**** it, not again
She’s bleeding
She’s screaming
I can’t stop
 
It feels too good
Her insides are warm,
Wet from the
Blood
 
She screams again
Her horror sounds beautiful
Making it harder
To stop
 
Her fingernails dig
Into the flesh
On my
Back
 
Scratching
Scraping
Begging
Crying
 
I moved my hands
Around her neck
Squeezing
Suffocating
 
Her eyes becomes
Bloodshot
Her face becomes
Blue

I smile as the
Beautiful Horror
Mask the innocence
Of her face

I watched
Death
Over take her
Being

Death ripped through
The Silence
As I laughed looking down
On her

I've killed the one
I once loved
And I didn't even
Know her name

Beautiful Horror
Uplifted my veins
On to the next
Once again

You left me and you didn't even look back
I begged
I cried
I screamed
For you
Only for you
I guess it wasn't good enough
I guess I wasn't good enough
You brought everything back
The shame
The sorrow
The pain
Now I'm here
Alone and Free
Free from the past
Free from from you
Free at last
Thank you
For leaving me and never looking back

My love is too beautiful
My love is too worthy
My love is too peaceful
My love is too free
My love is too gentle
My love is too tender
My love is too sweet
My love is too natural
My love is too poetic
My love is too honest
My love is too musical
My love is too magical
My love is too pure
To be thrown back in my face

The light of my life isn't a light
Not the sun
Not a lamp
The light of my life is different
Just different
My lights silhouette can not be distinguished
The mystery of it's feature lies in the hands of God
The feeling of it's hand is unknown to my skin
The flavor of it's lips unknown to my tongue
The insense of it's being is unknown to my senses
The rythem of it's heart is unknown to my audition
My light is not a light
A man
Who bestows the light in my life
Who destroys the darkness with his laughter
Who detaches the sadness with his words
Who strips the melancholy with his smile
My light does not glow
He shines
More than the sun
More than a lamp
He shines brighter than anything on earth
He Is The Beautiful Light Of My Life

It's amazing how much I really love you
Every sound you make is majestic
Every breath you  breathe brings chills of delight
Every word you speak brings me to life
You move my spirit
I am emotionally attached to your being
You gave me back my soul
And carefully established it into gold
You gave me back my individuality
You brought me the one gift I thought had departed from my heart
Joy
You made me see who I really am
Yours
You made me realize what true happiness is
Love
You gave me that
You

I ******* hate myself
I hate knowing that I will never be loved
Touched
Kissed
No man would ever look at me like a rare object
That when you touch it breaks
I'm never going to the bride
Or the wife
Or the mother
I'm a home wrecker
Heart breaker
Spirit taker
I am nothing

On this night I think
Think about you, me, the world around us
Think about life without you
How lost I feel when I am not with you
Your voice smooth as velvet
My name sounds majestic when,
It slides off your tongue
My love for you is bigger than me
Bigger than us
Bigger than life
I ask the Lord,  why him?
I hate you, then I love you
I cry, then I laugh
I moan, then I whisper
I want you
I want your love
I want your heart
To have and to hold,
To cherish
You are a gift not a charity
You are loved not abandoned
You are powerful not fluctuant
You are honorable not a disgrace
You are mine
All mine
I am yours
All yours



                                                                 Always