She deserves the world,
And I can't even give her honesty.

Why do I love you tell me why?
My heart beats to the rhythm of your steps
As they walk away from me each day
Why must you share a bed with my regrets

Why do I love you tell me why?
Why do I buy you flowers you throw away
Why am I so self destructive so you say
Why must I always beg for you to stay

Why do I love you tell me why?
Why does the sun rise over the bay
I don't want to breathe without you babe
My life has no meaning when you go astray

Why do I love you tell me why?
Why do we do the things we do?
I have nothing to give but my love
If I tell you I love you, will you?

I know the secrets of the universe
But no one would believe me anyway
So I keep them all locked up
And I bury them on the seashores
Of my brain

I have seen the Alpha and the Omega
And I was blinded but not by sight
My name is Elisha and my name is Enoch
I'm nothing more than a spectator
On the sidelines on the bleachers
Of my life

My grandfather passed away two winters ago
But maybe he's not gone at least in mind
His body six feet under next to the secrets
The universe has placed within the chambers
Of my heart

I'm dying, dying to find out what comes next
I'm scared, scared to be forgotten by this land
I'm breathing, each breath draws me closer
I'm running, late to live the best years
Of my life

Sentenced to live,
Sentenced to die.
Life and death,
Day and night.
Winter and spring.

10 years.
10 years, spoken so cavalier
By the man in the white lab coat
And the heart degree.

I've lived my life a castaway
Too scared to leave the shore.
I've tried many times to sail,
But I've never reached the door.

Life is a bowling ball
That hangs on a thread of yarn.
I'm too old to die young,
And too young to die now.

The heart is a ticking bomb
And by God time is ticking.
I stopped hearing the wall clock
Its batteries ran out.

Shadows are falling,
I'm running out of breath,
The hyacinths are now high on my shoulder,
And my lips covered with the dew of your thighs.

God is the dealer
And I called his bluff
But my clover has dried
I went all in and lost it all.

The show must go on
The world will keep spinning
I can see the promised land
But the bridge is on fire.

Hineni my lord.

I never bothered anyone
I never searched for trouble
But it always seemed to find me
Was it something I said?

I woke up this morning
And I fell out of bed

Their faces
They stare at me
And grin
Like they know something I don't

People scare me
People are not good
People have worlds inside their brain
People are just not good

Everyone walks around so entitled
Protagonists of their own story
And to them maybe
I'm the villain

Man versus society
Man versus nature
Man versus man
Me versus the mirror

I want to live
In splendid isolation
Alone in the desert
Away from it all

It is them!
It is them!
It is them!
Not me!
Not me!
Not. Me.