You lure me to bed when i have no desire
You tell me you'll end the pain for a while
As i crawl in i start to hope for something
That feels both attainable and wanted

But then you pull away and leave me frustrated
Others are travelling the land of dreams
While I am tethered here
So i get up from the bed in an undead state
I try to find a purpose while I'm stuck awake

I go outside alone and sad craving a connection
I lay gazing at the stars in silentsipent contemplation
Is there someone else gazing at them to
With whom i can connect for a moment

But the cosmos suggest a greater space
Between me and the connection i crave
So i slip on the slopes of emotion
And start to drink, smoke, and wonder why
I am surrounded by loved ones but still alone

I listen to the wind and smell the wild flowers
And get comfortable in my skin and my vices
I start to think that company doesn't need a heart
Perhaps the elements will let me feel as one

Then i feel something on my lap that'sthats warm
It is my darling cat, perhaps my oldest friend
I did not know she followed me out of the door
But she knew I needed her so she came along
I finally find my peace and we slowly drift off