Night after night

Day after day

I don't know what has happened

We've suddenly nothing to say.

Well, that isn't quite true

From my side of things,

I just get caught up in the silence

That your silence brings.

We used to talk,

We used to laugh,

Our own private jokes

Left other's thinking us daft!

We used to touch,

We don't anymore

I don't know if you've noticed

Many things are not as before.

I feel more like a roommate,

An acquaintance or friend,

Not the person you vowed

To cherish until life's end.

We're in the same room

We share the same bed,

But I know longer sleep

Your chest beneath my head.

I go to bed most nights

Sad and alone,

Quietly crying tears

That to you are unknown.

While you work on some project

I'm alone in our room

Waiting for it to end.

If you don't want to be here

Then you need to go.

If you don't love me

You need to say so.

It's getting to the point

Whether you go or stay

Will not really matter,

I am alone anyway

My inner demons are dark and vast,
Some live in the present, some in the past.
You can only hide them for so long,
But they always peak their head,
From the trapped doors in my memories,
Through the closed doors in my mind,
Between the cracks in my broken heart,
Hiding in the dark alley's of my soul.
Sooner or later these demons will gain control,
Whenever, they see weakness from within your soul.
These demons will test you at every turn,
Wishing you to welcome them, Damning you to burn.
Don't say anything and just look away,
Block out their voices, only then,
Can you start to make the right choices.

She stood on the bridge
In silence and fear
For the demons of darkness
Had driven her here

They cut her heart
Right out of her chest
Making her believe
That the demons knew best

They were always there
Sometimes just out of sight
Waiting in the background
Till the time was right

These demons were destructive
Knocking down the life she knew
Hating everything about her
She hated herself too

These demons can't be seen
But they're far from fairy tales
They live inside your mind
Their evilness prevails

So on the bridge she stood
About to end the fight
Then she stopped and thought
I'll fight them one more night.

Days of endless struggle.
More hopelessness today,
Trying to appear "normal"
In some sort of way.

It seems that the struggle
Is always here with me,
And I wouldn't be here now
If guilt would leave me be.

I know there's been many
Who've had it worse than I,
But that doesn't always mean
That I wouldn't say good-bye.

People say I have a lot going for me.
I'm sorry, but I just can't see.
I can't see because my worst enemy
Is not my life but inside of me.

Always on a roller coaster,
Not much consistency.
I'm nothing if I'm not up or down.
I'm nothing if just "me."

Very little energy,
Wanting to stay far away,
Wishing to be enthusiastic
Instead of feeling like I'm made of lead.

Wanting to be excited,
Wanting to care for more,
But when nothing makes sense,
It's hard to focus on the poor.

Cluttered mind, cluttered thinking.
It's hard to keep in touch
With what is happening around me
And not to worry too much.

I feel that everybody is better than me
And that I can't do anything right.
This is how I've felt my whole dang life;
It didn't just start last night.

No confidence, no self-esteem.
Everybody else is right.
To speak my mind is to be a fool,
So I just try to "sit tight."

Any one of these problems
Would be a heavy vice,
But when you have them ALL
Living seems like a roll of the dice.

You have given me hope for a better tomorrow
like an angel guiding me out of my sorrow.

My fears I want to let go
but can my past I forgo?

I ask you this as you have my heart
will you always be there so we may never part?

I don't have much to give
but I will give you my everyday to live.

I love life and what it has to give
because through the depths of sorrow I have learned to live.

Dad,

You are the best I can ever find, I am so fortunate to have a father like you. You knew when you had to extend your support, yet you even knew also when do lean back and let me learn to hold my own fort. You are on my mind from the time I wake to when I fall asleep. You gave me your courage you gave me your strength. An were ready to go for any length. No gift can be bigger than what you have even gave in me. See my dad has the strength of a mountain. Yet has the purity of a water fountain. My dad has the wit of a clown. His jokes pulls me up whenever I'm down. His voice is sounds like the string of a guitar. My dad is celebrating his Birthday today. An I love him much more than I can ever say.

Happy birthday to my dearest dad

You give to me hope
And help me to cope
When life pulls me down
You bring me around
You teach me to care
And help me to share
You make me honest
With kindness the best
From you I learned love
With grace from above
It’s for you I live
And I want to give
You are the reason
That fills each season
When I hear love I think of you
You are my world and best friend too
I love you because you are so kind, thoughtful and caring
I love you because you are so pleasant, lovely and sharing
You made me the woman I am