Do you remember when we first met?
Our greetings, our smiles, our laughter
Hitting it right of the bat we became friends
Like it was fate that brought us together
Because I do.

Do you recall when I first asked you out?
My heart burst when you said that sweet yes
After having overcome my inner single-boy shyness
And you sheepishly smiling as I jumped around
Because I do.

How about when we had our first date?
Strolling around the mall like children as they play
Sharing stories and laughing as we enjoyed the time
The movie, the food, do you remember all that?
Because I do.

That first kiss you and I shared?
God that was a night to remember
Your sweet lips locked against mine
Under the moonlit, star-filled night sky
Because I do.

How about our first fight?
Do you remember that awful night?
I said sorry when you had gone silent and started to cry
Hugging you tight, realizing what I did was not right
Because I do.

That evening of dance and joy, do you recall?
The night of prom, where I took you as my partner
You looked beautiful that night, so much that I saw no other girl
The way you smiled as we danced, rested your head against my shoulders
Because I do.

Lastly, do you remember when we had to go our separate ways
Knowing that we can never work out with our present state
The love we had after all we’ve been through fleeted
Like the leaves in the fall, our feelings flew away.
Because I do

All these I remember, vividly and clearly
But now, you act as if the only thing that happened
Was meeting each other and becoming friends
You remember things differently from what I had said
But I didn’t.

She asked for my help
To stay by her side
I just smiled and told her
Everything will be alright

I grabbed her hand, I held it tight
She asked me to sing her a lullaby
I did,I sang her favorite song
When I finished singing, I realized she was gone

She was smiling, her eyes closed
She went off peacefully, a silent death
She didn't say nor hear the word goodbye
It was painful for me to just let her slip by

I remember the time, and the place
And even the clothes she had on that cold winter night
That was the first time I met her, in an unexpected way
Yet, it felt planned like it was no accident

I was buying gifts for my family and friends
In a local store down the street
Down the shelf of trinkets and presents
I saw a doll my niece had always wanted

It was the last one there, and seeing no one else
I reached for the doll, ready to get it with my hand
However, it looked like I was not alone
There was another woman, who wanted it as well.

Being the man that I was, I let her take it
She told me it's mine, but I insisted she take it
Not wanting to feel guilty, she asked me to dinner
To repay me for giving her the doll we both wanted

I was hesitant at first, but I gave in
She was happy with my reply, joyful even
I just smiled, I realized how beautiful she was
We found a restaurant, and hastily went in

We talked the whole night, like friends reunited
When in truth, we had just met by accident
Annie was her name, and I never forgot it
The night passed by with us talking and laughing

I felt weird, not knowing what it was
It wasn't bad, it was actually the best feeling I've ever had
We had to part, as the night grew deep
But not before I asked for another time for us to meet

Weeks passed by, she and I just fell
For each other, not noticing at first
But slowly we realized our feelings for each other
And at the same time, confessed our love for one another

I was happy that time
Happier than I have ever been in my entire life
But unfortunately, the universe had other plans for me
And also for my dear sweet Annie.

About a year after we first met
On her way to the restaurant we had set
For a date to celebrate the day we met
She met a horrible and tragic accident

She was ran over by a car that lost control
Due to the wet, slippery road
And came speeding towards her direction
Soon screams and sirens were heard

I was contacted by her mother of what had taken place
And told me Annie was in a critical state
I frantically asked where she was now
I heard hospital, there was only one in town

I rushed to her, wanting to see if she's okay
I got to her room, everything seemed alright
I saw the doctor, and asked if she's fine
He just pat my shoulder, and gave off a sigh

I went to her and slowly stroked her hair
Waiting for her to wake up, or show signs she's still there
She did, and she gave a weak smile
And shed a single tear that slid down her eye

She asked for my help
To stay by her side
I just smiled and told her
Everything will be alright
But now, I know that I had lied

I loved you.
But I stopped because.
I always thought I never had a chance,
To be with you as life passes by.
To wake up in bed with you by my side,
To go through thick and thin and see you smile,
To cherish every moment shared by you and I,
I gave all these up.
I threw away every single one of these thoughts,
The fear of you leaving me behind,
The thought of you leaving my side,
The sight of another man in your arms,
Thinking that all these may happen.
Pain flushed through my heart.
Foolish I was to believe in it.
It was all a mistake.
Leaving you without saying a word,
I thought it was the best for all.
Now from the bottom to the top, read it once more

