And he is there.
With her.

And I am here.
Staring at the new couple.
Clenching my fists.
Concealing my anger in.
Not feeling anything, yet feeling everything.

My heart is tainted black
It is slowly decaying- and soon!
It will be nothing...

Nothing.

My anger is not jealousy.
It is frustration.

He is doing it again,
same thing he did to me, he is now doing it to...
her.
And she is falling for it.
And soon she will know, but she won't let go of him.
Why would she?
He makes her feel good,
both sexually and emotionally.
So why not overlook one mistake?
He is not going to do it again...
Or is he?
Of course he is, but she won't let go of him.
He is toxic.
He is addicting.
He is sweet.

He knows what to say.

And then he said "this is over"
    And millions of needles pierced my heart
        And I started crying immediately
            And there was no doubt anymore
                I was in love.

I am slowly disappearing.

I don't know myself anymore.

Happiness used to be a thing of mine.

Now it's all gone.

I can't trust him.

It hurts.
It hurts not to trust him,
But I desperately want to be with him.
It hurts.

He did it.
He broke me.

And I am slowly disappearing.