Wanna go back to the days at the pool
Just a quiet kid following the rules
I lost all my brothers after high school
I was sucha **** fool

Now I got all these problems
Thought being alone would solve em
There all piling up one by one
Starting to forget how to have fun

Tryna figure out who I wanna be
In this so called land of the free
Feel like dropping all my responsibilities
There too much of a liability

Tried to go live and be myself
But pain was all I felt
My true me kept up on a shelf
Tryna throw away the cards I was dealt

I'm physically able
Emotionally unstable
Constantly being labeled

Losing sight of the shoreline
Keep telling myself give it more time
Everything will be fine
Thats just another white lie

Lost in the ocean
Lost my devotion  
Too much emotion
Might start smoking
Need something to help me with coping

We see the world from a rectangle
Gotta get the selfie from the right angle
We're all living life virtually
Nothing's done purposefully

We see the world from a rectangle
Gotta get the selfie from the right angle
We're all living life virtually
Nothing's done purposefully

Social media's creating divides
Selling millions on ******* lies
Zuckerburg is one messed up guy

He claims we're connected
But last time I checked, I don't feel love from a Facebook message

Post post post
Gloat gloat gloat
Til **** gets real
And you remember how you feel

It's so easy to hide behind my phone
Telling myself if I get 100 likes how could I be alone?
Technology is turning me into a drone

Sleepless nights
Battling myself with all my might
Just wanna cue the lights
Without having to fight,

Don't know what I'm worried about anymore
Tend to push some people that love me straight out the door,
I gotta problem, I admit it
And that's why I'm still awake in the dead of night, isn't it?

Not taking a risk is what cowards do
And I guess I'm just one of the few,
Cuz it seems to me everybody else got their **** figured out
Hiding behind a phone in a virtual crowd
Facebook Twitter Insta ya see
I've rarely seen someone's life look better than from a screen,

In high school I swore I had my **** figured out
Til I got to college and ******* broke down
Pushed away most of my friends somehow
All because of my own ******* self-doubt

But god ****** I think I'm on the right track now
Making some good strides and I oughta be proud
Cuz a year ago, I wanted to throw it all out

I felt lost and alone
In a place I refused to call home,
Talking to my mom everyday
Didn't take the pain away,
And I felt better when I was numb
What the **** did I become

But now I'm able to see
I got no problems just being me
And I don't wanna impress anybody from their screens
No matter how hard it may be
I'm just tryna chase my dreams

Tell myself to not care
But that really ain't too fair
Cuz there's a beauty to feel
It reminds you your real

I have no clue what the future holds
But I'll try my best to be bold
Look up to the sky
Waiting for a sign from the big guy
But I get nothing, is my foundation all a lie?

Tell people to be themselves
And I keep mine on a shelf
Afraid to be fully exposed
Like Kim in that ******* pose

I've given being myself plenty of tries
But life taught me it's easier to hide
Just wanna say my side
Told myself I'd do it a million times
Afraid I might die
And keep it inside

My attraction is technically a sin
Feeling totally locked in
Just cuz my love don't align with the doctrine

I'm hardly the first and won't be the last
And I know it's difficult to grasp
But I've come so far to let this opportunity pass

I like a little bit of both
Don't view myself as more courageous than most
Just sick of living a lie
I've been in love with a girl
And I've been in love with a guy
I guess u could call me bi