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Apr 2017 · 1.7k
She's like the wind...
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
She is like the wind,
meant to be free
She is a wild animal,
not meant to be tamed.
She is a diamond, hidden in coal;
unique in her own equality.
She though so wise,
is a playful little girl,
caged in the body of a woman.
She is not an object;
objects come with instructions,
she is not easily understood.
Mystery is her favorite game.
She lives to laugh and laughs to live;
but a mask she wears to hide her past.
Mysterious beauty open your eyes,
wake from your slumber and you will see,
you and me darling,
we're meant to be.
Apr 2017 · 169
And when...
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
When the sun rises from the west,
I will forget you.
When rivers run upstream,
I will let you go.
When spring comes in November,
and autumn falls in june.
When God himself tells me to stop loving you,
only then, and then will I go on.
Apr 2017 · 205
Passionately
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
I love,
But not like others love;
I don't speak the words for the sound.
I love,
But not for a kiss.
I love
strongly and fall even harder.
I love,
But not simply.
I love,
passionately.
Apr 2017 · 156
Her...
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
Her eyes,
Like warm caramel made in a Swiss candy store.
Her lips,
Like a puffy cloud on a sunny day.
Her smile,
A better masterpiece than the Mona Lisa.
Her face,
Sculpted by God's finest craftsmen.
Her voice,
A harmony of a thousand angels.
Her,
The forbidden fruit I can never touch.
Apr 2017 · 153
If I could...
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
If I could hold that second for a millenia,
and hold your warmth around my own.
If I could make those lyrics and that song last an eternity,
Trust me honey that I would.

If I could freeze that dance floor and make us the only dancers,
If I could only tell you the thousands words I should've said,
recite the poem I had practiced instead of dumbly staring at your hazel eyes.
If I could've kissed your lips at least once more,
Honey trust me that I would.
Apr 2017 · 142
Utter arrogance
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
Caught in the spark of a frozen glass,
in between the distance were two eyes meet.
Indifferent to the senseless talking of the mass,
an elfen smile so exciting yet so discreet.

Ignorant to the paradox that is gravity and time;
the dark curls bounced ever so slightly against the wind,
and as a castaway I fell for what I knew had to be mine;
as a mirage by the bleeding moon overpowering my mind.

Carried by the echoes of the chilling air against my ears,
roses and tulips couldn't compare to that fragrance.
Yet the missing puzzle was found and it was in my tears,
and it was all lost because of my utter arrogance.

The days turned to months and the months turned to years;
The goods turned to byes and the love turned to hate.
We achieved nothing but what we claimed was our worst fear,
yet here I stand wondering whether it'll be too late.

But I won't say sorry and neither will you,
so all there's to do is live on those memories;
never admitting who was wrong and who was true,
slowly letting the years we had turn to centuries.

