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Jacob Feb 2019
You will get drummed like the drum line
100 round drum, you get gunned down
Pull up with rockets and draw down
Like a police, put your gun down
Ape it, ape it, ape it, ape it
Titanaboa, I'm a snake
Grab on the ****, baby face it
Animal planet, Ferrari
My chain, my neck is Safari
I'm a rock star like Jeff Hardy
Lil baby so nasty, so icky vicky
She **** on that **** give me licky licky
Sucky, sucky, she love dicky dicky
Three fingers 666
Jacob Dec 2014
What if the Stars had died
And the sky had changed
That life stopped giving
And I stopped breathing
Would it mean that the world
Has become a better place
A house without a home
A limb without a tree
A life without you
A death without me
I try and try
To understand what it means
When I say that I love you
And you smile
but you leave
Jacob Aug 2014
I've thought of you.
Day and night.
From the second I wake up
To the minutes I stay up thinking
How I miss seeing you.
The look in your eyes
The way you smile
That silly laugh
You've taken me over
And I've always asked
Am I the last thing on your mind
Like you even ******* cared
I still miss you
My sweet flower.
Jacob Nov 2015
Only you, only you
Only you can treat me like you do
And only she, only she
Only she chose me when I'm blue
So sorry, boo, we're through
I'm done crying over her
I'm done crying over her
My hands hurt
I think I'll go lay down
Cause I'm done crying over her
Here I am, brand new day
Now things do, let me show you, boo
And only she, only she
Only she chose me when I'm blue
So sorry, boo, we're through
Cause I'm done getting over her
I'm done crying over her
I'm done crying over her
My hands hurt
I think I'll go lay down
Lay down
Lay down
Lay down
Lay down
Lay down
Lay down
Lay down
Jacob Jul 2016
A joke
He's a ****
He's so self absorbed
You're a *******
Haven't I told you that before
No I'm not
I constantly fight
With you inside my head
Keeping me stuck
Inbetween these sheets
That cover my bed
Take this weight off of my chest
Let me go
You need some rest
Stay here now
Just one more night
Wake up to life
Or death
Just might....
Jacob Jun 2018
Every time You come
I wish You never left,
Your Fingers run around my lips.
Ink on your skin
Never seen
But constantly pet,
Our arms wrapped around
Clenched close.
A pillow of comfort
never experienced before.
As I lay my head to rest
Her cold heart
Needs to stay warm,
I’m trying my best.
Jacob Jul 2016
I made a choice
It wasn't a sin
It hurt my nose
And it broke my pen
I lost some money
And a couple of friends
But I never forgot
To hit it again
Jacob Jan 2015
id turn off my alarm, id look up at the ceiling and then look over and id see you laying right next to me and your hair would be pushed and tucked behind your ear almost as if i did that right before we fell asleep or in my sleep and id realize how great the feeling was with our legs intertwined. then you would yawn look up at me smile and kiss me on my nose. it was the most vivid dream i had ever had. and I had wished it was true for too long and I want it.
Jacob Feb 2015
I try and stare into your eyes,
Darling darling
I see you all the time
Closer closer
I'm further away
And losing my mind
Cold legs from dusk to dawn
Stay intertwined
Soft skin
I kept thinking over and over
Again
If love could be found
Between me and you
I hope so
And I hoped you did too
Jacob Feb 2014
"Now get down on your knees on the tracks where you shamed me.
But this time, the dodge ain't going to end so pretty.
Either a bullet or that train steaming just ahead is going to end your days.
You coward little kid."
You sit and you stir, while he waits for his death.
You'll never forgive him, and you never did forget.
He'll never see the sun again.
Make him pay off his debt.
Stand on those tracks, cold steel under your feet, barrel to his temple.
"Your addict mother, you will soon re-meet," you whisper in his ear,
Feel his whole body shake.
In an instant he's got your arm,
He's got your gun, you're held down by his weight.
You feel the cold steel above and below.
You feel your stomach tie in knots as the train whistle blows.
You feel the warm of the blood where the barrel digs in.
From your cheek to your mouth, you taste the sweat and the tin.

