The light of my life isn't a light
Not the sun
Not a lamp
The light of my life is different
Just different
My lights silhouette can not be distinguished
The mystery of it's feature lies in the hands of God
The feeling of it's hand is unknown to my skin
The flavor of it's lips unknown to my tongue
The insense of it's being is unknown to my senses
The rythem of it's heart is unknown to my audition
My light is not a light
A man
Who bestows the light in my life
Who destroys the darkness with his laughter
Who detaches the sadness with his words
Who strips the melancholy with his smile
My light does not glow
He shines
More than the sun
More than a lamp
He shines brighter than anything on earth
He Is The Beautiful Light Of My Life

It's amazing how much I really love you
Every sound you make is majestic
Every breath you  breathe brings chills of delight
Every word you speak brings me to life
You move my spirit
I am emotionally attached to your being
You gave me back my soul
And carefully established it into gold
You gave me back my individuality
You brought me the one gift I thought had departed from my heart
Joy
You made me see who I really am
Yours
You made me realize what true happiness is
Love
You gave me that
You

I ******* hate myself
I hate knowing that I will never be loved
Touched
Kissed
No man would ever look at me like a rare object
That when you touch it breaks
I'm never going to the bride
Or the wife
Or the mother
I'm a home wrecker
Heart breaker
Spirit taker
I am nothing

On this night I think
Think about you, me, the world around us
Think about life without you
How lost I feel when I am not with you
Your voice smooth as velvet
My name sounds majestic when,
It slides off your tongue
My love for you is bigger than me
Bigger than us
Bigger than life
I ask the Lord,  why him?
I hate you, then I love you
I cry, then I laugh
I moan, then I whisper
I want you
I want your love
I want your heart
To have and to hold,
To cherish
You are a gift not a charity
You are loved not abandoned
You are powerful not fluctuant
You are honorable not a disgrace
You are mine
All mine
I am yours
All yours



                                                                 Always

Today I walk in shame

            As my heart is filled with pain

                                Life will never be the same