and do as we please,
But if in the game.. he would only interfere  with minor things.,

In real life.. I feel if we search for him..
We will find him.. he does not control us like robots..  But loves us So that he wants us to live and make decisions on our own.  Like relationship wise as example.  

In the begining.. just like in sims..
The creator creates..

He made the world.. he made people..
Watched us live.. saw how we ran things..

But humans.. when they play..
Naturally want to control..
As a game.. But God does not play
Games..

We say our world.. our way
The earth is a stadge,
We are the preformers,

But yet the human body..
incuding your brain.. your mind..
Is in flesh,

You see the decisions you make by how things play out.. just like in sims..

But if you think about it..
How do we decide things?..

We have a body with bones and muscles
And we walk around with things called feet..

Like sometimes this may sound crazy..
But knowing what are body is made out of..
How does anything in our body work,
Like us having dreams?.. us seeing all the colors we see?..

Their is a science that us humans created,
But how did it happen in the first place?..


Like Sims, we do what we want,
We decide for our own.. But God would sit back and watch.. and only interfere with what is necessary..

Sims and God.. they have things in common.. the objective is.. who is doing the controlling?..  and why is the one controlling doing the things their doing?..

It all comes down to motive..

What is our motive.. V.S.
What is God's Motive?..

Just like that
2 boys, 1 bench,
Chips and dip,
Music playing,
Round and round,

Sit down and talk,
Relax for a minute,
Take your time
For old times.

My Heart breaks out the sorrows
And bleeds out that empathy and pain..

I saw the look in his eyes
I felt the room tense up,
I knew he ment it the way he did
I saw the love in his eyes,

I saw a man silently asking his daughter
To forgive him.. for what?..

For every time our relationship ******!!..
Because he loves me more then he's mad at me.. more then any trouble we caused each other..

An I to him am sorry as Well,
Because over all, at the end of the day..
What matters is.. we love each other..


Sometimes listening is the best thing you can do.. not only with your ears..
But being smart enough to pick up what's going on..

But sometimes you just need to hear someone to tell you.. they love you..

Because sometimes.. that's all you need.

My mind wanders as I blank
Feels like time flys as I stay,

Listening to all the little things
Only to see what comes and goes
Knowing what I know,


What's truth like plane out
Black and white?..

At constant stop I feel
When i try to take flight..

Endlessly waiting.. impatiently,



To be honest I'm just me
with so many dreams..

Waiting to take strike
First chance I get..

To be free..

Solitudes the minds sanity
That leaves you at ease

While

In public your flawed to people,
Making your heart beat increase..


Thoughts racing affecting you,
While judgmental people snicker


Why..

when you can be alone?
So those hidden tear drops
Don't have to trickle.  


Stirred up emotions
Flare up in a rage,

When assemblage is crowded
You get the notion to leave,


As they expect you to follow through,
All you can think about,

°•Is what you Ought not to do.•°

Dear,
"non untitled" people,
Who are you to stand higher?
Then those of the destitute?
Those of human needs?

Same bones, still human,
Looking for hope..!!


Break your walls down..
What if that were You?

Why are you so Judgemental?..


They sit their and think..
"Why doesn't anyone care?"
"I'm left alone.."


Like their fighting on their own?..

When it's YOU ALL!..
Being Insensitive, ignorant
Bystanders.. being selfish..

..Because your better off..


Your heartless and
your mockery is cruel!!



Who cares if you don't have enough time..
Who cares if your late or it's past your bed time..!!

These people don't get to say such things..
These people are "struggling not to be in despair."


I don't blame them for little patience for the distaste some people have for their presence..


Look how their treated..
No wonder theirs violence..


I pity those whos artificial lifes
Make them significantly more
Then people.of less..


Frankly they just need love
And most no one shows them that..

I'm outraged by uncaring people
As iv Watched them drive by,
Cussing out and throwing trash
At these pwople..

Where the respect?..
That's honestly brutal..

I'm so disappointed and devastated
To see that happen to anyone..
And worst of all..

That you make someone feel that low..


#Unnoticed #Unannounced

Feeling like a diget in a system
Just another stupid number
I don't know.. know.. know..

Everything is twisted
But got to do it, on my own


Looking at the sky
Wait for it not to be cold


They see the stars,
An you just see the sky..


Your eyes are fogged up
Here let me make it, clear for ya..



I still have allot to learn
I'll admit it..

What's the truth?
What's the truth?
Huh?..



In the outside your pretending
But the inside your hurting..
They dont know.. know.. know..