You don't cry, you don't beg.
You've been waiting for this.
For the coward, or for death, just to see your wife again.
That train is so close, so loud and so clear.
Your hands stop shaking and it's all that you hear.
Just like father.
"You took him. If this is how it's going to be then I would rather die at the hands of my own family."
Jacob Sep 2014
IF I SOUND PESSIMISTIC ******* THATS JUST HOW I FEEL
Jacob Apr 2015
I wish I could go Back
to change things for you
To give you the world
I miss our talks
And the way it used to be—
Jacob Mar 2015
Imagine the nights
That we could have had already
Spending our days
In the south so sweet
But sweaty
Cleaning our bodies
Before we lay
Let that love we share
Run through our veins
And yell I love you
Before I die in vain  
Swearing you were the one
Jacob Jun 2015
I should have chose
to knock on wood
I miss you
I miss you
I'm trying not to **** up
I slept until the sun
refused to come up
Jacob Jun 2015
Why couldn't you have left
When I had one ounce of hope
And I tried to tell you
No
Because you are really *******
Hurting me
Jacob May 2015
If I thought
that every word
I ever said
Got in your head
I'd probably get some rest tonight
Jacob Aug 2015
Im scared of what my friends would think
Because I became not much  a swimmer
But this time I threw myself in the ocean
And instantly felt like a sinner
So I hope and pray
That I'd be okay
That the blue wouldn't take me away
But the pearly eyes
The smile on your face
Was as beautiful as I could see
So I know one day
You'll be far away
so far that it'd make me sick
I'd just hope that the motion
Of this gorgeous ocean
Would find me and take me away.
Jacob Jun 2014
Laying down
As I lay down
I know that this would happen
Plenty of liquor
Now a bottle of water
I miss you more
Than I used to
I need you more
Than I should though
You're great
You're perfect
You're not
You're real
You're worth it
Jacob Aug 2015
What did you expect me to say
The delicacy of this dead flower
Brought more shock to my belief
And I can't believe that it's true
That these petals won't wither
If we make sure it never moves
when this rose is torn from its roots
The life inside
Supplied by light
Can live till we're both through
Jacob Jun 2014
I've been sleeping for days
I miss you
I've hit rock bottom
I left my heart
Somewhere hidden
Somewhere safe
It's in the keyhole
That opens the door
To your room
The room that I spent less time in
Than more
To be as close to you
I would have attempted to sleep on the floor
Poor poor me
Is all I have to say
Jacob Sep 2014
Idk what I think about love,
I've never felt it.
Not in an intimate way at least.
It's scary to know that such a common feeling/emotion
that people share for one another
that can warm a heart
on a cold winter night
And it's such a foreign feeling to me
that I can't even grasp
what love is.
Why
Jacob Jul 2013
Why
I was once so alive
and the world was so colorful
If I open my eyes will the color return?
I know this hurricane.
I’ve felt these waves.
Will You calm the storm in me?
I can’t help but think this is only routine.
I bow my head but where is my faith?

Where do my words fall?
Am I the last thing on Your mind?
Jacob Oct 2013
I don't know what the **** it's called
Or if it's a phobia or not
But I know that everyday that I lay at night
I ******* fall apart
Afraid of my thoughts
And scared of who I am
I'm afraid of being alone
I shake and I quiver again
And I ******* hate who I am
And who I've become
A left behind
Misunderstood son
I seem to not give a **** anymore
Not six feet deep
But laying on my floor
Not by choice
But gravity falls
I'll be sure to destroy mine
Before I ruin everyone else's lives
Cause what comes first
Always seems to die
I've served my life in hell
But never left my home
Sometimes I wish death upon myself
That life would end
And no one would help
They'd stop and stare
But not say a word
Lead in my throat
And blood on my curb
I just sit and wonder why
Everything that I touch dies

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