Whenever I’m with you
I feel like I’m home
I can’t explain it
I wish I could

Whenever I talk to you
I feel like I’m safe
Even if you’re not here
I wish I could understand

I don’t know why
I don’t know what’s happening
I don’t know
What makes you different

I can’t say this about everyone
I couldn’t say this about anyone
Until now
Now it can be said

I wish I could explain
I wish I could understand
What makes you different

I’ve been asking myself
The same question
Since we met

I don’t understand
I can’t explain
How are you different

Maybe if I ask you
Maybe you could explain
Maybe you could help me understand

Bt you can’t
I know you can’t
But I wish you could

This is up to me
I need to figure it out

I don’t know when I will
Or how I will

All I know
Is that you’re my home

You will forever be my home

And I love you for that

I love you
But do you say it back
No, you don’t
You just say “love you”
Love you
Love you
Love you
It would take 3 ‘love you’
To replace the I
It would take 21 characters
To replace 1
So is saying ‘love you’ actually easier?
Or was it just another one
Of your pathetic excuses

I’m so stupid
The chicken gets cooked until golden brown
But this isn’t about chicken
I’m so stupid
Pink and green are complementary colors
But this isn’t about colors
I’m so stupid
Me and my family will fight
But this isn’t about family

How could I ever believe
These things were true
How could a I ever believe
The lies you made me believe
I know you could never fall
For someone like me
But I believed you
When you said that you did

This isn’t about
Colors
Food
Or even family
This is about me and you
I know you could never even like me
Yet somehow
I’m in love with you

I know it’s wrong
It shouldn’t be
But I can’t help but feel
A sense of joy when we speak

I feel happy
When I hear your voice
I get a sense of relief
When I hear you call my name
But then again
You could never fall for someone like me

So I ask
How could I be so stupid
How could I believe the lies
The same ones you told her
You could never love me
And now, I don’t love you

Not all sadness shows
Not all sadness is obvious

Sometimes it’s through crying
Or suddenly going silent

Sometimes it’s making others laugh
Or making others cry

Some people ignore it
And some people get consumed by it

Some people survive sadness
And others get killed by it

Sometimes it’s caused by the ones you love
Or by complete strangers through a screen

Sometimes it’s not shown
As often as one may think

Some people live
And others die

I’m starting to be quiet more
And make others laugh

It’s caused by loved ones and strangers
Or it’s caused by neither and I just feel it

I’m starting to be consumed by the sadness
It’s starting to **** me

The sadness is slowly taking over
Know that it wasn’t shown

I love you
But do you really love me?
Or
Is there no I when you say it?

Do you say, “love you”?
Or
Do you say, “I love you”?
Theres a difference

One shows you mean it
The other shows you’re only saying it
Because I said it
First

Are we together?
Or
Are we just talking?
Theres a difference

One shows you’re committed
The next shows you still talk to others
One shows the I
One shows the L

Are we in a relationship?
Or are we in a situationship?
Trust me,
Theres a difference

One shows that you want me
For who I am
The other shows that you want me
For the thought of having me

So I ask again;
Do you say, “love you”?
Or
“I love you”?

I want to be okay
I want to be normal
I want to be loved

But I’m not
I’m not okay
I’m not normal
And I’m not loved

But that’s okay
It’s normal not to be normal
It’s okay not to be okay
It’s lovely not to be loved

I think

I don’t want to cut myself
I don’t want to feel bad
I don’t want to get worse mentally

But that’s fine
Its normal to cut myself
It’s okay to feel bad
It’s lovely to worsen my mentality

Its normal
Its okay
And its lovely

I’m normal
Okay
And lovely

I’m stuck in a loop
I have no way to escape
I don’t know what to do
In order to break the loop

I’m stuck in a loop
I can’t escape
I don’t know what to do
In order to break the loop

I’m stuck in a loop
When things seem to get better
I end up making them worse
I’m stuck in a loop

I can’t get better
I wish I could get better
I don’t know how to get better
How do I tell them?

How do I tell them that I still do it?
How do I tell them that I feel the need to do it
Whenever one set begins to leave
How do I explain that to them?

They need to know
They deserve to know
But I don’t know how to tell them
That I’m stuck in a loop