Please Don’t Cry For Me
Please Don’t Cry for Me
We’ll be so happy
I promise, babe, just wait and see
Please Don’t Cry for Me
Please Don’t Cry For me
I know it hurts now, I’m sorry
But we’re better off, babe, just wait and see
Please Don’t Cry for Me
Please Don’t Cry for Me

In Memory of Stacey Ann 12-19-1987 to 02-05-2013

She ruins everything!
Mouth runs a mile a minute about topics taboo,
Words that a lady should never speak,
Oh she is so obscene!

I would hide her away,
No, no, no I would say,
Just stay,
You are much to inappropriate to come out and play!

She's like a surprise in a bottle
Her label simply reads "Add fire water"
The one that distorts my perception,
Waking her from her desolate sleep.

She smiles a devious smile,
Back from the dead if only for awhile.
Only I know what malicious plans hide underneath,
She may fool everyone else but she can't fool me.

I wish she would just stop talking,
But the more I add the drink,
The more she feels obligated to speak.
Then all control on my behalf is lost.

I feel like a fool when I wake up,
The headache she caused pounding like debt collectors at my door,
I can't take back the mess she caused the night before,
My indulgence is starting to get out of control.

Look at us,
The thirst for green is disgusting
We exploit the lands which aren't ours
We bury the children with so much potential in their eyes
So that we can make a buck or buy a cheaper HDTV
Why should a capitalist care
If a Brazilian child is dying in their mother's fragile arms,
It's one less mouth for the world to feed
And less food for them means more to feed our obese bellies
They say we have evolved so much in the past millennium
When in reality we are exactly the same but with new inventions
And more toys yet we still complain
It's always been about power
Yet the world is in a worse condition because equality is a non existent term
Just like freedom of speech
And the good guy of war
Don't you see what is going on?
Yet we prefer not to see because it is too depressing
Or doesn't affect our daily lives
Look at the inequalities of our own country
There are men women and children starving on the street
Our privileged leaders send those away who only wanted a chance
to fight for something that nobody should believe in.
Keep turning a blind eye and see where that leads you in your life
Because remember you aren't taking anything with you
Except your memories on the day in which you die

Take a Step Back

And Look at the picture you painted

You See Me Standing There

All Alone

All Alone

But I'm Still The Star Of Your Show

You Beat Me Down

To The Point of never standing back up

You took my heart

between your gentle fingers

created a monster

choked to death

its gone

and I'm never coming back

Did you get what you wanted?

Tell me is this what you wanted it all along?

Then You took my face

Touched it lightly

Told me it was now or never

The distance between the bullet and the barrel

seems inevitable and shorter than ever

As it rests between your puckered lips

You're not the victim

But you play the role so well

It feels like you have faked this all before

Behind your crying gray eyes

You're out to ****** again

You know its

Your fault its

All made up

In That Tormented head

You say you

Imagine Nothing

You See It How It Really Is

Well Darling

I might be a liar

But you're a killer

I'm shaking on the cold floor covered in sweat

Look at the blood

Dripping from my leg

One Final Slip

So remember the pills

Because I'll never forget

You took away the only part of me that was still breathing

Laying on the ***** linoleum I picked myself back up

I grabbed for that piece you so violently took away.

I may not have gotten all of it back, but most of it is with me.

You aren't a bad person you're just a fool

But then again I just might  be one too.

Dissolve into a paradox of unimaginable creations

life doesn't have to be a series of sarcastically serious games

i cant even remember the last time you made me laugh

and i have every reason to be selfish in this regard

i'm done being nice

i'm putting on my game face; i'm going to be just like you

3...2...1...

**** right I've changed

This is who I've become

I barely have a heart left

My soul couldn't take anymore pain

The two are frozen in a parallel world

You're Right

I'm ******* crazy now

I lost track so I ignored my mind

Fed up with emotional roller coaster head games grew some common sense and left its owner to rot in a self decaying cage

I'm a shell to you that's all I can be anymore

Why shouldn't I have lied?

It wasn't me at all to say the words that weren't true

But now I don't have to lie

I'm not scared of you anymore

and growing up my parents were less strict than you

Ive had enough fathers for one lifetime

I wanted a boyfriend that understood and was empathetic of what life this age is like.

Trust was never an issue because you never had any to start with

Petrified that I'd be just another slutty girl

You never hesitated to put me down for things I don't do

So how do you like me now?

You destroyed the part of me that gave a ****

I'm done playing nice

That girl is far-gone

I'm not bitter nor am I full of hate

"Treat others the way you want to be treated" Is ******* that defies human nature

I'm not the type of person that prefers to be confined to set rules and boundaries

Maybe you were right

maybe we are pushing something that isn't meant to be

You need submission

I need to be able to live my life

*** equals lust

I need love.

Neither of us will change to each others liking

Maybe we both just need to figure **** out and grow the hell up

I drive to your house only late at night,
To take off my clothes and turn off the lights.
I stare into the pillow because I hate your ******* eyes,
I don't know why I do it,
It makes me sick inside.
When its over, you touch my skin, you hold me close, you watch me as I slowly close my eyes.
I wake up to the sunlight, your dreams far from mine, your body is right next to me, unreachable, cold and empty feeling begin to hurricane in my mind.
Left neglected like a teenager's childhood doll, you leave me there to sleep, not even saying a single word, barely even a goodbye as I walk out of your front door.
Never knowing if I will see you again.
I drive home full of guilt, knowing I should have said no, what's worse is I know you have someone else, that you will spend all day playing couple with, and I'm too lonely and pathetic to let this go.

Smile,
Simplicity.
Words can be overwhelming.
Serenity,
Silence.
Words are not always necessary.

I'm out here
Where nobody can find me tonight
Swallowing stale raindrops
Looking to the clouds for some kind of sign
Is this a test?
Because I can't help but question my faith in God
I'm losing my mind
And this time it isn't fun.
I let the temptation of the cancerous demon fill my lungs
I need this addiction
To **** this clinching stomach ache
Why do I feel
When I'd rather be numb?
The ghosts of my past wont stop bothering me
When I only want to be alone in my pitiful misery.
My heart is dead but the pain still remains
Maybe I never truly wanted to be saved.