Do you know
what it feels like,
to be all alone?
Like, completely alone?

I’m talking everyday
every weekend, all year.
Not just the sporadic
dry phone.

I wake up
heart pounding.
Who will I
spend the holidays with?
It’s August,
and I still don’t
have a family.

It’s still just me.
Alone.
Dinner for one,
too sad to
have a tree.

I’m not sure
when I’ll be able
to look in the mirror again.
Whenever I see my reflection,
I want to shed my own skin.

I let someone touch me
who didn’t really care.
I tried to protect myself,
but there’s snakes everywhere.

They slide into your mind
and shower you with love,
wrap themselves around you,
then suffocate you with their shrug.

They eat you alive
until nothing is left.
They were cold blooded all along,
they just move on to the next.

It was nice,
but I’m ready to go.
To go grow.
To go learn all I can learn,
and know all I can know.
To hold more hands,
give even biggers hugs.
To share more of my precious love.

I find myself
only wanting to think about you.
When I walked the streets tonight,
I wonder if youre under the same moon.

I go to my favorite place
and dream of your face.
We both run wild in my head,
twisted in the sheets of my bed.

Where we lay in silence,
Wrapped in each others skin.
I think about you never having to leave,
I sit around to dream of pretend.

Where we get lost in each others eyes,
A place where the sun doesn’t rise.
A place for only me and you,
A place I go when you’re gone too soon.

I hate when people tell me
I talk too much.
I send too many text
And they can’t keep up.

At first they like it
Because it feels nice.
I help distract them
From their life.
But then it becomes old
And I get in the way.
Just another day
And I have too much
To say.

I cried over a text,
You sent too slow.
Pouted in the dark,
All alone.
Gathered the facts
I thought it would last.
In the meantime,
I turned to stone.

I liked my days
With only you.
You said yourself
It was too good to be true.
The eyes don’t lie
And neither did you.
Ever since you looked
Into mine,
I’ve been falling in blue.

I have flashbacks of us
And all our quirks.
You always came to me
You always made it work.
We felt it in the silence,
You knew my heart was good.
We were always there
For each other,
We had each others back,
We always understood.

They say healing is lonely
But they never tell you
That the silence
will suffocate you.
Pressing down on
every square inch
Of your body.
Forcing you to feel
the weight of letting go
of who you were
For who you need to be.