Pink and purple skies
every breath feels too tight.
The last thing I ever wanted
was to say goodbye.
It doesn’t feel right.

I’m starting to feel
like a bruise again.
Every move hurts.
In public, I don’t want
to be seen.
And the sun has become
too bright for me.

Clear thinking feels
like a distant memory
gone so fast,
will it ever come back?

I’m forcing myself
to see my purpose
in a world
that doesn’t have any.

Dreaming of being had,
even if only by one.
I promise,
that would be plenty.

It was nice,
but I’m ready to go.
To go grow.
To go learn all I can learn,
and know all I can know.
To hold more hands,
give even biggers hugs.
To share more of my precious love.

I find myself
only wanting to think about you.
When I walked the streets tonight,
I wonder if youre under the same moon.

I go to my favorite place
and dream of your face.
We both run wild in my head,
twisted in the sheets of my bed.

Where we lay in silence,
Wrapped in each others skin.
I think about you never having to leave,
I sit around to dream of pretend.

Where we get lost in each others eyes,
A place where the sun doesn’t rise.
A place for only me and you,
A place I go when you’re gone too soon.

Sometimes I wonder if anyone who has ever touched me
Actually cares
I always find myself over explaining,
Being met with cold stares.
At 3 am they always walk out and go.
The loneliest nights are Saturdays,
When everyone I know is home.

I hate when people tell me
I talk too much.
I send too many text
And they can’t keep up.

At first they like it
Because it feels nice.
I help distract them
From their life.
But then it becomes old
And I get in the way.
Just another day
And I have too much
To say.

I cried over a text,
You sent too slow.
Pouted in the dark,
All alone.
Gathered the facts
I thought it would last.
In the meantime,
I turned to stone.

I liked my days
With only you.
You said yourself
We fit like glue.
The eyes don’t lie
And neither did you.
Ever since you looked
Into mine,
I’ve been falling in blue.

I have flashbacks of us
And all our quirks.
The way you always
Came to me.
You knew my heart
told me it was good.
We felt it in the silence,
Always understood.
And I still can be the girl
That makes you feel,
Like the only one
in the world.

it took me 8 years to see it,
until one day on a random walk.
you'd be the biggest threat to my life,
the biggest war i ever fought.

you locked me out,
to keep the peace you could.
turning my gaze into glares,
because no one understood.
but what if what comes to light,
could silence the entire neighborhood?

i took the swing,
to try to rip you from your throne.
you gathered the troops,
threw me out of my own home.
i went down screaming,
as you silenced my voice.
the city determined i was crazy,
leaving me without a choice.

the good ol boys and morally
righteous got in line.
everyone has a soul,
until their bought by your father's dime.
giving you a hand,
as you brushed off the dirt.
boys from families like yours,
always withstand the hurt.

it took me 8 years to see it,
until one random day.
my truth will come out in your actions,
more than any lies you could ever say.