She's back.
This time,
I know I'm alone.
The electricity in her touch,
Is now the power she still wields over my heart.
It's the intensity in her glare,
And the shame and humiliation I feel.
The pain hearing the words,
It's over...
Months in bed.
My mind reaching out to touch her.
This pain swirling around me no longer in my minds eye but dominating me.
Destroying me.
It almost stopped the beating of my heart.
I wish I could have dissipated in the æther.
My senses have yet to return.
Tears still stream from my eyes.
I mist her perfume in our bed at night.
It gives grounds this ghost as I try to sleep.
I lay awake and hope I don't see dawn.


(I was once asked what the bravest thing I've ever done was.

If I had to answer now I'd say. ..
Live)

;

To thirst for the infinite
Only proves infinity.
As I try to fight this feeling
I know all things must end

I dream of the Serpent
That I've slain the Mighty Lion,
Solved the Mystery
of all mysteries
Just to set this world on fire

What occurs above
so reflects below
Knuckle under thumb
Hand across your throat

I dreamt an angel sounded his trumpet
A great star, blazing like a torch
fell from the sky to poison the water.
And its name is Wormwood.
And the waters turned to bitter,
People dying from the thirst
I sat in judgment Heart unmoving
Sipping bitters of wormwood
Wormwood ×3

Sit and watch as the world burns
Seas are boiling as they churn
Like the bile deep inside
Ashes falling before my eyes
In the streets people cry
On their knees looking to the sky
All around their churches burning
Wormwood set their world afire
 
Am I awake
or really dreaming
Am I alive
Or Am I deceased
Have I succomed
To this believing
That all beginnings
Must have  an end
Am I here now
In this void
Or home safe
Asleep in bed
This nightmare
Feels so real
Exhaustion
Fogging up my head
All this suffering
Pain and Gore
As five points
Become one
I stand now
On the shore
A sea of madness
I've come undone
I've come undone
I've come undone
I've come undone

Awaken in the dark
Struggling to breath
Heart racing
Thumping pulse
Terrible thoughts
And lack of sleep
Blinded by dark
You control your panic
As you gain your faculties
You hear your own voice whispering

You are not alone.

YOU KNOW I AM...

ALPHA AND OMEGA
BEGINNING AND END
YOU CAN'T ACCEPT
THAT YOU CAN'T SEE

PRESCRIPTED, FAKE
LOST AND DROWNING
ALLOW ME TO SHOW YOU
THAT ACCEPTANCE IS KEY

VOIDS ONCE FILLED
WITH WHITE LIGHT
IT IS THIS NIGHT
SHE SHOWS THE WAY
TO SHED THE DARK
TO BECOME LIGHT
RETURN TO FIVE
THIS IS JUDGEMENT DAY

FILLED WITH SHADOWS
NOTHING CAN HELP
BLACK AND GREY
WITH BURSTING SEAMS

THE END IS NIGH
NOW'S THE TIME
BRING YOUR FRAILTY TO LIGHT
SOON YOU WILL SEE






VOIDS ONCE FILLED
WITH WHITE LIGHT
IT IS THIS NIGHT
SHE SHOWS THE WAY
TO SHED THE DARK
TO BECOME LIGHT
RETURN TO FIVE
THIS IS JUDGEMENT DAY

THE EMPTINESS UNFILLABLE
BRING ABOUT THE END OF DAYS
 ALL ALONE IN THE DARKNESS
RETURN TO LIGHT
SHE KNOWS THE WAY

THIS IS THE END
AND A NEW BEGINNING
TIME TO REPENT
AND ACCEPT YOUR FATE

THIS IS THE END
EVERYTHING IS CHANGED
 YOU KNOW I AM
ENDER OF ALL THINGS

VOIDS ONCE FILLED
WITH WHITE LIGHT
IT IS THIS NIGHT
SHE SHOWS THE WAY
TO SHED THE DARK
TO BECOME LIGHT
RETURN TO FIVE
THIS IS JUDGEMENT DAY

YOU KNOW I AM....

FOLLOW ME INTO DARKNESS
ANCHORS HAVE LIFTED WE'RE AWAY
COME AWAY WITH ME
IT'S TIME TO FIND AN ENDING
CAST OFF AND BRAVE THE STORM
WITH RECKLESS ABANDON
REACH INTO MY DARKNESS SMOTHERING YOUR INNER LIGHT

FEEL THE MONOLITH SWAY
THIS COULD BE THE END OF ME
I SCREAM
AS I LOOK UP
INTO THE SKY.

MY COMPASS NO LONGER NORTH
EVER LOST MYSELF ON THIS JOURNEY
NOTHING LEFT ASHORE CROSSES MY MIND
NO ONE WILL FIND ME

OR THE BLOOD SICK BEAST INSIDE
RAVAGING IT'S HELPLESS PREY.
I'M OUTSIDE MYSELF
LOOKING DOWN
UPON THIS SCENE

UNABLE TO STOP WHATS COMING
THE MESSY END
SHATTERED PIECES FALLING DOWN
HEAD REELING IN A TAILSPIN

STARE INTO THE REELING FACE OF MY OWN DARKNESS
I'M TASTING BLOOD
ON THE LIPS OF DEATH.
AS MUCH AS I WANT IT
I CANNOT JOIN HER.