Numb to pain
Dead to life
Blind to the light
For you I sigh
A soul in search
For meaning in life
Must stop and listen
To the sound of love
And a life without plight

Memories, I've forgotten
Both the good and the bad
Feelings, they've faded
To stop me from looking back

Words spoken
By her and I
Killed me a bit
Deep inside

Tears left unshed
Screams held back
Smiles forced out
Silence all through out

All those gone
All of them flushed out
Yet they come back
And knock on my door

The past clings on
To me like a baby does
To its mother, not letting go
Even when the mother has

Why do they come back to me
Every once in a while
I left everything of the past
Behind and I never turned back

I have started a new
But my past returns
To try and ruin what I have now
And change me to the fool I was

Now that I think of it
There's one thing that I haven't thrown away
Of the past, its embodiment
Its entirety, I haven't let go

A letter, a simple letter
A piece of paper written on
By the girl I held dear, once
It holds me back

I must get rid of it
To get far from the past
The question now is this
Should I burn or rip it apart?

As the sun begins to set
Behind the clouds, to take its rest
The moon comes out and beckons for sleep
And I answer its call with glee, and drift away
To a land of dreams, which may never come true
But here's to hoping I dream of you

I can’t sleep at night
Nor can I eat alright
In fact, anything I try to do
All end up undone

Every night I desperately try to sleep
Every time the dawn comes to shine its light on me
I feel uneasy, weak, and weary
Yet my senses are always on the ready

I am not sure of what continuously haunts
My soul as I continue to miserably live on
What cruelty have I done to deserve this fate?
And suffer in every minute of every day

This all started when I had done
That one deed that needed to be done
To save my life and continue to breath
The air of life and the lively feeling

You may ask what deed it is I speak of
Very well, I will tell you my tale
If you promise that you will never tell this to anybody
No living soul, other than you and me

Do you accept? Very well
Here is my story, I hope you’re ready

It was a cool, lovely evening
With the air refreshing as can be
The sound of merriment filled the streets
Coming from the filthy pubs and inns

My love, who’s name I cannot say
For it is too lovely for any mortal’s mouth
To say and speak in any way
Not because I forgot it the very next day

We were walking down the streets that night
Enjoying ourselves for the success of my fight
I cheated, yes, but it was a victory nonetheless
And so we were out having fun with what we had

It was late in the evening, almost midnight I recall
I got drunk from all the drinking I had done
And so my love and I started our way home
To continue our celebration under sheets and robes

On our way home, with the streets so empty
I saw men coming our way, and they looked shady
Yet with the *** I chugged, I did not realize their presence
Until it was too late and they had started their way

We were taken to a dark, stinky alley
Where they beat me up and stole all my money
My love, still beautiful even while crying
She just looked at me with her eyes sparkling

After they were done with me, they set their sights
On the woman I love, and turned to me with a smile
The shady fellows cut her clothes and gawked at the scene
My lover, undressed, with all her splendor and glory

They started their nasty ways with her temple
Defiled it with their swords and disgusting words
I stood up, having come to my senses
How you ask? They knocked me to my senses

As I watched them violate the one I held dear
I feared for my life and slowly backed off
As I watched them have their way and just looked back
I limped for my life, with my lover’s screams filling my ears

That is my tale, young lad, it is done
The rest of it is too much for you,I take it
Perhaps another day, when you grow older
Although I doubt I’d still live with my condition

Say, why do you look so furious?
Like a lion ready to maul its prey to death
And eat it up after having its ****
Only that you’d **** me with that sword of yours instead

Ah, so that’s why you looked familiar
You’re her brother, Lan, aren’t you?
Mad at me leaving your sister dead and slaughtered?
If it were you in the same place, you would’ve also been a coward

But you know what, I think you had just helped
Me to realize that sin that I have committed
To suffer this lifeless, fearful, life that torments me every day
And now I can die in peace, in your hands nonetheless

Come now, stab me through the heart and with it be done
Or would you rather slash and dismember me limb from limb?
Your vengeance sated, my actions be punished, either way
Replace my curse with the punishment of eternal hell

You have done well, Lan, I thank you
For ending my curse and starting anew
I'll be off now, but hear out my last words
I still love Janie, I'm sorry she loved me too