I realise I’m still a child

I thought I grew

Through disappointments and frustrations

I thought I became stronger

Betrayal after betrayal

I thought I became cold

Hurt after hurt

Who knew

This side of me

Still existed

The soft side

Still naive and trusting

Still innocent and child-like

Still accepting and forgiving

Believed in an ideal world

Fool, haven’t you realised

That we all

Live life alone?

Now and then I catch glimpses
Of maybe how I'd feel when I was young,
Of innocence and freedom and pure joy
Oh how I wish to feel them again

I see my dreams in pictures
I feel the ache of reality
My mind wonders a little too often
Can I get to where I'd like to be?
Are the dreams I dreamt still valid at all?
And most of all, last but not least,
What am I supposed to do when I'm bluer than blue?

I wonder what addiction feels like again

The feeling that
Maybe

I actually had an aim
A goal

Something I could
Look forward to
Something that
Let me escape

Maybe I did not have a life

But that addiction was my life

Come to think of it

Maybe

You're my new addiction

Addiction

Pen on paper, pen on paper
Mouths speak words and words meet ears
All you do is sit and learn, sit and learn
And watch and learn, and emulate
Emulate, immitate, impersonate
And ditto ditto ditto
What difference are you from the rest
When we all aim to be the best
As we play this infinite game
Of question and answer, question and answer

Is it quite alright

To live between the lines

Of reality and the mind?

Some days I just cannot tell

If I'm treading on sand or water or air

And most times I believe I live

In between the lines of reality and

The mind

I'm treading through thin air
It's almost like I can't breathe
Almost floating
My head heavy with ideas
A galaxy within my head
People don't think I'm normal
Though I try so hard to
My thoughts cloud my head
My body
Am I afloat? It's suffocating me
Maybe we all live alone
But maybe if I try hard enough
I will become just as normal
Maybe if I just watch and learn
Watch and learn