Got your finger on the trigger
And your aiming at that member

Don't you shoot..
That's not you..
Nah..



How a perfect a person am i?..
You don't see it now..
But your limits the sky..

An the most beautiful thing
Is that love you carry inside

People don't see that
Your flesh is a descize..


If I was the question?
Would you be the answer?

If i was the music?
Would you be the dancer?

If I was student?
Would you be the teacher?

If I was the sinner?
Would you be the preacher?



Would you be my?..

...

She might be pretty
But I can tell you why
the sun is shining so bright..
Why?..

When birdies fly
The fish's swim through
To reach the sky..


She might be tall
But I am small,
And I can fit right..
into your pocket

Take me anywhere,
Whisper sweet nothing in my ear..


She might be funny
But so am I..
You just can't see it
Through thoses eyes..

Your laughter rare as hayles comet,
On a summer night..


And she will never
know you Like I do..

And she'll never be able to love you,
Through in through..

..

She might have money
But Iv have time..

And I can count on two hands
All that's mine..

..

She might be perfect
But im a go getter,

Genuine, and all the better..
My laugh is real,
My smile is crisp
And my love is Strong.,



She will never know you  
Like I do..

She will never be able to love you
Through and through..

..

Ak.

She painted her nails
And cut her hair

Waited around
To see if anyone cared

Numbered the people
Who was around

Before her last breath
That was no longer their..

If I could tell myself then, what i know now

I'd say keep on going, don't give up,
You've almost got it, it's not luck,

Hard work pays off, and don't hold back,
Stand for what you believe in,
Don't bother being mad.

It's okay to have feelings,
but don't base everything off them,


You are so close,
your stronger then you know,

Please be careful and
don't forget to have fun,
It's totally worth it,

your better then you realize,
Dear past self you can do it,
I know!!

Your love reflects a golden place
That melts my heart with ease,

I cherish it at every moment
Hoping that you will be pleased,


I keep it in a secret lock box
That only the key to time will find,

Your true love will come and find it
Inside your soul I have found, loves divine.

When you cry
It's called weakness
In your Eyes,

When you feel
It's called heaviness
In your heart,

But

When you see
It's called clearing
The fog in your
Mind..


So keep your Eyes open
And guide your heart,
Every thing will be okay
When things look like
Their falling apart. ♡☆♡☆

We're all stars lost in a world we don't belong, everyone a doorway to another world of mystery.

Your memories racing out of you mind
From your subconscious to the front of your head,

Your losing control, get a grip, stay awake,
From a diffrent realm, transferred to what is real.  

What if fake is what is to be known
To stir up the truth in all that is told..

One and two forever
Will never change..

Nobody see's
Nobody knows..

We are a secret
Now we must keep it

Waiting for it to
Uncover, Expose,

A whole new world to discover..

When 1+2 = Lovers.

In all the worst moments
I get the best ideas,

Even so as I complain
I am thankful for every little thing,

It all comes back to me as I think
What would I do if i wasn't this way?..

Don't be afraid to fall in love
With everything, in all the ways..

Sometimes tragedy bring up clarity
To keep being Motivated..

An when your time comes
To make a change..

Don't back down..
Or you'll never know..

(It could bring something Great.)

Talk, in everlasting words
And dedicate them all, to "you"
And I will give you all my life
I'm here if you should call to me
You think that I don't even mean
a single word I say...

Cause this love is only getting stronger
So I don’t wanna wait any longer
I just wanna tell the world that you're mine,

Smile, an everlasting smile
A smile can bring you near to me
Don't ever let me find you gone
Cause that would bring a tear to me
This world has lost it's glory
Lets start a brand new story
Now my love,

They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s
But I bet you if they only knew (they don't know)
They would just be jealous of us,
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us,

It's only words
And words are all I have
To take your heart away,

They don’t know how special you are
They don’t know what you’ve done to my heart
They can say anything they want
'Cause they don’t know us..

They don’t know what we do best
It's between me and you, our little secret
But I wanna tell 'em
I wanna tell the world that you're mine,

One touch and I was a believer
Every kiss it gets a little sweeter
It’s getting better
Keeps getting better all the time,

So Smile, an everlasting smile
A smile can bring you near to me
Don't ever let me find you gone
Cause that would bring a tear to me..

No matter where your at
No matter where you stay,
No matter what all the people think,
I'll be who I am, anyways.

I know who i am
But I don't know you,

I see the vessel you stay..


I don't belong here
I'm just waiting for home..

The place that feels like everything's better,
Not the place you are..


