I woke up
It was four a.m.
My room was dark as could be
I felt weight on my arm.

I knew it was you
It was the smell of your hair
And the feeling of your skin

I never thought waking up
next to someone
Could be so great.

When I threw my arm over
I knew something wasn't right
You weren't there anyone
You were never actually there

I miss you.

How is it
How is it that
I remember your smell
Your looks
Your taste
The feel
It was the least bit
Unreal
I loved the way you move your body
The way you moved your lips
The way you moved your tongue
When you talked about this
About the way we'd lay
The things we'd probably say
About how I wouldn't leave
And you would always stay
Your my diamonds
Your my gold
My life
My goal
And I hadn't met you yet
I swear I make it up
The things I think is rough
But your way beyond
My expectancy

I was 14
I lost my friends
I lost my hope
I lost my dreams
I lost my GOD
I left a town
I met some kids
I thought were my friends
I swallowed life
Mixed with every toxic chemical
I saw the light
But I'm now 20 and completely miserable
But one mistake I never made
I swallowed life instead of death
On that cold cold summer day.

As l lay down
It's like the world stopped spinning
The stars stayed in place
We rolled around
We laughed
We smiled
We yelled
I got more comfortable
I miss your smell
I miss your face
I miss your touch
I held you close
So close
So close
I pricked myself
My little rose

I'm only scared because I've lost you
Not you or you
But you
You're the glisten in my eye
The air to my breath
The touch to my skin
And the smell to my taste
The thought of you is great
But from now until then I couldn't say
I miss you more than anything
And that's what's wrong with me

my life took a turn around
one for the worst
my biggest nightmare
became my reality
my dreams
were stripped away
so im grabbing a gun
just to say
that I

Isn't it the worst
When you care
More than she does
Or when things don't work out
Or when things just seem wrong
I constantly think of you
But do you do the same?
Do you ever wish what I wish
Or dream what I dream
Do you ever wake up
Run your fingers across the seams
Throwing your blanket around
Looking for me
Because I do