will e’re i see
what used to be
afore the days you left

my one beauty
was wrenched from me
i am become bereft

i wait on thee
as you do me
lone cries die in the wind

our souls in need
to be complete
desire each one again

once Death plainly
took you from me
and left but pain’s embrace

yet patiently
Death waits for me
then pain shall be erased

the love of my life
my only love
my only life
ripped away
forever
the loss of her presence resounds
a reverberation echoing
through the halls of memory
each one so bittersweet to my mind
a laugh, a sigh, a tear i cry
the most horrible pain
ever endured
wanting
wanting
an end to this pain
an end to this life
needing
needing
a kiss
a hug
a new beginning
awaiting the new future
and the reunification of the twain

when death comes knocking on my door
and angels start to sing
and i have breathed my final breath
and  bells will toll for me

then will i know i’ll be released
from life’s imprisonment
and freedom will open the door
to all that’s heaven sent

all pain from separation from
the only love i’ve known
will dissipate like morning dew
whence daybreak’s sun hath shown

so please do not grieve for my soul
rejoice for time hath come
for we are once again married
in our Lord’s pure kingdom

how can one honor all our dead
a living memory?
a solemn prayer and mourning tears?
all borne of reverie

for each there is a time to mourn
and not too long ago
we gave our heart's undying love
and opened up our souls

for once there was a time we said
so casually each day
I love you so forever dear
no fears of come what may

and then there comes the day upon
one of the two be gone
survivor's suffering the pain
are not the lucky ones

so suffer all you gentle souls
and pray for your loved ones
for there will come a day for you
when all your work is done

as i sing a song of sadness
see the notes drop down like rain
such an overwhelming melody
that haunts me now and then

and i’ll never stop the music
that is running through my brain
keeping time with every heartbeat
living off eternal  pain

when i’m crying out the lyrics
and the lyrics never change
see i’ve got it memorized because
i’m screaming out your name

when this requiem is over
emptiness is all that’s left
always knowing it will start again
until it stops with death

i sit within this darkened room
while contemplating death
examining my life ahead
each day’s become a test

i need to ascertain the core
and reason for my pain
because if i don’t find it soon
i won’t see morrow’s day

my bourbon’s neat and mind’s a mess
i’m barely holding on
it’s been some time since she left me
still mourning that she’s gone

i need to reconcile this loss
in turn becoming whole
for Jesus has prepared a room
for her eternal soul

my faith reminds that i will see
this mitigates my pain
is patience what i’m want to learn
‘fore i see her again

Lord please forgive my daily sins
these wages i have earned
i’ve gone through an internal war
i’ve lessons yet to learn