They took away my sunshine,
Far away where I couldn't reach.
Without an endless sky to fall on,
the light slowly started burning low...

The next I know,
he was wrapped in white cloth,
and lowered deep into the earth,
But this time, it was his choice...

Family and friends, they care,
showering words of comfort.
This burden, though, I cannot share,
it dwells in my heart alone.

The one I could share with,
left me, with the guilt and a void,
If only, he had realized,
the weight he would be leaving with.

Words in my mind lingered there,
like the warmth after a sunset.
Longing to depart from my lips,
but in a battle with the mind.

Buried the words in my heart,
wrapped up with the pain.
Those words would have saved you,
If only I'd known the power they held.

Shut my eyes tightly,
to return to where I was,
a secret escape to be with you,
A place no one will ever know.

Far away from reality,
wonder if it's really a dream.
Or after desperately searching,
did my soul find you.

Sleep is all I want now,
where I can meet you.
I don't want to lose you,
I try not let go of my grasp.

Waking up, my mind is already longing,
to meet you again,
to talk to you endlessly,
to hold you lovingly,
all, in my dream.

Never weaved dreams with you in it,
but the walls I built tumbled down with you.
Knew there never was a future for us,
and so pined for the clock to be still.

With you gone, darkness encompasses me,
emptiness is all I feel to my bones,
Can't find a reason to go on,
And neither can I give up on this life

Millions of words unsaid,
and ones I whispered ever so softly,
they swirl in the air,
as my heart hope they reach you.

Laughs, pranks and fights we could have shared,
are now dreams I wish we could have spared.
Each day the thought sinks deeper in,
that my love could have stopped you from leaving.

Never ceased loving you,
wished I was allowed to pour it out.
Your smile fills my memory always,
a comfort amidst the wrenching pain.

Frozen memories are all that remains,
to soothe the aching of the heart.
All the words you said remain etched in my memory,
but I long to hear your voice.

You had your own reasons to leave,
and now, I can find none to live.
You gave an end to your never ending suffering,
I doubt you knew it would be the start of mine.

The questions, confusion and guilt,
they engulf and weigh me down.
But I pass each day,
Hoping, yearning and wishing,
to join in an embrace, my love.