Am I really ready for death?
Nobody else can make that choice for me,
But lately I have been wanting to **** myself,
I have been feeling so lost,
Trying to find my way in the dark,
I feel like someone is controlling my body,
While I’m fighting to regain control,
Looking in the mirror and having no idea who the person is looking back at me,
I feel so alone,
Like am I such a bad person everyone avoids,
And this voice in my head is screaming at me,
“ just end it all!”
“nobody loves you”
“you don’t matter”
“if you end it everyone will be better off”
And I have been trying so hard to ignore it,
But I am at a point where I don’t know how much longer I can hold out for,
It’s the first time my heart and brain are saying the same thing,
“I need a rest”
And I fear the only way I can possibly get that rest is if I end it all,
I hope this is not my last poem,
But if it is I really tried,
I tried my hardest to fight this depression,
And I failed and if there is anyone who cares,
I’m sorry for hurting you by ending it all

You’ll never have to worry about me disappearing on you,
I’m like the moon in the night skys,
Sometimes I’ll get lost in my own world,
But being there for you,
Pulls me back,
When you’re lost,
I’ll be your moon to illuminate your path,
My promise to you is deeply rooted,
In the understanding of how you mean to me,
Whatever comes your way,
I’ll be there by your side,
I’ll be there for you in every situation,
May it be good or bad,
When you’re trapped in your thoughts,
I’ll be there to help you find calmness and security,
You can always rely on me to be consistent,
And dependable part of your life,
This promise that I have made you,
Will span all lifetimes across multiple universes,
You will always be my one true love.

You are not just some ordinary flame,
You are the furnace that keeps me warm,
I am not but a simple moth,
That is drawn so irresistibly to your light,
My wings will get scorch,
Yet what are my wings for,
If not to fly towards what makes the heart soar?
Do you have any comprehension of the magic you wield?
The sky may get couldy,
And the nights may hide the light,
But nothing can blind me from the luminous light you emit,
You are both the question and the answer,
The journey and the destination,
The peacefulness I find in you can’t be described,
It can only be felt,
My dear you are my sun,
A glowing testament to all that is pure and everlasting,
For you and not just part of mylife my dear
But you are the life itself,
Every beat of my heart it’s like a love poem to you,
My dear I will be flying to your flames until the universe itself dies.

Asking me if I miss her,
Would be like asking,
The stars if they miss the nights,
Asking the sun if it miss it’s warmth,
Or asking the ocean if it miss it tides,
I haven see the most beautiful flowers,
But they all have the same sent,
I got the see the most beautiful sights around me,
But the wind winded the same at each,
Only ever in your presence,
The wind whispered a  sweet fragrance to a flower,
A sent so beautiful it’s like God intervened,
I would recognize you in total darkness,
If you were mute and I deaf I would recognize you in a whole other lifetime,
In different bodies different times,
And I will love you in all of this,
Till the last star in the  universe dies,
They asked me “do you love her to death?”
I replied “if you speak her name over my gave watch and see it brings me back to life”

I know you will never be mine,
But still,
I close my eyes,
And dream about how beautiful it would be,
If our two souls become one,
In my dream,
The world seems to pause,
And everything feels right,
I dream about us walking hand in hand,
Sharing all our secrets under the stars,
And laughing without a care in the world,
Painting this master piece of a love so pure yet so tender,
But every dream is met with reality and I feel it tugging at my sleeve,
Reality kicks in reminding me of the boundaries that separate us,
So I try so hard to hold to these dreams,
Cherishing them as precious what ifs,
Knowing that some stories are meant to never be told,
And some loves are meant to linger,
In the silent corners of our hearts,
But how impossible it may seem,
I keep hoping that someday my dreams can come true.

You asked why do I love you?
But let me just say falling in love wasn’t part of the plan,
Until I met you, I didn’t believe in love,
And I wanted no part of it,
But then you came and changed everything,
I can sit here and tell you,
That I love your smile that outshines the moon,
That I love your stary eyes that hold more beauty than the heavens,
That I love your personality that’s so pure the gods are jealous,
And it’s all true.
But it still doesn’t even come close to how I see you and feel about you,
All I know on the day we met my soul became overflowed with joy,
There is no one reason to why I love you,
But if I must use one sentence it will be,
“I love you because the entire universe conspired to help me find you.”
You are truly the closest thing to an angel I ever met,
I will be loving you until the last star in the universe dies.

I could of never imagine myself getting addicted to you so easily,
It was like one day you were a stranger,
And the next day I couldn’t imagine day without you,
Your smile became my favourite master piece,
Your voice my favourite sound,
And the time I spent with you the highlight of my day I always look forward to,
It’s so rare to find someone who resonates with you on so many levels,
Who feels like the missing piece I have been missing,
With you darling every conversation is like an advebture,
And evry silence is comfortable,
You’ve have become a part of my routine,
I eagerly look forword to,
A habit that fills my soul with joy and warmth,
Your presence in my life is like a comforting melody that I want to listen to on repeat,
As everyday passes know that my affection for you only deepens,
You’re not just another part of my life,
You’re part of my soul,
I got addicted to you so easily,
And if I’m being honest I don’t ever want to find the cure.