B - Hello Poetry

B May 30

Hear the call, ring around the corridor
I’m without one, what a bore
Gray walls thou don’t know my love
I wear blood on my hands like a glove
I know you’re soon to be here, my sweet
I’ve got a little thing for you, a treat
Remember how I love you so
I’ll tell you then to lower your bow
I did it for you, now do you understand?
This, all to us, lover, isn’t it grand?
We can be together, forever
I know I love you because I will **** for you
What ever would you do,
For the love, do you give upon to me?
If not, trust you would be free
Free from me and never again
Will you ever, ever have to bend
But know, the love is great and yours
Keep it well, let it fill you, let it pour
I’ve left you, but I’ve never gone
We can be together, to raise our fawn
That life for us, now open and allowed
Your father would never have bowed.

#love #killing #forbidden #gay #fathers #death

B May 24

The Paper In My Locket Tore

Wine glass clang
Stick in time,
Still the same.
Reverberate around the pool
White or red,
Pick your tool.
Move and quiet together
I don’t need another,
Just one more feather.
Tonight I will sleep
It's finally the weekend,
I will have her love to keep.
Knowing while getting ready
Sleeping is soon easy,
Remember to keep steady.
A snack before bed
Orange and white,
They mess with my head.
Help me sleep for evermore
Hungry for the peace,
The paper in my locket tore.
Tired is the only feeling
Soon the last one,
Feeling out the ceiling.
Lock my door tonight
No body is getting in,
Except for the blight.
Can you tell I’ll be late
Tomorrow's meeting postponed,
Reschedule my date.

#suicide #hurting #pain #death #love

B May 20

The Red Corner

Once in a while I realize
I am really addicted to the pain
This addiction gives no prize
Only giving me more to strain
The red corner
Stares at me blankly
I should be dead at the shore
I’ll just have to use this shank
CPR on wounds will never go so great
Bleeding more will my nails have done
The one I love is not my mate
He's just there to have some fun

#selfharm #cutting #pain #love #addiction #hurt #sadness

B May 17

Gaining From the Pain

Its getting worse, I know
Worse enough to never show
Hurts with only the lightest blow
The scars can only continue to grow
I’ve never been good at life
Stand back and watch my knife
The emotions I feel can only stife
When I lean back, and feel the knife
Knife and knife go together
Feeling down and dank in this weather
It's sunny out but oh so tethered
The head brings my blade out
Makes my wounds peel
And kills my spirit
The deeper I go, the better I feel
The lingering pain, will only make me gain

#selfharm #cutting #pain #emotions #hurt #sadness

B Apr 5

Becoming Bear

This ain't love but what I feel
Hatred anger and more to steal
Every glance upon your neck
Is just me making sure, to check
I need to know who you are
Before you go and step to far
Don’t you smile that at me
Soon enough, you will see
My stomach hurts and feels obtuse
I will only ever break our truce
Anger fills my eyes and breaks my nose
I’ll never be you, I suppose
No, one day I will, don’t forget it
Steal your body and take your bit
It's not an act of malice, swear
More than one of need, I’m the bear.

#love #hatred #feelings #confusion #longing #want #gender #hurting

B Mar 29

I Really Hate Summer

I will come back to you
A little taller than before
You will never know what's true
How my legs and arms tore
I really hate the summer
The breeze makes me sad
I’ll try not to be a ******
But you know I can’t make you glad
I’ve always been scared
That summer brings death
(Sticky hot and flies buzz round
Upon the roadkill on the ground)
I’ll never know if you cared
Getting close so I can feel your breath
The summer is worse than spring
In that the birds won’t sing

#summer #sadness #feeling #spring #longing #transgender

B Mar 7

Sorry, Mr. President, Not Mine.

Can’t I be free? Can’t I speak to my “president” and tell him to please, please, free me? Mr. President, what do you wish for me to do? Mr. President, what do you want to tell me? Mr. President, I never did anything to you, right? Mr. President, you are not my president. You are not my ******* president, got it? You won't be. Ever. Try as you might to take over my country, and try as you might to take over my body, you will never have power over my mind. I'm banned from sports but I'll still watch. From the sidelines I'll be watching yearning to play. Hope you know I wish for your demise every night. I wish for everything you stand for to crumble. So you’ll be right on my level, and I can say to you, “You are not my president, Mr. President, sir.” Even though I still can’t vote, I know whose side I’m on. So sign that order, Mr. President, ‘cause soon I’ll be there to spit on it. What have you got other than a pen? Money can burn.

#america #president #hatred #anger #dictator #transgender