we use to be two people creating memories drinking eachothes presence Making promises with each kiss and every kiss more and more intoxicating than the last knowing little about how deadly sipping love can be Turning from nectar to poison. Transforming Butterflies in your stomach into fire ants and sweating from fear as oppose to excitement.
What can I do for you not to forget me why would you betray Me? Didn't you realize what we could be? I guess the only one thinking about that was me. Now the drink is all gone and it has never felt so Painful to be sober I still Search for a fix in your eyes but the brutal reality is that there isn't anything left for me there. Yet I hang onto hope with the knowledge that your words still bring me peace. Day Dreaming that you were only mine If only you could have been Just mine. maybe life would seem a little more bearable I don't feel tolerable but I tolerate every thing you throw at me. AS Painful as it is I know losing you Would hurt worse than any amount of fire ants so I allow myself to become devoured each ant a thought shredding away. I Cant trust you but I can trust that I wont leave you. Call me sick BUT no matter how bad you hurt me I Still want us to be.