And as the roses you adored so much,
you and I will fall into decadence,
putrefying our souls holding on to a grudge,
united only by our utter arrogance.
Apr 2017 · 192
If
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
If
If only I had all the money in the world.
If only I was the best pianist,
or maybe the best composer.
If only my poems got me famous.
if only my words got trough you,
if only,
if only I had you.
Apr 2017 · 188
Bone smile
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
My grand uncle was a painter, he was a pretty famous artist in his town, he could draw anything from fruits, to flowers, even people, and he was very skilled at it, there was nothing he couldn’t paint, still he often called his skill a talent and a curse.
But my grand uncle was a very antisocial man, he never spoke to the family, never married after his wife left him, he lived alone with his paintings, so when his funeral came, no one from the family wanted to attend, but I couldn’t do that, he was simply an introvert, just like me, so I alone went to his burial.
It was a very small gathering, mostly people interested in buying his work, which obviously, me being the only attending relative, had the “honor” of deciding what would be done of the drawings, truly I didn’t care, but the way the funeral attorney handed them to me, it seemed though they were a lot more valuable than I knew, plus maybe with some research they could be sold at a much higher price than I was being offered.
Once home after a six hour drive, I decided to take a look at his painting, all wrapped in old fancy yellow covers, each with an odd yet fascinating title, metal horse, cold fire, color less hearts, and so on and so on, one by one I critiqued them with great detail, I could surely make at least $10,000 of them, I thought while gathering the wrappings, I picked up the package they came in and another canvas hiding at the bottom made its way out, falling on the carpet face down, and “Do not open” written all over it in red tint.
Intriguing I thought, this must be my uncle’s most precious painting, and probably the one I’ll get more money for, dropping everything to the side, I quickly picked up the canvas ready to view this man’s greatest work of art, when  a deafening knock on the door chilled me to the bones, who could be knocking this late at night? I asked myself, placing the painting next to the others.
I opened the door to find nothing, nobody, no sign of life, strange I thought, maybe it was just the wind or the sound of the television in the background, I walked back inside intrigued and anxious to view the painting, but it was gone, I had just placed it above the table, where could it have gone? I search frantically all around the living room, only to find it hiding under the couch, and the words facing up as if repeatedly warning me.
It’s very late at night and my mind surely was playing tricks on me, all I needed was a good night’s rest and I’d feel better in the morning, or so I thought. I took the picture with me back upstairs to my bed room, placing it under a watch in the night stand, assuring myself it was just an accident, it was just the funeral still in my mind, I closed my eyes and finally fell sleep.
It was three in the morning when I awoke again by the sound of someone knocking at my door, drowsy I made my way downstairs turning on every light as I go, I opened the door with my right hand clinching my phone on the left, again, nothing, I felt a cold breeze blowing through my robes, almost as if pushing me back inside, quickly I made my way back upstairs and instantly fall asleep.
       In my dreams, or better, nightmares, I saw my grandfather drawing another painting on the corner next to the window where he always placed his canvas, yet I couldn’t see which painting it was, all I could see was the window quickly changing from day to night, day after day, night after night, but he wouldn’t move, it was as if the painting controlled him, I could hear the phone ringing in the background, then sent to voicemail, the voices of family members worried for him, the same family members who refused to attend his funeral, but he was so concentrated on his work he wouldn’t even break concentration, not even when I screamed at him to wake up.
         But it was I who woke up, I could swear I heard a voice screaming at me, just as I screamed at my grandfather to wake up, I reached for the flashlight inside the nightstand but it wouldn’t turn on, I tried inspecting my room with only the light from the moon, but it was still too dark, I blindly reached for the painting, and instead found my watch with nothing under it, fear finally shocked me when I began hearing a scream in my great uncle’s voice, Don’t open it! Don’t open it! Return it to me! It’s the only way! My body began to shake and shiver, sweat dropped from my head, I fell back to my bed stunned with fright, not being able to move until my body fell asleep on its own.
I woke up in my living room couch, the wall clock marking 11:30, the paintings still on the table, I picked up the package and a picture fell, it read “Do not open”, I thought to myself maybe it was all just a horrible dream, when suddenly a loud knock brought me back to reality, who could be knocking this late at night?...
I have the painting that inspired this but can't seem to add the picture of it...
Apr 2017 · 154
Elizabeth.
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
For when the time comes,
that your soul no longer mourns;
your spirit has no aches,
and your heart has healed all breaks.

When the culprit of such pain,
has left with nothing gained,
and walks away in vain,
Will you be happy or insane?

Tell me dear of those dreams,
of your moaning and your screams.
How only the moon gleams,
in that land of evergreen.
Is your mind still in its place?
Or have you fallen from your grace.
Wipe the tears off from your face.
Hide your shame and your disgrace.
The sun went down with him along,
leaving you sad and alone,
are you falling off your throne?
In your life that’s just a thorn.
Apr 2017 · 154
A Girl...
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
Putting make up on my face,
So of my sorrow there’s no trace,
So that no one sees my pain,
While standing in the rain.

Hoping my makeup will not taint,
And reveal what I really ain’t.
"Oh boy can’t you see I’m not a saint",
if you saw behind my mask you’d probably faint.

But believe me when I tell you that I love you,
But we’re both so different and that I’ve told you.
Maybe it’s just simply destiny,
That forbidden lovers we’re meant to be.
Apr 2017 · 154
Crying man
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
The bed that cradles the crying man.
The pillow that holds his endless tears.
His window sees him and cries with him.
Quiet thunder lights up his darkness;
but only for a moment,
enough time for the crying man to open his red stuffy eyes,
and realize his bedside is still empty;
as empty as the hole left in his heart.
And he continues weeping from night till dawn,
for his darling dear will never come back.
Apr 2017 · 126
simply J, always J
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
I hung your picture on the wall,
placed your memories somewhere tall,
I drove my car out of town,
and buried our love letters on the ground.
Still my mind cannot destroy,
how to you I became a toy.

You were once my queen and now you’re gone;
I’m just a king with an empty throne.
Your vase of roses is always full,
unlike my life that now is dull.
Yet the reality that I must face,
is that your heart always held his place.