FEELING THE GROWING URGE INSIDE
CREEPING IN ON ME
I HEAR THEIR GNASHING JAWS AS THEY TRY TO CONSUME ME
FEEL THE OBILISK DECAY
"I CAN'T SAVE YOU NOW."
BUT YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS
TO BE TRUE

I CANNOT SAVE MY SELF

I FEEL THE SHORE PULL ME IN FROM THE TOSSING WAKE
OF ETERNITY

AS THE TIDE COMES IN
LIGHT SHOWS AGAIN
I SIT BESIDE THE MONOLITH AND I'M PONDERING...

"WHAT HAVE I BECOME?"

Come on, oh yeah It'll feel good
Just step forward And confront death
You know you should
There's an end to all this pain
There is a clear way out
An escape from this place
It will help, theres no doubt

This voice
inside my mind
It gives me no time
And it has a hunger for me
I'm
Losing my mind
I'll do it this time
You need to know
That I'm not joking

The thought
Of it makes me sick
With no will to live
You need to see
How im feeling
I've had
About enough
Of times that are tough
I'll let the darkness rule me

Anxiety
I want it out of
Every little crevice
I'll take the pain
that's in your mind
And pour it into me
Now do you see
That I can bear it
Alleviate
All your troubles
Pour it into me
I'll take it in
Like i take in breath
Pull you from the void
Out of this darkness
Back into the light

I want it out
I need it out
I cant point out
Or figure out
I want to live
Just let me in
Can't fit in. I'm
Filled with sin

X2
Re
(joshua)
Into this light
Back into this light

This voice
It can be controlled
And i will be strong
Even though it is pleading
Live
I've done nothing wrong
I've heard its sweet song
I can't give in
to this darkness

The sound
Of it makes me sick
Just push through and live
Holding it together
On high
I look to the sky
Just wondering why
It is that
There are believers

Anxiety
I want it out of
Every little crevice
I'll take the pain
that's in your mind
And pour it into me
Now do you see
That I can bear it
Alleviate
All your troubles
Pour it into me
I'll take it in
Like i take in breath
Pull you from the void
Out of this darkness
Back into the light




I want it out
I need it out
I cant point out
Or figure out
I want to live
Just let me in
I cant fit in
I'm filled with sin

(Back ups)
Into this light
Back into this light

Come on, oh yeah
Don't it feel good
Just stepped forward
To confront death
And I knew you could

I want it out
I need it out
I cant point out
Or figure out
I want to live
Just let me in
I cant fit in
I'm filled with sin

(Back ups)
Into this light
Back into this light

ALL THAT REMAINS
WASHES ASHORE
MY MASSES AT MY FEET
BEG MY PARDON
BUT THE BEAST I SEE
IT IS SO GREY AND LIFELESS

BUT THE FEAST I SEE
IT IS SO GREY AND LIFELESS
I FEED UPON THEM
BLINDED BY YOUR LIGHT
AND THE BEASTS I SEE
THEY ARE SO GREY AND MINDLESS
I FEED UPON THEM
BLINDED BY YOUR LIGHT

RETINAS BURNT OUT
BURNT OUT BY YOUR SON
I WILL NOT GAZE UPON HIM
I CANNOT GAZE UPON HIM

RETINAS BURNT OUT
BURNT OUT BY YOUR SUN
I WILL NOT GAZE UPON YOU
I CANNOT GAZE UPON YOU


THESE BROKEN MACHINES
SENT HERE TO GATHER
ALL EARTHLY
REMAINS

Solo


Little children, it is the last hour;
and as you have heard that I am coming,
even now many before me have come, by which you know that it is the last hour.”


BUT THE SOULS ARE MINE
COLLECTED TO PAY MY DUES
FOR I WILL CROSS OVER IN COMFORT

ON THE BACKS OF THE BROKEN

SEEKING THE DARK
TO SOOTH THE HURT
AFFLICTED BY THE LIGHT
WE ARE BUT CROP FOR THE HARVEST
LAID AT THE FEET
OF THE DIVINE
RICH MEN BUT A MORSEL
THE GODS GROW FAT
FEEDING OFF OUR LIVES
BUT NEVER FILLED
SEATED IN LUXURY
LOOKING DOWN UPON US

~SPOKEN~

WITH SIGHTLESS EYES
WE SIT EXPOSED
GREY AND LIFELESS
BEGGING THEIR PARDON
WE ARE THE FEAST
WASHING ASHORE

All the words are like broken glass.
They cut like razors.
As you try to reassemble something once beautiful

THEY'VE COME TO HAUNT ME AGAIN
AND IT TURNS OUT THE SAME

I DREAM OF BARREN PLACES
FULL OF LIFELESS BEINGS
AND A SCORCHED SKY
LIGHTS THE GREY STAGE
WHERE OUR STORY’S SET

BROKEN MEN POLICING
ALL OF THESE WEEPING CHILDREN
THEY ARE THE ONES WHO BURNT THE SKY

Awaken in my bed
And life feels so grey
Dreams stirring in my head
It magnifies this waste
Land streched out before me
The truth about my life
Leaves me feeling empty
Leaves me so ******* barren

AMONGST THE RUBBLE
A SONG BIRD SINGS
A SONG ABOUT ME
ABOUT MY LIFE

All the words are like broken glass.
They cut like razors.
As you try to reassemble something once beautiful

They've come to haunt me again
And it turns out the same

WHERE IS MY SKY
THE ENDLESS BLUE
I DON’T WANT TO FLY ANYMORE
HERE I WILL STAY UNTIL I WAKE
FOR I DREAM A DREAM
OF A LIFE IN SHAMBLES
AND THAT SADLY
RESEMBLES MY LIFE

All the words are like broken glass.
They cut like razors.
As you try to reassemble something once beautiful.

It leaves me feeling barren