I hear your voice
It's diffrent then mine..
An the way you slay
people with your eyes..


Waiting for who is true,
Not so Judgmental, with an attitude..


Life, please give me a sign..
Where can I be.. without critics
Piercing eyes..


Sincerely, A Girl with a Heart..
Please don't forget..
Write me back.

I see the youthfulness in your face
I remember back to the good old days

She said, "Be my best freind, I'll show you the way.." We danced and we sang,
We played games all day..


An now life tells our storys
From two diffrent ends of the rope,

Still attached,
our bond always stayed,

Now I look back on memories made.

I know the world dances with devils
But be strong, an you'll find a holy land

An when you reach those gates
Then you can say, a soldier went home

But look at this book an believe it's true
I know your lost, trying to find yourself

An when you stand before the throne,
You'll hope, God will be Proud

Because i never believed in Magic
But, I've always believed in You.

You grow up
You move on

You endure change
You live anyways

You find a place
You build your ways

Not expecting
Whats to come..

Off on an adventure
You wander in time.

You ignight the flames in me..
Intertwine the smoke..

You provoke the fury
As the ashes all fall down..

I miss the old you
who dident smoke dope

I miss the old you who
Once was full of hope

I miss the old you where
We talked and laughed

I miss the old you from
The good times, way back




I miss the old you
The new one *****

To be honest we grew cold
An we now never talk..




I miss the old you
We were best freinds

Now awkward silence and
Unknown trust never ends



I secretly miss you
We had so much fun

Now you could care less
And you turned into a ***.



We were close blood
Had each other's backs

Now I'm not even sure
If you hold a rose or an axe

People say we shouldn’t be together
We're too young to know about forever
But I say they don’t know what they're talk-talk-talkin’ about (talk-talk-talkin’ about)

'Cause this love is only getting stronger
So I don’t wanna wait any longer
I just wanna tell the world that you're mine,

They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s
But I bet you if they only knew (they don't know)
They would just be jealous of us,
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us

One touch and I was a believer
Every kiss it gets a little sweeter
It’s getting better
Keeps getting better all the time,

They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s
But I bet you if they only knew (they don't know)
They would just be jealous of us,
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us

They don’t know how special you are
They don’t know what you’ve done to my heart
They can say anything they want
'Cause they don’t know us

They don’t know what we do best
It's between me and you, our little secret
But I wanna tell 'em
I wanna tell the world that you're mine,

They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s (I love you)
But I bet you if they only knew (if they only knew)
They would just be jealous of us (they would just be jealous of us),
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right (feels so right)
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us

They don’t know about the things we do
They don’t know about the "I love you"’s
But I bet you if they only knew
They would just be jealous of us,
They don’t know about the up all nights
They don’t know I've waited all my life
Just to find a love that feels this right
Baby they don’t know about, they don’t know about us

They don’t know about us
They don’t know about us

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There is one thing that I know for sure, every one has family! your first one, your blood family, the ones that should back each other, love each other, even if you have no reason, I believe you should find 1 reason to respect, love, an be there for one another, but then there's your other family, the kind of family you make along the way, even if its by mistake. that's the family that you can make, that will be there all the way. they don't have to be there for you, that's why there special, they put up with you, they love you, a family you build that will Carry the weight on your shoulders if it drops on to them or even if it doesn't, but don't get me wrong, your first family, your blood family is just as important as your second, and your 2nt family as your first.   inspired by my second family :)

Eyes are the window to your soul,
Eyes tell of the person that you are,
Eyes tell every emotion, Eventually (even behind your poker face).
Eyes show the real you: The happy you, The sad you, The scared you, the strong you!!
I see eyes on every face, every human that walks by.
I'm not blind!!! I see those Eyes, the whole expression on your face.
I may not know the feeling on the inside, but your Eyes share allot of what you feel on the outside, the outside that you may try to hide on the inside.
inside the person that you are, don't forget I have eyes too,
I know the feelings that you have because I am just like you!
Eyes simply reflect what you feel on the inside, visualize the images on the outside, an give you a picture inside your mind.  
By the way, my eyes are wide, wide open for realizing what real life looks like from nature to person.

Poetry, Yes poetry! It had to be you, the thing that I found myself to like and love and want to do. Poetry, oh Poetry lets me explain, all the wonderful feelings, going threw my brain.
P-utting words
O-n paper to
E-xpress in part.
T-houghts from me
R-ight to
Y-our heart

Poetry comes from your heart, but processed from your brain,
your brain sends signals to and from your eyes to process what you see inside...inside your mind, a creative place for imagination to take place!