But I’ll continue loving you;
In lonely nights dream I’m holding you.
And when people ask me in the town,
Why my smile is always down;
The only thing that I will say,
Is her name started with a J.
Apr 2017 · 434
Kill me
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
**** me, but don’t end my existence.
****** me, but let me still breathe.
Shoot me, but not with a gun.
You can end me, yet not take my life.

How? By torturing me eternally,
By making my life a living hell,
By turning my pain into misery,
By destroying what’s left of my spirit.

Your words burn through me more than bullets,
Your cruel stare creeps into my skin worse than being pierced,
Your cold hands burn out the fire left in my heart.
Your once so warm voice is now just a demon’s whisper.

The pain in my mind is poisoning what’s left of my sanity,
The ghosts in every corner judge me senselessly,
The shadows are catching up to me no matter how fast I run.
The devil himself has bargained my soul.

You who I loved the most is who hurts me the worst;
I who gave you everything gained nothing at all.
You who swore the heavens and the constellations on our love;
I who like a child believed your deceptions and fell for your trap.

There’s no need for a lethal shot or weapon to destroy me:
Simply the fact that my putrefying heart still beats for you,
That my decaying mind still thinks of you and will till I finally rest,
Is punishment enough for the grotesque crime I committed,
Loving you.
Apr 2017 · 142
Memorial nostalgia
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
Laugh all you want at my pain,
pretend you have no memory of my name;
but for all the times that you saw me in tears,
oh darling, you better cover your ears.

You can evade me in the city,
and tell all your friends you simply had pity.
Assure them you moved on and I hold a grudge,
it’s alright honey, I will not budge.

But even if your mind wrote our story in a different way,
your eyes will never let you hide away,
your lips will always yearn the touch of mine;
but by the time you realize you loved me back,
I will have healed with time.
Apr 2017 · 136
Living Room Lights
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
I've had it! I told myself, "It's been five days and his lights still keep me awake!" My neighbor John, -whom I by the way have had a few issues with in the past-, would not turn off the lights in his living room, which I would not have a problem with, if it weren't for his living room window being directly across my room.
Every night he stands by his window facing my room, he moves from time to time, but it seems though he prefers to stand there and watch. I wake up, and he still stands there, I would reply or scream at him, but I'm not sure he could hear me, plus I'm not sure he can see me, since the curtains in my house are always closed, still, the light from his house reflects onto my bedroom.
I go to work, and he's standing there, at night when I get ready for bed, he stares, and I know because I can see his shadow simply creeping, yet I can't help but feel pity; you see, John's girlfriend left him two months ago and John became heart broken, refusing to come out of his house. I would usually see him watering his peach tree, or working on his jeep, but for the past five days John hasn't stepped outside, nor has he moved from his **** window while I'm there.
It's been enough days and I've had it, I walked to John's house and slammed on his door, but no reply. I knew he was in there, I'd just seen him through my living room window. "You better open this door John!", I said banging against the front door; still there was no sound. "I will break this door open if you don't answer!", I turned the doorknob; but it wasn't locked. I simply stepped in ready to give John a piece of my mind; but I was five days too late. John was gone, except for his body still hanging from the ceiling...
Apr 2017 · 157
Will you?
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
Will you remember my name?
When the voice on the intercom says it along with an obituary.
When the sound of my name during class gets called but the entire classroom sits in silence.
Will you remember my face?
When I held the door for you but never received recognition;
when I saw you on the hallway and waved hello but you simply stared and passed me by.
Will you remember my voice?
When I got scolded for talking trying to get your attention.
When I got sent to the hall for being childish trying to make you laugh.
Will you remember my eyes?
The eyes you always seemed to catch glaring at you;
the same eyes that shed a tear when you screamed to leave you alone.
Will you remember me?
Will you remember laughing and telling your friends of the weird kid who thought he had a chance.
Will you remember the weird kid that was there when you stumbled crossing the street?
Will you remember being pushed and the abrupt break of four wheels:
Will you remember the crimson on your clothes when you turned around,
and also...
Did you remember to pick up my letter from the ground?
Apr 2017 · 231
Ode to Lacrimosa
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
Lacrimosa have mercy on me,
a kiss on my cheek is my only desire,
oh conspirator cease torturing me.
inside my heart you're stirring a fire.

Lacrimosa bring with you winter rains.
I surrender my silvery heart to your claim,
will you heed my whispers, oh merciless dame?
and with forceful hand erase her name.

