You must know that I am living a double life
You see as I continue to grow, conquer, and love many moments
Others are spent in desparity and pitiful reflection
If only our two worlds would merge once more
Perhaps I could fulfill a single persona yet again

My heart has made it ever so clear that this, you, are it’s purest desire
However you live in a state of confusion
For wonderance and doubt is not certainty
Lack of faith and fidelity is not certainty
And a void of emotions will surely ensue
I long for your clarity perhaps more for you than the benefits I could ever reap
This is what true, devout care is surely made of

I long to be fiercely aware of my truest self
It is with unrest that I search through the crevices of my mind body and soul to recognize what it is that sets fire to my life

Perhaps the search never ends
Yet the beauty behind it all is that we are ever evolving and wildly changing creatures

With this knowledge I will set forth into this world aknowledging that my purpose is to seek purpose among the instability

Devine Bliss
That’s what they should call it
Life’s purest contentment comes from knowing
While also truly believing
That your destiny will align

For thoughts become reality
And prayers will no longer be requests
As all of your dreams stand before you

You, my friend, are Devine
And shall indeed bring me an endless bliss

The sky is the limit they’d say
Up I would look
A blue abyss of clouds and clarity
Or a dark nights sky, spattered with stars
I would love nothing more than to be one with those stars
They’re much deeper
Omniscient if you will
Than the translucent clouds admired at daybreak
Countless songs, poems, and metaphors have been crafted regarding their beautiful complexity
Yet here I remain
Wishing,once more, upon a fateful star

It came as a shock... all of it. The long conversation, the passionate kiss, the weeks succeeding. A whirlwind romance ridden with secrecy and shame. I found comfort in your words and feared the prospective ones of others. Our last moments, perhaps the sweetest of them all were conversational, flirtatious, endearing, and romantic. Our last kiss a perfect harmony of strong passion, and slow bliss. Perhaps if I had known what the next hours woul bring I would have pulled my head back down to your chest. I would’ve let your lips linger a moment longer on my own. It is in hindsight that I find the most sadness, but also the most joy.

I love you because your thoughts help me complete my own

I love you because your touch fills me with a warmth that is inexplicably new and comfortingly familiar all at once

I love you because your faith has given you the clarity to trust that I am what you desire

I love you because you are remarkably strong

I love you because your mind is vast and its depths are forever enlightening

I love you because you are whole and I am whole and together we are complements

I love you because I know that I never want to lose this feeling
And that, my dear, has got to be worth something

Countless moments with countless souls
She has looked into widened eyes after being asked one of the most pressing questions of them all
“Have you ever been in love?” They’d inquire
Each with the same longing gaze upon their face
“No”
She’d mutter, shameful of this response

Now however, after all this time
When queried once more upon these same 6 words
Her response has changed
“Yes” she proclaims
For she has grown to be in love with herself
And this. This is the greatest love of them all

I don’t regret “lusting” you
For now when true love meets me
I will know how to approach it

Each new act only amplified the Mutually assured destruction.
Now I’m left alone to pick up the pieces.
Some may call it “getting over it”
Yet we both know it’s simply damage control

Uncertainty
Life is filled with uncertainty
Our days on this earth are numbered
Yet we have zeroed in on an eternal future
A future that we all forget has not been guaranteed

Live these days. These moments. This lifetime as if it is your first and last.

Each of us have been granted with unequivocal inner beauty
Steady and true till days end, are the magnificent qualities of thy soul
It is with the only known magic this world possesses that we are able to discover our true selves
Never stop searching
For when this occurs you have truly stopped living

Hit like a ton of bricks
The weight of this world is often too much
I can understand trial
I can understand tribulation
I can understand pain
Yet I will never comprehend the inner demons you possess
When it all seems a little too hard
And the day has become much too long
Remember those whose love will outlast the ache
Who will carry you through till tomorrow
It is in your darkest moments that we will shed everlasting light

I have written it on my heart that everyday, be it good or bad, is a chance to grow and evolve.
To much time I have wasted believing that the person I was portraying was truly myself. Blinded by society I survived in a body that was my own and a persona of another I had never met.
That girl found sadness in such trivial things.
She had no sense of self, no heart, no passion, and no ache for what truly mattered.
She is gone now, and the story of her soul is forever altered.
She has finally broken free amongst the shadows and seen the light of day.

I haved entered a euphoric state of suspension
It’s almost as if waiting for this perfect life has in its self morphed into utter perfection