I had a child in me, I realised,
when I fought with you like one,
with my eyes shining, a wide smile,
and a laughter breaking out...

Didn't think twice before I blurted,
couldn't care less of what lay ahead,
out came the bottled up excitement,
with just your presence near me...

Felt what happiness in real is,
shared whatever was in the mind,
talked for hours straight with a smile,
what more could I ask for...

If this isn't love, tell me what is..

Oh how I long for the impossible,
to see your name on my screen,
to pick up and just hear a melody,
your voice itself a soothing one.

Oh how I beg for the unfeasible,
to somehow spot your smile,
amongst a crowd of strangers,
and feel alive again with you near.

Oh how I kneel and pray for the unknown,
for your soul to be at bliss and peace,
oblivious of the hastles and pain,
just what you wished when earthly.

A slow transition, yet so quick,
from strangers to healers, we went.
You ripped your skin, I saw through,
and it felt a reflection of mine.

Found a soul pleading to feel loved,
searching to feel safe and adored.
Scars bleeding, pain un-ceasing,
you knew to give, not to take.

Saw a heart that deserves love,
so lost and tired to search or ask.
Didn't know just being there,
felt healing and freedom for you.

Kindness is all you asked of me,
love was everything I had in me.
You healed, only to bleed more,
when you had to make a choice.

Eyes wont shut,
chaos in the mind,
curled up on the bed,
trembling hands,
and cold feet.

Thinking so deep,
but trying not to,
all the good ones,
and the bad ones,
start and end with you.

Head throbs,
sharp pain like,
a dagger piercing,
lump in the throat
and unable to breathe.

An escape,
into the darkness,
and the unknown,
to be in oblivion,
is all I desire for.

Millions of words unsaid,
and ones I whispered ever so softly,
they swirl in the air,
as my heart hope they reach you.

Laughs, pranks and fights we could have shared,
are now dreams I wish we could have spared.
Each day the thought sinks deeper in,
that my love could have stopped you from leaving.

Never ceased loving you,
wished I was allowed to pour it out.
Your smile fills my memory always,
a comfort amidst the wrenching pain.

The demise of a twinkling in the sky,
igniting something here on earth.  
I'd believe you were stardust,
I've seen your eyes and their glow.

Stars, signs, cosmic theories,
never in my mind, never near,
until I met you, and I wondered,
how we felt the way we did and why.

Maybe we were once the same light,
scattered from a fallen shine,
the reason you felt so familiar to me,
a soul I could see, feel and love,
one I knew before the stars.

Charming looks and honeyed words,
you had them easy and out always,
and to fall for that version of you,
was easy and many did come that way.

Got lost in our friendship and I too,
reached there, but so very differently;
slowly, mesmerized by your kindness,
imperfections and your childishness.

Felt a profound love, my first one, and,
you, never knew love was so deep.
For, though you had meant fooling,
our love had the power to transform us.

Easy to walk away you thought;
and you tried, but you just couldn't.
Though forever was not in the picture,
invisibly the hearts were connected .

Too late to make things right,
unwilling to leave, the heart stayed;
with no wants or needs whatsoever,
but love to give to each other.

Like a flower fading first from its core,
water never reaching, veins running dry—
slowly dying, no one seeing the collapse,
as the colors burn ever so bright.

You were the rain that drowned me,
roots drunk, petals swelled with light.
Now, rot creeps in and mold blooms slow,
still I clutch the last drops of you, too tight.

I was forbidden from talking to you,
I was hated for loving you,
I was despised for being your sunshine.
But not once did my heart stop beating for you.

Hurt so much and cried much more,
but found comfort in knowing you were not at war.
But you hid from everyone your battles,
and gave in when you couldn't take it anymore.

To the person, I once loved, but cheated.

Sorry that it had to be you,
and sorry you found it this way.
Hurt you and brought tears time to time,
and will pay the fine with this life.

Wasn't lust that caught me in her web,
a thin line of friendship and love faded,
felt seen, heard, touched and understood,
'twas something new and I craved more.

Couldn't break the news and your heart,
so, kept it hidden, loving you the same.
Thought you couldn't live without me, and,
forgetting her would be easy, both wrong.

Being asked and forced to stop loving her,
pushed me deep into the well of her love.
A side of you I'd never seen revealed,
pulling me farther away from all of you.

Said you loved, and couldn't let go,
but made the air harder to breathe for me,
realized I had no way to out of the tangle,
decided to end it with a knot on the rope.

't was fate, to be blamed,
bringing two split from a stardust.
to love at the right place,
but at the wrong time.

The rest was at our hands,
but your life's decisions,
already taken and changing that,
meant the tears of others.

Rest assured, I was, believed,
if it was meant, it would,
only to spent the rest of life,
thinking where it went wrong.