Lacrimosa you've made me weak yet strong,
I am but salt in your ocean of fear.
I beg you to mercy this servant for his wrong,
and from my eyes you'll drop a single tear.
Apr 2017 · 165
To my caramel eyes...
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
How can you love me when you don't know me?
I stopped.
How can I love you if I don't know you?
But I do, I know all I should know about you.
I know you have the most gorgeous hazel eyes I've ever seen.
I know your brown hair shines brighter against the sun.
I know you stop and gaze at the distance when you can't stop thinking about your future.
I know your favorite color by the shade of blue your shirts always have.
I also know you don't love me back.
I know you hate when my dirt colored eyes stare at you like an idiot.
I know you hate the way the curls in my hair cover my forehead.
I know you hate that I think you are my future.
and I know you couldn't care less that my favorite color has changed to blue.
But I never asked you to love me back;
I never asked for a reply,
I said I love you without proof.
But why should I need any?
Just like a blind man crosses the street, hoping nothing will turn him from his path.
I opened my heart to the gun you held in your hand;
hoping you wouldn't pull the trigger,
I don't care where you came from,
I couldn't care what others think.
I want you for who you are,
not for your body but for your heart.
Let me love you, how can that hurt you,
Let you be the air my lungs want to breathe;
be the inspiration for the beauty of what's life.
I'm not asking you to love me,
so why are you trying to reject me?
I don't ask you to be mine,
you already are in my dreams either way.
All I ask is when I'm quiet, don't think I'm lonely or I'm crying,
I'm simply dreaming I'm holding your hand.
Apr 2017 · 182
In the Closet...
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
I awoke, but not as usual, I opened my eyes, but I wasn't facing my bedroom wall, I wasn't under the comfort of my blankets, I was not on my bed. I was laying on my bedroom floor; I was restless. I must've slept all night long, but my body didn't feel like it had any fresh energy, I could feel an intense pain in my stomach, as if someone had poured acid down my throat. I sat up, I was wearing only my underwear, like usual; but I had blood all over my chest. I looked to my left, and on the floor sat the bottle of pills I hid behind my computer, completely empty.
I heard knocks on the door, it was my mom's voice telling me it was past 12, when was I going to get up. She'd walk in and see me covered like this, she'd think something's wrong with me, she would finally want to take me to a psychologist. But I couldn't let her see me like this, I forced my body up against my aching stomach, "I'm awake", I yelled, but she kept on knocking, I could hear her getting the spare key from under the rug, she began unlocking the door. I had to do something before she saw me, I reached for the dead bolt knowing she didn't have a key for that one, but it was too late, she walked in.
"I can explain" I said, I began talking but her eyes never stopped to meet mine, she stared directly at the empty bottle of pills on the floor; the floor, was covered in blood. She screamed when she realized my bed was empty, music played from my phone, -I hadn't heard it until this moment-, almost as a perfect background. I kept talking to her but she wouldn't hear me, "Mom I'm sorry, please stop ignoring me", but she wouldn't even look at me, she opened my closet door, and stared at something I couldn't see, she fell to her knees and began wailing. I walked towards my closet and found, myself.
"But how?" I yelled, I'm right here, I could see my body, covered in blood, I laid there with a tie around my neck, my mouth covered in saliva; "Momma I'm right here momma!!!".
But she never turned around, I tried hugging her, but my arms just ran through her. I couldn't even remember what made me do it, I was sad, but I didn't know why. I had tried it before, but I would always end up chickening out, what must've been hurtful enough to make me do it; why would I do it! She began calling 911... she just sat there, -it felt as if time stopped for me-. The ambulance arrived, I tried telling the paramedics I was right here: Maybe they could hear me, maybe someone would tell me this was just a prank, maybe I'd wake up staring at my bedroom wall; but no matter how many times I closed and open my eyes, it was still the same sad scene.
They picked the body up and put it on a stretcher, the medic checked for vitals, but he just stared at my mother's eyes, "I'm sorry", he said. They walked out of my room, and my mom followed them holding... holding MY hand, I couldn't deny it any longer, the person going into that ambulance was me. I screamed and I hollered, but they never returned, "I did it", I thought. I stood there all alone, crying. Suddenly a dark figure stood on the doorway, she raised her long thin fingers, extending her bony palm towards me; I held it,
I was no longer.
Apr 2017 · 159
The Best Boyfriend...
- JP DeVille Apr 2017
I kept the candy wrapper,
the one you said to throw away.
I kept the notes you taped in them,
because between me and you...
I still love you.

I held the notes,
as you once held my hands.
I kept the why’s, you took the reasons;
because I promised to never leave you,
Even when you said I wasn’t.

I ate the candy, I hope you know.
You said you knew they were my favorite,
and from then on, they were.
I’m allergic to peanut butter,
so I can never eat any again,
maybe I should put some on your lips…

— The End —