Days like this, i wish i had a family, not like brothers and sister but something of my own.
I miss that warm feeling
forgot what that feels like, i hate being grown.
A young boy who never got to be a kid, always been in the streets, if i ever had one of my own, god forbid he dont end up like me.
Days like this, i wish i can go back in time, feeling sad and hopeless knowing i cant rewind.
I hate that lonely feeling
Killing myself mentally, unable to show consistency, i often push people away hoping they show me love, emotionally.
Abandonment issues at its finest, if i was being honest
I wanna take my life away, put a bullet in my head, i might just be having a midlife crisis.
I miss being a kid.
Days like this, i wish a had a family, please forgive me, if i pulled this trigger that would be a tragedy.
Anxiously ready to end it all, who can i blame other than my own mentality,
but please bare with me, i want you to understand my insanity.
Mental health is vicious, please take care of yourselves as it can lead to unhappy visions and I hope you understood all my wishes.
I wish.
Wrote this no too long ago when I was feeling reallly sad