Lost

Wandering aimlessly in a place so alone,
Is it real? Is it fake? Will I ever know?

Riddled with anxiety from a bitter past,
trying to move forward with every pass

Looking to the future to see what she holds,
I look I stare... but nothing she's cold.

Future her eyes are a bitter black.
Filled with hatred and loathing no holding back.

I know now what I should have always known..  
I'll always be wandering aimlessly alone.

I've been on many runs with this lady,
many trips, many missions, and many reasons for this lady.

Shes taken me up the wall and she's brought  me down it,
Shes brought me to the wall and against all fears made me face it.


Lucy, she takes you to places noone else knows.
She takes you spots sometimes you don't even wanna go.

Tonight, she broke me down had me on my knees crying.
A 28 year old Army veteran, and she had me feel  like dying.

This will be my final ride with this lucy I promise that on my last dying breath,
Because if not i may end up unable to write left on the ground literally left with nothing but death.

Friends, Far and few between If you know what I mean.
You got Drugs they around you, you got money they found you. Soon as you out, dry, left with nothing but change, them same “homies” out here like what? Who are you... and what’s your name?

It's hard to tell between a friend and a foe, because most these mothers ******* are just snakes in “friends” clothes

Pain
When someone says pain, you instantly think it’s physical, but there’s many other forms of pain, it’s atypical.

The hardest one to deal with is the emotional heartache,
It breaks you down you can’t tell what’s real or fake.
It drives your crazy makes you act ******* strange, you’re like *** this has to be a ******* game.

**** breaks you down and tears you to pieces
Makes you wanna leave this ******* world peaceless

It’s hard to keep fighting a losing fight
To be honest I just wanna make **** right
I wanna do what I need to so I can ******* die tonightq

It’s got its ups, it’s downs, it’s **** ups and turn arounds.
It’s gonna ******* up, and if you don’t  watch yourself, it’s gonna eventually gonna put you in the ground.

Nah, just kidding that **** I said ain’t 100% true,
it’s that way you live life and that’s the mother ******* truth.

People will ******* over and take advantage of you and those are  facts.
You can’t trust 99% of the people you meet cuz they are dogs, *******, snakes or rats.

Life is a balance of many emotions,
The way you react can cause commotion.

Like me for example I take things bottle them up, and explode on contact .
It’s stupid just Hurting the ones I love and cherish, that’s just not the way to act.

life it's Spelled L-I-F-E, the I means I’m the only one that can take responsibility.

L for lasting as long as you can to be a better man or die doing the best you can.

F is for first which is the most important part of it all. Have love and take care of yourself before you crumble and fall.

The final letter is the Letter e. The only this that comes to mind is endless and ima add possibility. You see, there so much out there to find and discover, yet most of us out here hiding under our covers.
You see, Cover, that’s spoken metaphorically. I mean not everyone is stuck In their head like you and me.

Take life and grab it, hold on as tight as you can. Cuz<insert name here>I promise if you make it through this you will be a better man.
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