I'm a little bit damaged,
Of this I wont dare lie.
I was a broken heart held together with glue,
A soul of unquestionably biased pride.
I never pictured happiness,
Until the day I met you.
I never dreamed of stability,
It seemed far fetched,
Too good to be true.
I can be a little bit crazy,
And this,
A **** poor excuse,
But true to my word I just never knew any better.
It's the only path I ever knew.
My trust may sometimes fade,
And my words sometimes harsh and rude.
I'm by no means a perfect person,
Even if I try to be for you.
I do want you to know that I want to be what you need,
The girl that's strong,
The woman that supports you through and through.
I don't want to imagine a life,
That exists without you.
I'm sorry you've seen those pieces,
The ones that I tried to hide.
I'm sorry you saw the emotions,
The ones I forgot existed inside.
You make me smile,
You make me feel complete,
You make my heart melt,
Your kisses are pure ecstasy.
And I know sometimes it may not seem true,
But baby I really, honestly am so in love with you.

I don't want to face the truth
Waking up is hard enough when
All I do is dream of you
Where did your heart wander off to?
How can you do this to me?
Slit my throat and left me dying

Too late
Can't play
Jury's verdict is guilty as charged
Wont Wait
Your Games
Are over and nobody won

Locked and buried deep within
The cemetery of my heart
Rose from the dead to tear me apart
All the promises you lied
Did you ever mean those words
Or were you trying to rip out my insides?

Too late
Can't play
Jury's verdict is guilty as charged
Won't wait
Your Games
Are over and nobody won.

I lay
I lie
I think
I thought
I dream
I wake
I cry
I heave
I breathe
I ****
I spin
I soar

the blankets are my reality
they know my deepest feelings
they hide my greatest secrets
they share my every thought

red means passion, hate, and love
red is my best friend
red surrounds my every move
its the energy that makes me tick
red is the color of my yearning
the blood that pumps so soft
red is the color of my blanket
my demon
my existence
my oasis
the endless heartbreak in my song

I'm something sullen, sunken into the depths of a lack of reality.

we forget the pain, we hide the hurt, and we don't tell whoever is new about all the damage that has been scarred into our hearts. we only know that they will just claw it until it rips.

I'm a wanderer, I'm scared, and maybe running away from my present makes me slightly weak.

Can't you just come over, hold me tight, start everything over again? Life and time were against us darling, we both can be such horrible people and know that I'm sorry.

Where to go from here? i guess we'll never know.

My breath is cold again the pillow I lay against
I'm not strong enough to move my head
And I'm too weak to help myself to the warmth
There's a downward spiral growing in my head
And its not okay to let myself slip anymore
Alone is a place that welcomes me home
And maybe the thoughts are better to be swimming than falling with me
There's nobody in the world right now ..
Its just easier to sit here and not say word
Because I **** at explaining my feelings
I'll continue to let everyone think that everything is going alright

Smile,
Simplicity.
Words can be overwhelming.
Serenity,
Silence.
Words are not always necessary.

I Dream In Turquoise and I have yet to discover what that means. Every time I get close enough to touch you fade away from me.
I'm coming I know its six months too late.
What is six months in a lifetime?
Enough to lose the chance of being with the one you truly love.
Why was the timing off but perfect enough to get the chance?
I'm sorry I make you cry at night, I'm sorry for the lies.
A selfish creature is one I warned myself of for most of my life and I have become the monster I truly despised.
I hate the things I cannot control like distance fate and destiny.
What does it all come down to in the end?
All I see is flesh and bone the blood has already soaked into the soil. Hold me to this one last line because I promise my darling I'll prove myself this time.

I sit with my head in my palm,
Tears dripping leaving eyes feeling like sand.
I shouldn't care so much
I should be so immune
But it cuts the scar and always creates
A brand new wound within its place.

I fake a smile, and pop a pill
To take away the anxiety and fake thrill
Of being rejected again
It hurts so bad
Like I want it to happen
But I stare at you
Wondering why
I'll never be good enough in your eyes.

Then I'll fall in love
With someone new
But it wont matter
Because I'm ******* stuck with you
And I know you still resent me
And I know you look right through
The very pieces I so desperately
Want to share with you

I wish Goodbye was easy,
But it never is,
Especially when it involves
Lots of dogs and kids
How do you say goodbye
To a life so comfortable and seemingly nice
To plunge in a world unknown
Never to pretend that my heart is full of lies.

I hate the way I love you
I love the way I hate you
It's like a painful game
And the loser is the only winner
In this ****** up game.
I want to say goodbye
I want to say hello
To the person in this world
Who wants to cherish my soul.

Let me introduce myself while we're here,
Names aren't important,
I'd rather make the message clear.

I'm the one who comes out of the dark,
To make things bright.
Euphoria overcomes me,
I'm invincible, ain't that right?

Just kidding,
Let's be fair.
Real life can't exist,
When I'm feeling like this,
I'll still be there to play,
Once I get out of this place.

In my head something isn't quite right,
Everyone wants to pity me,
And I guess that's just fine.

I exist in my mind,
Sorry darling,
Can't be fixed,
I'm the broken toy nobody wants to play with.

So feel sorry for me,
While I swing around free,
Not a care in the world,
At least for the time being.
Maybe this time I'll be fine,
Or I'll simply ruin my life.

I'm not sick,
I'm not crazy,
I'm all alone,
Isn't that amazing?

Standing here in front of you,
That don't make no sense,
I don't care if my grammar is atrocious,
Judge me if you dare.

So keep on staring with tears in your eyes,
It's funny how you only care when I'm falling apart inside.
You don't get my disorder,
You can't understand how I tick,
Is it funny how I'm dying inside,
I'll laugh just because this all seems so **** insane.  

I already told you,
I can't be saved.
Haven't you heard?
I can't ******* be saved!